I'm scared, I don't want to die

[Billijo49504]

First of all, I want to appolagize for dumping my problems on you. Your good people.
A couple weeks ago, my Dr. noticed a lump on my neck. He said it was probably nothing,but, we aught to check it out. Then I had to go for a MRI scan. Loud and very close, in that tube. Next I had to see a surgen. He stuck a needle in my thyroid about 7 times to get samples for a biopsy. He told me it probably nothing. I went to see him again today. And the results were a Hurthle Cell thyroid tumor, probably CANCER. I don't remember much after that, good thing the wife was with me. I have a preop checkup scheduled and a couple week after that I have surgery to remove 1 thyroid glan, if that comes back as cancer, several days later they will take out the other side. I couldn't even bring myself to go to work tonight. I'd be alright for a little while, then I start crying. From what I've read today, this stuff is usually in females 2:1. This might explain the cding. I watched my first wife die of cancer, Nuffsaid.
Usually when I'm down in the dumps, dressing up helps. It isn't helping today.

[Rainbow6562005]

Hi, Billijo,

I'm so sorry that you're going through this ordeal.
I fervently wish that I could make the tumor vanish, but, of course, I don't have the power. All I can do is offer you a caring ear and wish you the very best. I'm at rainbow@gardensnyc.net, on Windows IM, should you want to chat.

Rainbow

[Adrianne]

First of all, I want to appolagize for dumping my problems on you. Your good people.
A couple weeks ago, my Dr. noticed a lump on my neck. He said it was probably nothing,but, we aught to check it out. Then I had to go for a MRI scan. Loud and very close, in that tube. Next I had to see a surgen. He stuck a needle in my thyroid about 7 times to get samples for a biopsy. He told me it probably nothing. I went to see him again today. And the results were a Hurthle Cell thyroid tumor, probably CANCER. I don't remember much after that, good thing the wife was with me. I have a preop checkup scheduled and a couple week after that I have surgery to remove 1 thyroid glan, if that comes back as cancer, several days later they will take out the other side. I couldn't even bring myself to go to work tonight. I'd be alright for a little while, then I start crying. From what I've read today, this stuff is usually in females 2:1. This might explain the cding. I watched my first wife die of cancer, Nuffsaid.
Usually when I'm down in the dumps, dressing up helps. It isn't helping today.

I am so sorry to hear this, i hope you be ok just have a faith in god to help you though this and you wife will be there for you too. Please be postive that everything will be fine but i understand where you are comming from as i would feel the same way.

Adrianne.

[Gemma]

Don't know what to say hun except my thoughts are with you and hang in there :hugs:

[KewTnCurvy GG]

My father had thyroid cancer. The general good news is; it's very slow growing. I can say with 100% confidence he lived a full life for at least 12 to 15 years AFTER his diagnosis and surgery. I don't know about your type in general. But overall, very slow growing. Definitely get to a specialist! :) And best of luck, life affirming prayers your way and a big hug!

[Amelie]

Billijo, this is so sad, but you have to fight it. You are a CD'er, there is nothing in the world that can beat us, we are fighters, and so are you.

Otherwise, all I can say is that I,, and everyone here will be praying for everything to turn out OK. It's OK to cry, this will releive some of the tension.

All the best
Love Amelie

[Ophelia D'Void]

Hang in there. I can scarcely imagine what it must be like for you to go through this right now.

With all the hurt and fear that you must be going through, I can only give you my sympathy and support.

In whatever dysfunctional way I can, my heart goes out to you and I will be praying for your health. Please be strong, many times mood and overall outlook are some of the best ways to deal with cancer. And if what Kewt says is true, there's not reason why you can't fight this.

We'll be here for support, doctors will be there for the technical stuff, and I have no doubt that you can deal with the rest...

Love...
O

[geegee2]

Im sorry to hear about it and can relate to your loss, one of my best gg friends succumbed to cancer and it was devistating, so here are all my stongest prayers for you girlfriend and when you go for sugery I will make sure that GOD is watching over you. Plwase dont let it get you down, just keep on being yourself and remember that all of us girls are there for you to talk to,I hope you girls forgive me for saying that but Im sure you will agree with me, som heres all my really strong prayers fot you billijo and more to come every day.

all my love and kisses and hugs, GEEGEE2 :)

[JennMW]

Billie Jo,

I'm really so sorry to hear your sad news.

Girl, please keep a positive attitude! Feel free to pm me. Talking with others really helped me deal with my own trauma.

Last December, I was sitting at my computer, put my hands down in my lap and felt a lump on my thigh. At first I thought it was a fold in my sweats but a closer examination showed a 10x4x2 cm lump.

I followed much the same trail you are starting on. Ultrasound, MRI, biopsy, a visit to the surgeon. I was diagnosed with a form of cancer called liposarcoma.

Radiation treatments, surgery and seven months later my prognosis is excellent. The tumor has been removed and the cancer is in remission.

In my case, it also had an interesting twist. I now have a lifetime prescription for 30-40 mm/hg thigh high support hose! I wish you could have seen the look on my wife's face when the doctor said that! :D

Comforting hugs,
Jennifer

BE A SURVIVOR!

