i need a lot of help

[lori m crawford]

i am a 57yrs old cd-ts have ben all my life but i am out of work an i dont what to do at my age no income what to do i do not have help no frinds to speak of i fell like i am all don all my life i new i was differnt but try to do what ever body wonted but wen did some ove you ladies find out what you was not an how did you dile with it has being you or us tore you a part in side wen did you say i cant take it no more an do it being you if i was 20 an look like most of you i cood but being a dress as a old women is good but not for a job most yonger girls have been with more then my sher of girl frinds an all new but they got of it an left they like it at frst said it was fun but i think if i was to try men i cood find it i dont know seeem like i hove no luck with women have you felt that way i like to dress an be as much a women as i can but never ben with one that way i now i am say a lot of words i need some one to love me for me time is runing out for me

[DiannaRose]

Lori, no matter what--no matter how dark the night seems, the dawn ALWAYS comes.

No matter how old you are, it's NEVER too late to start over.

No matter what bad circumstances come into your life, you CAN get through them. Not past them, not around the, not over or under them...you must go THROUGH.

In my faith, I believe God brings us to things in order to polish us and make us shine. Think about it...what gold was ever shaped WITHOUT the fire? What gem was ever created without the heat and pressure? Not one.

Yes, in the middle of the night, when all is darkest, it's easy to feel that there will never be light again. But each passing moment brings the sunrise that much closer.

Hold onto hope. Have faith. Believe things will change and they will. I know these are only words, but when words are all we have to give, we can't be selfish with them. :)

[Karen564]

Awwww,So sad.....
Never say your too old...You can do it at Any age..

Believe it or not, I once felt just as you are right now about 5 years ago..

It definitely sounds like you need to get to help Now!!! so you can get that depression under control & then talk all about it ..

Just keep in mind that I'm not really that far behind you, there's only by 8 short years between us...
And just started college last year to start a new Medical career...So my motto is, never say never...you can do anything if you want it bad enough...

Life as you know it doesn't need to end at 57, but only you can turn that around and say you want to start a new life at 57 instead..

Good luck,
But please don't put off getting some professional help immediately..
:hugs:

[jillleanne]

Sorry to hear you are down. Well, the answer is quite simple really. Start by looking around you and seeing how many people from all walks of life are far worse off than you. I know, no consolation, but it sets the stage for you. Don't just limit yourself to seeing the homeless on the streets. Visit a hospital for sick children, or the cancer ward at any hospital. Once you come to terms of just how far it is to the bottom( and you are far from the bottom yet), take a pen and paper, sit comfortably, and begin to write down all the things you are good at. It can be anything, but write them all down. Next, number them in priority of expertise. Next, number them again, in priority of pleasure you get from each one. Finally, summarize them from best to worst. The answer will lie before you. Prepare a course of action you will take to achieve your goal of getting a job doing what you are best at and enjoy the most. call any high school/college, university for assistance to executing your goal. They will provide you the tools for researching.
Hope this helps and the harder you fight to succeed, the faster you will.