Interesting Verbal Exchange Today

[Madilyn]

As many of you know, I'm getting ready to go out and have some incredible fun this coming weekend. Over the past several weeks I've been doing as much as possible to get ready, while my wife (bless her heart) has been getting ready to go visit her sister in Cali for 10 days. You see where I'm going with this right? ;)

Even though I'll be working while she's gone, it'll be a great opportunity for Maddy to go out and meet some old friends and make some new ones. You know, a girl just has to blow the cobwebs off once in awhile right?

Anyway, my wife and I were in the back yard laying in the sun this afternoon catching some rays. Since all of the errands and chores were finally done, I went ahead and joined her (which I don't always do).

One of the things I'm doing in preparation of next weekend is growing my own finger nails. I can usually do a nice job in about 3 weeks. They're starting to get past acceptable "man" length now, and this isn't the first time that she's mentioned them, but we were laying there in the sun and she looked over at me and said "When are you going to cut those nails?" "The next thing you'll do is paint them"... I just looked back at her and sarcastically replied "Yeah, right" in a total tone of denial...She just shrugged her shoulders and looked back into the sun...

I didn't know what else to do, so I avoided the remark by denying the truth. The rest of the afternoon, I realized that in a way, I actually "came out" to my wife and she didn't even know it. I also realized that I didn't really lie to her. Although the inflection in my reply and the tone of my voice led her to think otherwise and deflected the scrutiny, the words I shared were actually the dead-on truth.

This coming Friday night I will be shaping and painting my nails to go out dressed, so when my wife said that the next thing I'll do is paint them, she was absolutely on-the-mark and I looked her in the eye and said "Yeah. Right". I'm not sure why I'm sharing this with you other than the fact that its been on my mind all afternoon and I had to get it out. I'm almost beginning to wonder if this is the beginning of actually telling her the truth some day. It just struck me funny that the truth came out today, yet it was cloaked...maybe some day I'll be able to remove the cloak and show her my painted nails...I hope so...

Those of you with loving, caring, understanding, and supportive wifes or SO's, please do me a favor and give them a big ole' hug and kiss tonight, tell them that you love them, and let them know how much they mean to you. The TG community finds their level of acceptance honorable and worthy of accolades. They are very special people and you should always hold onto them dearly...

Kisses,

Maddy :o

[diane]

I just gave Sara a great big old hug and told her it was from Madilyn. She says hi and wishes you the best with your wife.

[Madilyn]

I just gave Sara a great big old hug and told her it was from Madilyn. She says hi and wishes you the best with your wife.

Thank you so much sweetie, you don't know how good that makes me feel tonight. I sure needed it. (I watched "My Best Friend's Wedding" tonight and balled my eyes out, lol )

Diane is a lucky lady...keep that fire baby ;)

Hugs,

Maddy :)

[Wen4cd]

I thought your wife was 'in-the-know' already. Wow. I hope someday you'll be able to show her.

I keep forgetting that some people aren't as lucky as I am with my wife. If she saw me growing my nails, she would just playfully tease me about painting them, in a knowing, approving way.

Well, have fun on your big weekned. (hope she doesn't decide to come home early, like in the movies!) We're having another camp-out this week.

Wen

[jeanette]

Maddy

Thanks for the mesage to apreciate our wives who know and support us. I tell her i love her every day.
I do so wish you could tell your wife maybe you will one day. The strain of not being able to tell her must be cause you great stress.

Life if so much bettere if people could only share and understand
love to you

[Jocee]

Have a grand week :)

[PaulaJeanette]

Oh Maddy, you are sooo lucky to be having this time to explore and grow! I bet you simply CAN'T wait and are just counting down the days, hours, and minutes. Oh how wonderful.

Paula J.

[HillaryArtemis]

Every night I dote on my beloved wife. When I was dating her I did the same, but then I became sad when I first dressed for her and she was scared that I was gay and thought that I would leave her for a man. All I reassured her didn't work, so I became sad and angry for several years. Now since she caught me (iI wanted to get caught), and we talked she has accepted and even encouraged me. She buys me clothes and we shop and talk about makeup. I dote on her again. I kiss her, compliment her, let her go out all the time and do special things while I mind the kids. I am so happy and thankful for her. I do grow my nails and have been wearing blue toe polish for the last week in a row. You know I couldn't lie anymore. I was to sad. Maddy, I understand how hard it must be. I went through it for years with my family - after I told them they didn't believe it and sent me to therapy to cure me - and then I went through it with my wife. Now I, Jodi and here and strong but growing everyday. I, Jodi, am young and growing. Maddy I would love to hug you and you could cry on my shoulders, cause what you and other CDs who need to hide do is probably about one of the hardest things for you. My wife said to me, "How did you do that for so many years, lie and hide. It must have hurt you deep inside." I said yes and cried in her arms.

