Lost in the shuffle

[mistunderstood]

I think I'm lost. I have been living in the world between male and female for a long time. To long I might ad. I dress every day but I do not bind or pack. When I try it does not work for me any more. When the dysphoria gets bad I would count on that to help but right now it just makes me feel worse. I feel like I could scream right now.
I do see a counselor but do to money I can only go once a month.Money is my main reason in not moving forward. I feel like a incomplete puzzle.
I use to know what I stood for but now I do not. I try to sort these things out and I get more confused every time I think about that. I had a plan and now I am lost trying to find my place. I am in a closet and can not find the damn door knob.
Any one have a light?:surrender

[Ze]

Aw man, I wish I could say something to make you feel better. :bh: The no-money thing is hard and can put walls up for just about everything in life. But I understand the halt in transition/therapy/etc is particularly strenuous because you'd be able to cope with everything else in life if you yourself were taken care of in at least a fundamental sense!

Hang in there. :hugs:

[mistunderstood]

Thank you Ze.

[Andy66]

Like my buddy Ze says, hang in there. Since you can't spend much time with a therapist right now, it may be a good time to learn as much as you can by reading and self-improvement type exercises. Sometimes it's good to get time alone. Also, maybe there is a free or low-cost support group within traveling distance?

[4serrus]

I don't have any advice, just want to say 'me too'.

[mistunderstood]

I only have half of a raft and one paddle but I share with you 4serrus.

[4serrus]

maybe if we bail fast enough we'll achieve some forward momentum! Yeah, that's it...

[Tamara Croft]

I don't know what to say either, just wanted to give you a hug :bh: :bh:

[pamela_a]

I only have half of a raft and one paddle..

Even half a raft floats so just hop on and keep paddling. It may not be fast or pretty but keep moving toward your goal.

Know we're here for you so scream if you need to, we've all been there. :hugs::hugs:

[mistunderstood]

Thank you every one. I feel a little better. Still frustrated but still kick'en I guess.