bobi jean
12-14-2009, 11:40 AM
most of you may recall, I have been out to my family as a cross dresser for a few years now. (from 5-7 years) depending on when they were told. this past weekend is one that I will never forget. The 10th was my 60th birthday, my son had to teach that evening so he made plans to take me out on the 11th for my b-day dinner with him. During dinner, We discussed the fact that I had previously told him I would be leaving his mother within the next couple weeks or so. he, naturally, was a little upset about that and wanted to know why and to make sure I thought I knew what I was planning to do. We talked about how unhappy I have been for years, about how irritable I have become in the last three or four years, a lot of things, but it all boiled down to MY HAPPINESS, and he is all for that. Last week I posted somewhere on here that I had been writing my story, well, my son and daughter-in-law read it this weekend, pictures and all. Not only does it 100% disclose the fact that I am a cross dresser, but it goes a LOT FARTHER than that. The story itself was written as a means of self therapy for me, to, kind of, help me understand. It has done that, and more. while doing the story I realized that I am not just a crossdresser. I admitted to gay sexual tendencies I have been feeling from a very young age. admitted to having sex (as a girl) with some brothers friends(boys) for presents I thought I wanted at the time. He got really pissed at that until I told him is was not incest, I never had sex with my brothers that I remember, just my brothers friends. I mean, I admitted to damn near everything. Male on male sex in high school,and at that time I knew what I was doing. I once had sex with another man when I was about 25 or so, and that was the first and only time I had sex with another man, with me being the man in the act. but most importantly I admitted to the present, which is very revealing to everything I want. I have been married to the same woman for almost 38 years and been faithful to her for over 30. Now I want to, and honestly feel I need to be a woman. I want to live 24/7 as a woman but it isn't practical at the time. I want to have sex as a woman, that is not practical at the time either but it will be soon. As it turns out, My son is so frigging cool with all this this, he and my daughter in law now say it is time for my grand-daughters to meet their other grandma "Bobi". I honestly never dreamed of this, ever happening, or their acceptance on this level. I'm going to cry. My son and daughter in law, already knew that grandpa dresses up, but in the past it was always "we'd rather not confuse the girls like that. Now,(and I still have a hard time believing it), it is time to meet grandma "Bobi".
We will take our time in planning this. I sure do not want to blow this chance.
I now have an appointment set up with a counselor. that was done before, actually set up the appointment on the 7th, for the 15th. MY daughter in law is going with me. My son has to work until after the appointment but wants me to set up follow up appointments when he doesn't have to teach. I think they want to go just to make sure I don't chicken out, which isn't going to happen. I have to do everything I can to be happy. I'm way to old not to be!!!
I'm so emotional right now I can't write any more. this has already take aver an hour to write and I have work to do
Thank you all for reading and I will keep everyone updated as we proceed.
CLOUD NINE ? NO, I AM SO HIGH ABOVE THAT
We will take our time in planning this. I sure do not want to blow this chance.
I now have an appointment set up with a counselor. that was done before, actually set up the appointment on the 7th, for the 15th. MY daughter in law is going with me. My son has to work until after the appointment but wants me to set up follow up appointments when he doesn't have to teach. I think they want to go just to make sure I don't chicken out, which isn't going to happen. I have to do everything I can to be happy. I'm way to old not to be!!!
I'm so emotional right now I can't write any more. this has already take aver an hour to write and I have work to do
Thank you all for reading and I will keep everyone updated as we proceed.
CLOUD NINE ? NO, I AM SO HIGH ABOVE THAT