[Marla GG]

Billijo :hugs:

News like that would scare anyone, but it might not be as serious as you think. Try to imagine a good outcome unless the doctors give you a definite reason to believe otherwise. It may not even be cancer, but if it is, chances are you will survive. Keep hope alive, because it will make you stronger. You will be in my thoughts and I will be wishing the best for you. Take care :love:

[Sigrid]

"Bottom line, Hurthle cell thyroid cancers are very curable if you have a good thyroid surgeon and a good endocrinologist.... The vast majority of people should be cured of this cancer."

from... http://www.endocrineweb.com/hurthle.html

I've was treated for melignant melanoma a few years ago, and know how devistating this news can be... even with assurances from the doctors that it was caught very early and that I should not worry too much about it.

For what it's worth though... from what I've read, and if it's possible, you really should try not to worry too much about it... :hugs:

[Anita]

so sorry to read yor thread But be POSITIVE and hopefully your fears will be unfounded
I am sure that all the girls on here are batting for you I am not religious but tonite(In case i am wrong) I will pray 4 u
Love Anita xx

[Wendy me]

look it it like this your far better off with them knowing abought it and starting a treatment plan than not knowing it was there ...try to keep thinking possitive and we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers .......

[Billijo49504]

Thank you, thank you, thank you all of you. Thanks for the support, the inspiration and thank you for the prayers. But most of all, even though you don't know me, I want to thank you for being a friend, all of you. We really are like a family. I feel closer to you, than to people I've known for a long time. HUGS Billijo

[SilkenPrincess]

Billie Jo,
You've got MY prayers. I'll be thinking of you!
Love,
SilkenPrincess

[laurab323]

Billyjo,

I am SO sorry to hear about your Dr's visit. You are in my thoughts and prayers. A good cry never hurts a girl.

Love,
Laura

[Olivia]

Hang in there Billijo!! I know it sounds hollow to say it but try to keep that positive outlook going. I know from family experiences that it really does help. We're all pullin' for you! Love, Olivia

[Lisa Maren]

Hi Billijo

You've got my thoughts and prayers, too. We're here anytime you need us. :)

Hugs,
Lisa

[Priscilla1018]

Billyjo,

You will be in my prayers and in my thoughts as you go through this ordeal.Thank you for sharing this with us,we are all family and will always be here for you.

[RachelB.]

My prayers are with you and your family. I pray God will give you a peace about your health and will give your Doctors wisdom and guidance.

Your sister in Christ

Rachel

[emmicd]

Dear Billyjo:

There's nothing I can say that hasn't been said already. You certainly have the support of this little community pulling for your recovery and wellbeing. I will keep you in my prayers and wish for a good outcome. Have faith and love your wife with all your heart and soul.

Best wishes!

Emmi

[Clare]

Dear Billyjo.

The other girls have all expressed the same thoughts i wish to convey to you.

I will pray for you that everything will work out ok.

Hugs, Christine.

[Patricia]

I really sympathise with your worries, my ex wife is going through the same problem with her thyroid and I have had two cancer scares which gave me so many sleepless nights, but we are still hanging on in there. Good luck and be positive, I,m sure we are all thinking of you
xxx

[Billijo49504]

Thank you sisters, It's good to know I have an extended family to fall back on for support. I've read everything I can find on the internet about this stuff. Some sites give you hope,and some don't. I wish I'd wake up from this nightmare.
But tonight when the wife came home from work, she's a new employee so she can't miss work, she brought me a present. A book on makeup techniques and some new shadows. I love her and she loves me. HUGS Billijo

[Sweet Jeanette]

Doctors and hospitals can often do wonderous things, and I hope they do right by you. Im sorry that they told you that you have this tumor thing. -I hope that you come out Ok.---Im sorry, I should not say my thoughts here, about Doctors and hospitals. It isn't right. ---It's just that I have known too many people and family members that have been missdiagnosed, and been put on too many medications, and most have died because of the lack of a Proper Diagnosis and Treatment! ---I have a bad attitude for Doctors and hospitals, because of that, which has happened in the past. Do yourself a favor; ---Get many opinions from many Doctors!---Then,---Pick!----Hell!---Maybe THIS will make you feel better!----My Doc gave me only 9 to 12 years to live, because of my advanced emphysemia, caused by 44 years of smoking!!!---Ha!---So,---Feel Better About Yuorself!!!---Enjoy each day!---I do.----------------Good Luck! :thumbsup:

[Melissa Ryan]

I am so sorry to hear this is happening to you. Both Lyn and I will be thinking of you!
Just a quote from Priscilla, "Welcome to our family!" And I must say, since the first time she said it to me, I have felt welcome! I am glad you have found this too!!


.........Melissa.........

[caitlin]

Thank you sisters, It's good to know I have an extended family to fall back on for support. I've read everything I can find on the internet about this stuff. Some sites give you hope,and some don't. I wish I'd wake up from this nightmare.
But tonight when the wife came home from work, she's a new employee so she can't miss work, she brought me a present. A book on makeup techniques and some new shadows. I love her and she loves me. HUGS Billijo


Count my prayers in with the rest...You do have an extended family here as an added support to the one you have at home. Hang in there hun.

...it would be great to just go *PWANG* (got that from Bill Cosby) and make it go away...regardless, we will be here to talk to when you need it.

my best...

[Emily Ann Brown]

Don't know what I can add to all that my sisters have already expressed,except to say keep the chin up and make the most of every moment from here on just in case your worst fears are right. We're here if you need us.

Emily Ann

[Stephenie]

My thyriod does'nt not work well at the moment. Years ago my body decided that it didn't belong and started making antibodies to get rid of it. If they have to take it all then you can take a pill once a day to replacethe hormones. Good luck and my prayers are with you.

:Pray: :hugs:

[Ariel]

So sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I would like to wish you the best of luck beating this.

Hugs,
Ariel