JodiArtemis

[Jennifer_Ph]

I'll give her a great big hug tonight for ya Maddy. And I'll tell her why. You are in a difficult situation, for sure. It's very difficult to hide from someone you love. Because you want them to be part of all of you - but you're afraid BECAUSE you love them to tell them. I was lucky, I've known my wife since I was 12 (I am 36) and we never dated until 4 years ago. But we were best friends, lived about an hour and a half from each other. Wrote letters back and forth, etc. So when Jennifer was first coming about, she knew about it, I had to tell someone, and it was my best friend. We lost touch in college and I found her again via classmates. To make a long story short we were out to dinner once and she said, "So, are there still dresses in your closet on pantyhose in your dresser?" Yes was my reply. We talked about it, she just mostly wanted to know why I'd choose to wear such uncomfortable stuff as hose, bras, wigs, make-up cuz if she can go no make up t-shirt and jeans she's a happy girl.

She is the love of my life, the girl of my dreams, my best friend ever. I am lucky. I wish I could say or do something to make it easier for you, but I can't. I feel for you, because I have been in relationships where I've hidden Jennifer and I hated it. Jennifer has caused breakups. (Never been married before, just this one and ONLY time) Usually it wasn't because of Jennifer, but because Mike had taken so long to tell about her - and that led to "You don't trust me to tell me? How can I trust that you're not gay too?" God I hate that. CD does not equal gay. Anyway, I wish you luck girlfriend, and have a GREAT TIME THIS WEEK! Oh and get some great pictures too. My thoughts are with you, it'll all work out!

[ChristineRenee]

Will do for you Maddy. I've had my toenails polished for a week now and am about ready to change colors. The wife has given me pedicures...and she's good at it too...and even paints my toenails afterward. I have recipricated as well, painting her toenails that is, not with the pedicure.

Hope you have a lotta fun. Be good, be careful, and be safe.


xoxoxo,

Christine

[kristi cd]

Maddy,

Hope this weekend is as much fun as I think it's gonna be, just wish I coulda made it, ah well, maybe next year. :D I don't really know your situation with the misses, but you were probably caught off guard and just responeded the way many of us (at least I know I would have) in your situation. Maybe after an entire w/e as Maddy you can figure out a way to tell her if that's really what you want. ;) Oh well enough of the suggestions from me. :rolleyes:

[Madilyn]

...from the bottom of my heart. Your support and kind words help ease a constant pain...a pain I'm not sure will every go away. It's important to have people in your life who can understand and appreciate what it takes to lead an alternative lifestyle to what society deems as "normal". It's too bad we all don't live in a place where acceptance and respect dominate over prejudice, doubt, and fear. Hey, anybody got an island in the Carribean we can all move to? ;)

Wen, Jeannette, Jocee, PJ, Hillary, Jennifer, Christine, Diane, Kristi, and I know my girl Darby's in da house somewhere. You girls are the wicker that we weave here on a daily basis and our sisterhood only stands to get stronger and tighter over time. Thank you for being true friends. A better forum can not be found...you girls Rock!

Kisses to you all,

Maddy :)

p.s. This weekend is going to be incredible! Even if I'm by myself, this weekend is going to be incredible. In fact, this weekend is going to be incredible if it kills me, lol...jk ;) Thanks girlies, I'll keep you posted...muah!

[Bernadina]

I wonder what would have happened if you had replied.

"What colour would you suggest?"

[Madilyn]

I wonder what would have happened if you had replied.

"What colour would you suggest?"

...until she sees my matching shoes and purse... ;)

[Jenny]

Hi Maddy,

I hope I am not too late to add my wishes for a wonderful time. While the cat's away, the mouse shall play, eh? ;)

I also want to add that I think you are a real sweetie pie, Maddie. I think of all the members you go out of your way the most to be openly supportive and complimentary to the others members. As someone who sometimes posts way too much, it is nice to have someone compliment me on something I have said. I hope you are an active member of our group for a long, lllllloooooonnnnnggggg, lllllllllllooooonnnnnggggg time.

xoxo

Jenny

[Scaredsis]

Maddy,

Enjoy your weekend, I wish you the best.

Hugs,
Betty

[Madilyn]

Jenny darling, you are never too late to provide us with your wit, insight, and borderline genius ponderings and queries. I love to sign-onto the forum just to find out what you are curious about today. Your spirit and inquisitive nature is infectous. Thank you for being here for us all...

How nice of you to send good wishes, and what a wonderful gesture of support I've seen from all of you. You will be in my hearts this weekend. Yes, I will be playing like a kid Jenny, so it's too bad some of you couldn't have come out to play also...maybe you can make MaddyFest '05 ;)

Jenny, I don't think you have to worry about getting compliments out of this group of ladies, you have won all of our hearts and should be extremely proud of how you represent yourself. I'm incredibly impressed with you and pleased you inhabit our family.

So I'll make you a deal sister...I'll be around this forum as long as you are. It's as simple as that. If you leave then I'll leave too (ceromoniously simulates an exchanging of blood). This bond I betroth unto you.

HRH Miss Madilyn ;)



Hi Maddy,

I hope I am not too late to add my wishes for a wonderful time. While the cat's away, the mouse shall play, eh? ;)

I also want to add that I think you are a real sweetie pie, Maddie. I think of all the members you go out of your way the most to be openly supportive and complimentary to the others members. As someone who sometimes posts way too much, it is nice to have someone compliment me on something I have said. I hope you are an active member of our group for a long, lllllloooooonnnnnggggg, lllllllllllooooonnnnnggggg time.

xoxo

Jenny