joanne anderson
12-10-2009, 09:38 PM
Hi there.
After receiving answers to a recent thread I wrote, about what your called by when dressed, my wife and I sat down for a long discussion about " Who was Joanne ".
This led to her wondering why, when she talks to Joanne about the past events that she and here S/O have done together, that I, Joanne am reluctant to acknowledge those things that have taken place in the past.
I had to think hard on that question and I had difficulty trying to explain it to myself let alone to her.
After a while I told her that once I become Joanne, I try to truly become this person "Joanne" completely in thought and behavior. I feel that now Joanne is out of the closet she is person in her own right and if I were to talk about the things (she) has done with her S/O, then, Joanne is no longer Joanne but just her S/O in a dress and wig and Joanne as a person, is lost.
I know this is a complex issue for us both at the moment and something I will have to be aware of more.
As we discussed it more she told me she accepts Joanne and that she sees in her parts of her S/O behavior that is missing from him these days. Things such as his spontaneous moments of fun, relaxed mood, which seem to have been rplace with short out busrst of temper. Above all she is worried that Joanne will take over much of her S/O and she will loose him totaly to Joanne which I was shocked to hear. I have never planned to be Joanne 24/7, I accepted when I came out to her that what ever guide line she set down about Joanne being a part of her and here S/O, that was fine.
As I have since had time to thing hard about what she told me I think in some way maybe Joanne has been and escape for me. I'm no longer the young person I was, I've had heart surgery ( thankfully am well now ) have not been full time employed for ten years so have been contributing less to the household income.
Like many others out there I receive a state pension but have just a few other small pensions but once we have only two pensions, life will be a little harder. So to sum it up, there are is a lot of stress in my life and may be Joanne grew from this stress as a means to escape from all of it, even for just a little while and this could explain why Joanne needs to be a different person than her male body.
I know at times recently, that Joanne has been around more and this I know has led to wishing I " could " be around for much longer, spare the thought,even that 24/7 that I said earlier I never planned.
So where to from here girls. Have any others of you gone through this turmoil, had this discussion with you S/O or some of your C/D friends.
I treasure any advice, good or bad that you all can give me.
Love Joanne
After receiving answers to a recent thread I wrote, about what your called by when dressed, my wife and I sat down for a long discussion about " Who was Joanne ".
This led to her wondering why, when she talks to Joanne about the past events that she and here S/O have done together, that I, Joanne am reluctant to acknowledge those things that have taken place in the past.
I had to think hard on that question and I had difficulty trying to explain it to myself let alone to her.
After a while I told her that once I become Joanne, I try to truly become this person "Joanne" completely in thought and behavior. I feel that now Joanne is out of the closet she is person in her own right and if I were to talk about the things (she) has done with her S/O, then, Joanne is no longer Joanne but just her S/O in a dress and wig and Joanne as a person, is lost.
I know this is a complex issue for us both at the moment and something I will have to be aware of more.
As we discussed it more she told me she accepts Joanne and that she sees in her parts of her S/O behavior that is missing from him these days. Things such as his spontaneous moments of fun, relaxed mood, which seem to have been rplace with short out busrst of temper. Above all she is worried that Joanne will take over much of her S/O and she will loose him totaly to Joanne which I was shocked to hear. I have never planned to be Joanne 24/7, I accepted when I came out to her that what ever guide line she set down about Joanne being a part of her and here S/O, that was fine.
As I have since had time to thing hard about what she told me I think in some way maybe Joanne has been and escape for me. I'm no longer the young person I was, I've had heart surgery ( thankfully am well now ) have not been full time employed for ten years so have been contributing less to the household income.
Like many others out there I receive a state pension but have just a few other small pensions but once we have only two pensions, life will be a little harder. So to sum it up, there are is a lot of stress in my life and may be Joanne grew from this stress as a means to escape from all of it, even for just a little while and this could explain why Joanne needs to be a different person than her male body.
I know at times recently, that Joanne has been around more and this I know has led to wishing I " could " be around for much longer, spare the thought,even that 24/7 that I said earlier I never planned.
So where to from here girls. Have any others of you gone through this turmoil, had this discussion with you S/O or some of your C/D friends.
I treasure any advice, good or bad that you all can give me.
Love Joanne