Graduated!

[Bree-asaurus]

EDIT: Cleared up some confusion in later posts! Not an overnight "decision" and not jumping into anything I'm not ready for! Sorry for the confusion :-)

Hey! I'm graduating to the TG section! YAY!

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While I've been a member for a short white, I've accepted a little bit more of who I am and figure that I'll be posting in here every now and again. I've been feeling that I am TG and after a session with my shrink today, even though I am scared to admit it, I am starting to realize that I need to accept it.

This is a long shot, but if any of you are in or around San Antonio, Texas, I really want to be able to talk to someone who is dealing with, or has dealt with, these issues.

I also need to change my forum name at some point, lol.

[Hope]

I don't think I ever even matriculated, and you are graduating? Not fair.

Oh - and I think Brian is a very nice name... why would you want to change that?

Um... welcome?

[Andy66]

One session with a shrink made you think this? Are you sure? Well then, congratulations on taking another step towards knowing yourself and being happy. :)

[EnglishRose]

Welcome!

I'm still studying for the midterms, personally. My therapist reckons I should only go to one that has specific knowledge of trans issues when i'm 75% sure that i'm TS. Is that the passing grade? :)


I took a quick straw poll today and only seven tenths of me are sure. Doh! More fun to follow, then. Bit like trans groundhog day. Six more weeks of dysphoria!

[boardpuppy]

At least you passed with flying colors, I barely got by and still struggling with the home work. Although it is getting easier not prefect you understand but easier.

Hugs,
Alice

[Kaitlyn Michele]

TS Section...:doh:

You've ALWAYS been in the TG section...

It is great to have you...stay on top of the therapy ...there will be lots of ups, downs and gyrations outside of one meeting..

So what are your plans going forward?

All the best,Kate

[Teri Jean]

Congrats sis, you are so welcome here and I hope things go well for you. Sorry I cannot visit other than here as my home is slightly north of yours, Minnesota. Southern Minnesota at that, LOL. Teri

[Bree-asaurus]

One session with a shrink made you think this? Are you sure? Well then, congratulations on taking another step towards knowing yourself and being happy. :)

No, I've been seeing him for several months, yesterday was just a very good session. I started seeing him months ago because I thought I might be TS, had my days that I swore I was and my days that I doubted, but it's becoming pretty clear what's going on.

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone!


TS Section...:doh:

You've ALWAYS been in the TG section...

It is great to have you...stay on top of the therapy ...there will be lots of ups, downs and gyrations outside of one meeting..

So what are your plans going forward?

All the best,Kate

My only plans right now are to further explore this and find out what I need to do to make me happy. And as I said, I've been going to therapy for a while, and have no plans to stop. I don't want to jump the gun and do something I may not be ready for, so while it is agonizing sometimes that I can't just go to the next step, I think it's best that I take things slow and be 100% sure before I make big life changes.

[Karen564]

TS Section...:doh:

You've ALWAYS been in the TG section...



:heehee:Well, That's our new education system for yeah !....just not the same as when we went to school, eh....lol


Welcome to the TS section Brian...:hugs:

[Lorileah]

I have been held back yet again. I just can't concentrate in class.

Best of luck Brian. May your journey be on smooth seas

[Bree-asaurus]

I was thinking about this when ready all these replies... when I said "Graduated" I was jokingly referring to the fact that I've accepted that I'm dealing with gender identity issues, that I feel I am not the man I have pretended to be these 26 years, that it's not simply crossdressing. I by no means am saying that I am 100% sure of who I am and I am going to transition next month and live my life as a woman. That's still very scary for me. Sorry if that came across like I woke up today and saw my new life ahead of me or something. I just want to be able to post in a forum with people I can relate to a little bit better.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

Actually, in all honesty...i'm so happy to see your later post...

Keeping your head on straight is vital to your well being...and i did have the impression you took one therapy session and decided to transition which is pretty drastic...it can be incredibly empowering to talk to a sympathetic knowledgeable therapist

Just knowing your general direction is a huge and positive step for you!

All the best..

[Bree-asaurus]

Actually, in all honesty...i'm so happy to see your later post...

Keeping your head on straight is vital to your well being...and i did have the impression you took one therapy session and decided to transition which is pretty drastic...it can be incredibly empowering to talk to a sympathetic knowledgeable therapist

Just knowing your general direction is a huge and positive step for you!

All the best..

I'm sorry I wasn't clear from the start!

I know the general direction I need to go, and sometimes I feel very optimistic and I can't wait to be more like me, but then there are other times that I get scared and wonder why I would even consider turning my life upside down.

I've lead a very lucky life so far, I'm only 26 and am more successful than I ever could have hoped, but sometimes I feel like I could burn everything I own if I could just be normal. And sometimes I think I could be completely happy selling everything I own so I can pay to make myself look on the outside how I feel on the inside.

One thing that gives me hope is that if I can even have a fraction of the courage that you girls (and guys) have, and some girls that I follow on YouTube, I could still lead a happy life.

[sherri52]

Getting a grip on who we are is a part of life. I'm glad you have come to your conclusion and now know what you must do. I hope your journey is a short one and your final destination is reached and makes you happy.

[gypsycookie]

Congratulations on realizing who you are! Some people spend their whole lives (and THOUSANDS in therapy) and never get that far! I wish you the best of luck in everything that comes your way. If the road gets bumpy, don't get discouraged. "Character is not determined by what we overcome, but how we overcome it".:dance::w00t:

[Faith_G]

Welcome home, sis. :hugs:


... sometimes I feel like I could burn everything I own if I could just be normal. Tried that. Found I still wasn't "normal" and I needed to buy more clothes. :doh:


One thing that gives me hope is that if I can even have a fraction of the courage that you girls (and guys) have, and some girls that I follow on YouTube, I could still lead a happy life.Don't confuse courage with having no fear. Courage is when you don't let your fear control you. If you wait until you are no longer afraid, you may never start.

[Sharon]

Welcome aboard, Brian, it'll be a pleasure to get tto know you. :hugs:

[Kimberly Marie Kelly]

We have all learned who we are at different points in our life, we all share similar stories and journey's. Some realize very young, others like me only come to know later in life. We all give support to each other and can offer insight into any questions you may have. There are many beautiful women here, don't be afraid to ask questions. Take care, hugs Kimberly Marie Kelly :battingeyelashes:

[Jessinthesprings]

This realization is most frigtning. I know that held me back for years. Not that I regret not transitioning sooner becauce I would lose some real blessings. One thing I can suggest to you is to proceed in a direction and speed that you are comfortable with and not under someone elses timetable. Also only you can answer the questions that you may have, and your therapist can't. He/she is a guide allowing you to open your mind to different possibilities, and challange your own ideas. It gets easier and harder at the same time. Transition is a real bitch but when you over come a hurdle there is nothing better and it makes you more comfortable to move onto the next step. Good luck.