brenda lynn mwe
11-27-2009, 11:39 PM
hello everyone im so sorry i havent been very active on here. ive been a member here for a little while. i was using my sell phone when i did get on here. my phone started acting up because i have a smart phone .well i went and got me a lap top. so im back everyone and im sorry for everyone that fills like i was egnoreing them i wasnt. just couldnt respond to anything. but anyway. ive been haven a tuff time with life and my self. i have been on hrt for two months now . and things there are going well with that . but i have a gg thats my girl friend and she is some what soppertive of my crossdressing but she doesnt want me to go threw the trans.but i am anyway its me i have to to become the true person i am. things have been so bad i havent got fixed up in a long time well when i went to my doctor to get my harmounse was the last time in two month i have got fixed up.im so lonely here in my life and fill like im climbing the biggest mounting.i have went back in the closet completly im so depressed i have no family they have all passed no friends and the friends i do have would dich me if they had a clue how i am and who i realy are.theres no sopport groups around here close to me to go and get out with them .and my job theres guys there that used to be my friend now they call me a fag and etc.and i have no i idea why because i have never gave anyone a clue at work that im trans.i want to find and befriends with some girls thats going threw the same as me that we can go out and shop and have fun nothing sexial. just plain friends to share life together the goods and the bads to be there for each other.i want to changes jobs but i make good money for around here to be home everynight yes im a truckdriver and i have some addvantages there but im stuck. im so lost and dont know were to run or what road to take.and no one to turn to but youl:love:when you have no mom or dad or no family to turn to or friends to turn to what do u do?and to top everything of my girl friends son comes home from housten and we were wresling around i pulled his socks off and his toes are painted . he felt embarrest so i tookoff my socks because mine are painted .but i dont know why hes toes would be painted hes only 12 years oid and never new about me and my cross dressing or trans he does kinda like girl stuff from what hes mom tells me.but anyway thats bothering me to.this hole story is i have no one and no one.and dont know what to do about how to change my life to the better. id be willing to move and completely change completly but were would i go dont know anyone anywhere i would go. im so along mentaly and fisacly.any help would be so thinkful loves to everyone and hope everyone had a happy thankgiving hugs brenda lynn:love::hugs::sad: