lucyUk
03-16-2010, 03:49 PM
Hello,
Over the last few months I have been getting more and more comfortable with my feminine self, I feel so much more at ease and relaxed when dressed and though i have always enjoyed it, i feel alot more in control of my femme self atm. Anyways, I have been going out, in the evenings at first, I went to see a wig specialist a couple of times dressed which was cool. She was really nice, v friendly and gave me some really good advice. Fast forward a few days and i started going out and about around the house, putting stuff in the mailbox and putting the washing out and stuff :), you know everyday house type things. But yesterday was the biggie, I got fully dressed and went to a not so local shopping centre! I had expected it to maybe be a little quiet but it was so busy! I sat in my car for about 10 mins just getting myself mentally ready, I thought about all the things that could happen, the reactions and whether it would effect me, and you know what...I thought no! Why should i let people who dont truly know me, or understand stop me from being myself and expressing myself. As i was sitting there in a car park, a few people came and went on different sides...but when a lady pulled in next to me..I thought come on, its now or never! I got out and started walking :) I had a wonderful time, i wandered around the shops for a couple of hours, tried on some clothes in Debenhams :), and even bought a jacket I have been after for a few weeks. I got a few odd looks...but you know what surprised even more was all the people who didnt even notice or look. The place was full of college kids too! Something I have always been scared of but they were cool, I saw only one of them motion in my direction but it was great. I was in and out of shops and I just loved being myself and having such wonderful time. I wasnt planning a long trip, so came home after a few hours. I even stopped and asked a young lady for directions! I got home, and I dont think its quite sunk in...I even saw one of my neighbors on the way in and thought after the what i had done that day...i didnt care!! :)
Just thought i would share :)
Chat soon,
lucy x
Over the last few months I have been getting more and more comfortable with my feminine self, I feel so much more at ease and relaxed when dressed and though i have always enjoyed it, i feel alot more in control of my femme self atm. Anyways, I have been going out, in the evenings at first, I went to see a wig specialist a couple of times dressed which was cool. She was really nice, v friendly and gave me some really good advice. Fast forward a few days and i started going out and about around the house, putting stuff in the mailbox and putting the washing out and stuff :), you know everyday house type things. But yesterday was the biggie, I got fully dressed and went to a not so local shopping centre! I had expected it to maybe be a little quiet but it was so busy! I sat in my car for about 10 mins just getting myself mentally ready, I thought about all the things that could happen, the reactions and whether it would effect me, and you know what...I thought no! Why should i let people who dont truly know me, or understand stop me from being myself and expressing myself. As i was sitting there in a car park, a few people came and went on different sides...but when a lady pulled in next to me..I thought come on, its now or never! I got out and started walking :) I had a wonderful time, i wandered around the shops for a couple of hours, tried on some clothes in Debenhams :), and even bought a jacket I have been after for a few weeks. I got a few odd looks...but you know what surprised even more was all the people who didnt even notice or look. The place was full of college kids too! Something I have always been scared of but they were cool, I saw only one of them motion in my direction but it was great. I was in and out of shops and I just loved being myself and having such wonderful time. I wasnt planning a long trip, so came home after a few hours. I even stopped and asked a young lady for directions! I got home, and I dont think its quite sunk in...I even saw one of my neighbors on the way in and thought after the what i had done that day...i didnt care!! :)
Just thought i would share :)
Chat soon,
lucy x