In need of support

[bridget jones]

I first wore womens lingerie at a very young age.I have been dressing off and on since that time.I did however come out to my ex sister-in-law when I was in my twenties.She was in shock but it was'nt a stunner as she had felt that I was different.I was so nervous I could'nt hardly dress so she did my make up for me,girls that was a mistake.She had me wearing blue eye shadow,bright red blush and lip stick(she did introduce me to powder though) I had a great time although the make up was a lil rough.We had a heart to heart and she named me Bridget that night.I went back for a second time with a different wig,silicone breast forms,my own make up and a short sexy sequin gown I borrowed from my sister(without her knowing,of course) and dressed myself completely from head to toe while sitting in front of her(I dressed in another room,panties,bra,hose and dress).I remember while sitting there putting on my make up in her lighted mirror that she made the remark "looks like you've done this before" and it felt so good to spill everything I have learned and done about dressing to her it was like a weight was lifted.I was such a gurl that night....I was betrayed by her a few years later as she exposed my secret that I shared with her.I have never been fully dressed since.I really don't understand why I want to dress like I do but it never goes away.I really miss dressing completely as a woman a the desire to do so is only getting stronger.I do shave my body and wear intimates from time to time but it isn't the same...I want more......Do any of you ladies have any advice.

[Persephone]

In a way, Bridget, when you were outed by her you became a victim of emotional abuse. It is common for those who have been abused to have scars for really long periods of time, sometimes even feeling guilty for having been abused, even though the guilt doesn't really belong to them.

Just because we are crossdressers, we are not immune from such hurt.

Participating in a community like this one and posting about what happened may begin to make you feel better.

Hugs,
Persephone.

[trannie T]

If there is something you want to do, something that does no harm, something you are capable of doing, why not go ahead and do it. Read the posts on this site and you can learn from people who have gone through experiences like yours. You are not alone there are many of us willing to help.

[Marcia Blue]

My ex-wife outed me several times. Twice she posted photos of me dressed, in the local paper in the personals section.
Yes, I was devastated every time. This caused me to dive deep into the closet and not dress at for fear of being caught.
I later decided dressing was a real part of me. I have dressed since, when ever the opportunity allows. I am not hurting anyone and I really get to relax and unwind.
I understand your pain, when a person who you thought you could trust betrays you.
Honesty most people do not really care what you wear. Some may speak out, but they are the minority. Hold your head high and start enjoying your fem side.

[Karren H]

No one knows why... If you like to do something then just do it... And this time don't tell any ex anyones.. Appears ex's aren't that trustworthy at keeping secrets..

[Fab Karen]

Like the witch said:
SURRENDER DOROTHY

[gennee]

You like to dress so go ahead and dress. Whether others don't like doesn't matter. Don't know why I dress but I love it. Karren's advice is excellent.

Gennee