rhondamichelle
03-30-2010, 09:06 PM
To all my sisters on the forum,
Warning...may be a long post....
First, I must apologize for not having posted in so long. As you know, I've been alone for almost 3 years now and during this time I have utilized it for introspection and self-discovery. Finally coming to the conclusion that I would live alone rather than living a lie, I was determined that no matter whom I had my next relationship with that person would know about all things Rhonda at the very outset and let the chips fall where they may. Since that epiphany, I had met one person whom I outed to, who was supportive but decided that for herself what she wanted in a full-time relationship was a more masculine person, which I respected her candor and honesty, and we remain friends, but yet I was somewhat dissapointed because we got along well and had a lot in common. A few months passed and I met another, whom I again outed to within our first dates. I was pleased to find out that she was familiar with transgenderism, having a close relative that was transgendered that she was very close to, and things progressed. Unfortunatly, I got cold feet and told her that I had decided that I wasn't going to date for awhile (because I found it hard to believe that anyone could accept me for who and what I am) and she requested we remain friends, to which I agreed. We spoke frequently over the phone, and the more we talked the more I realized how accepting and understanding she was and began to appreciate it, and my fear and uncertainty diminished. We had made plans to share Easter Dinner together, and I spoke with her tonight to amend those plans to include Saturday, as I really wanted to have more time than just an afternoon to really be together. She was instantly receptive and revealed that she had purchased a nightshirt (gown) for me and was going to present on Sunday as a token of her friendship, but since I had amended those plans she was going to give it to me upon arrival instead! Talk about flabberghasted...and appreciative...well anyways I am becoming more positive about things, but as we always say here, slowly, and one step at a time...but I have a song in my heart. :)
Respectfully,
Rhonda Michelle
p.s. never give up!
Warning...may be a long post....
First, I must apologize for not having posted in so long. As you know, I've been alone for almost 3 years now and during this time I have utilized it for introspection and self-discovery. Finally coming to the conclusion that I would live alone rather than living a lie, I was determined that no matter whom I had my next relationship with that person would know about all things Rhonda at the very outset and let the chips fall where they may. Since that epiphany, I had met one person whom I outed to, who was supportive but decided that for herself what she wanted in a full-time relationship was a more masculine person, which I respected her candor and honesty, and we remain friends, but yet I was somewhat dissapointed because we got along well and had a lot in common. A few months passed and I met another, whom I again outed to within our first dates. I was pleased to find out that she was familiar with transgenderism, having a close relative that was transgendered that she was very close to, and things progressed. Unfortunatly, I got cold feet and told her that I had decided that I wasn't going to date for awhile (because I found it hard to believe that anyone could accept me for who and what I am) and she requested we remain friends, to which I agreed. We spoke frequently over the phone, and the more we talked the more I realized how accepting and understanding she was and began to appreciate it, and my fear and uncertainty diminished. We had made plans to share Easter Dinner together, and I spoke with her tonight to amend those plans to include Saturday, as I really wanted to have more time than just an afternoon to really be together. She was instantly receptive and revealed that she had purchased a nightshirt (gown) for me and was going to present on Sunday as a token of her friendship, but since I had amended those plans she was going to give it to me upon arrival instead! Talk about flabberghasted...and appreciative...well anyways I am becoming more positive about things, but as we always say here, slowly, and one step at a time...but I have a song in my heart. :)
Respectfully,
Rhonda Michelle
p.s. never give up!