rachellegsep
02-07-2010, 06:22 PM
What a wonderful 2 weeks its been.
After 14 years of the “I don’t want to see or know” policy of trying to ignore the whole cding issue, it came as shock when my wife has suddenly become more accepting and understanding of the CD issues. She has come to the realisation that the female side of me will always be there. It is an integral part of my inner being and was not something that could be cured with counseling. It couldn’t be denied no matter how hard I tried. Suppressing it only lasts so long, eventually the need to dress takes over. This leads to you becoming resentful and secretive, with you having to hide your feelings, clothes and dressing from your partner. Everything hangs in a fine balance with each partner having the don’t show or tell policy. The fear is that discussing the issues will rock the boat from its state of equilibrium and lead to outright rejection and breakup of the relationship. This intern creates stress in the relationship.
Back 2 weeks - I mentioned that it would mean more to me than anything else on my birthday if Rachel was to received something from my SO – more as a sign of acknowledgement of my feminine side. She said she would think about it. Several days later whilst surfing I came across a site for cd wives. Curious I went in and found my SO had posted there. Reading her true feelings and pent up anger shocked and upset me. I had deduced that my request was the act of cocking the gun so to speak. For several days I moped around keeping it bottled up inside and hiding my true emotions, eventually I couldn’t take it any longer and decided to discuss the whole thing with her. I was expecting the worst… as it happened it was the opposite. We tearfully discussed our problems and I expressed also that the site she was posting on was biased, almost CD hating in a way (counter productive to any understanding as no other viewpoints are accepted), I gave her directions to this site.
Back to the present. - a new level in our relationship started last Sunday. My SO and I went shopping together for clothes for the 1st time, strangely enough we both picked some of the same items. She has also recently become a member here and the FAB forum. Her change of mindset and unconditional acceptance for me as I am with all my faults has encouraged me to be more open. She has now seen pics of Rachel as tells me it doesn’t disgust her. Our relationship has changed for the better with romance coming back into our marriage. I love her with all my heart. :love:
May this site help many others to gain some level of understanding and acceptance.
Rachel
After 14 years of the “I don’t want to see or know” policy of trying to ignore the whole cding issue, it came as shock when my wife has suddenly become more accepting and understanding of the CD issues. She has come to the realisation that the female side of me will always be there. It is an integral part of my inner being and was not something that could be cured with counseling. It couldn’t be denied no matter how hard I tried. Suppressing it only lasts so long, eventually the need to dress takes over. This leads to you becoming resentful and secretive, with you having to hide your feelings, clothes and dressing from your partner. Everything hangs in a fine balance with each partner having the don’t show or tell policy. The fear is that discussing the issues will rock the boat from its state of equilibrium and lead to outright rejection and breakup of the relationship. This intern creates stress in the relationship.
Back 2 weeks - I mentioned that it would mean more to me than anything else on my birthday if Rachel was to received something from my SO – more as a sign of acknowledgement of my feminine side. She said she would think about it. Several days later whilst surfing I came across a site for cd wives. Curious I went in and found my SO had posted there. Reading her true feelings and pent up anger shocked and upset me. I had deduced that my request was the act of cocking the gun so to speak. For several days I moped around keeping it bottled up inside and hiding my true emotions, eventually I couldn’t take it any longer and decided to discuss the whole thing with her. I was expecting the worst… as it happened it was the opposite. We tearfully discussed our problems and I expressed also that the site she was posting on was biased, almost CD hating in a way (counter productive to any understanding as no other viewpoints are accepted), I gave her directions to this site.
Back to the present. - a new level in our relationship started last Sunday. My SO and I went shopping together for clothes for the 1st time, strangely enough we both picked some of the same items. She has also recently become a member here and the FAB forum. Her change of mindset and unconditional acceptance for me as I am with all my faults has encouraged me to be more open. She has now seen pics of Rachel as tells me it doesn’t disgust her. Our relationship has changed for the better with romance coming back into our marriage. I love her with all my heart. :love:
May this site help many others to gain some level of understanding and acceptance.
Rachel