Simply_Vanessa
04-11-2010, 06:07 AM
With butterflies fluttering in my stomach like no other, I mustered up the courage to see what the world has to offer on the other side.
I stood through my mom tearing up as she did my make up for the first time.
None of my sisters or my mom had seen Vanessa until tonight, they only heard about her.
I then had to steal my sisters car to drive one hour to go to a dinner in a rented banquet hall at a restaurant, with about 42 other crossdressers.
I managed to get a RSVP like 3 days past the deadline from a wonderful woman named Marla :)
She even offered to meet me outside, and walk me into the restaurant since this was my first time out. To my surprise, she said I passed. despite this ex footballer/bodybuilder body, I passed somehow. a few others told me the same.
I had such a wonderful time! I felt so nervous at first even as I was inside with so many other people just like me! But I met so many friendly faces (and even got recognized from this website by one person :battingeyelashes:) who made me feel right at home. I loosened up a bit and had fun! I had shown up to the dinner like 2 hours late, and spent 2 hours there. Needless to say, once I was having fun, I didn't want it to end so soon.
The majority of the magic of this night actually happened after the dinner, all the way an hour back into my hometown.
It all got to my head. All those compliments of potential passability got the best of me. I never planned on going out in 'real' public tonight, only to a place where I knew I would be accepted...
I decided to go to the most desolate convenience store still open in the next town over after driving home.
I walk in, and ask for a pack of marlboro reds. He asked for ID, and I mentioned how I only had guy ID :heehee:. Since this was my first contact with the real world as her, I candidly asked him what gave me most. He only said, my voice. Nothing else.
I nearly bursted from happiness when I got back into the car! So whats the next logical step? Go to walmart at 11pm to stroll around, of course :)
I almost flaked out. I drove away from the parking lot only to drive back. I finally stepped out after waiting for the twenty somethings to walk in (I figured they would be my worst critics)
So I walk in, and see some young mexican guys with beer walking out right next to me. I cringed on the inside, maintained my confidence outside. As I walked away I only heard:
"Damn, shes like, 6 feet tall"
Nothing eventful happened as I walked around for a while. People looked at me as normally as I could ask for. Nothing was said. No one even looked at me confused, or awkwardly.
So I walked back to the exit. The lady at the exit said goodbye.
So I had some fun with it. I threw on a really deep voice (since I have not done that much voice training yet, and I would be given away anyways) and said "you too."
Her expression was priceless!
Passing in real public has made me the happiest I have been in a very, very, long time.
Such as fantastic night <3
I stood through my mom tearing up as she did my make up for the first time.
None of my sisters or my mom had seen Vanessa until tonight, they only heard about her.
I then had to steal my sisters car to drive one hour to go to a dinner in a rented banquet hall at a restaurant, with about 42 other crossdressers.
I managed to get a RSVP like 3 days past the deadline from a wonderful woman named Marla :)
She even offered to meet me outside, and walk me into the restaurant since this was my first time out. To my surprise, she said I passed. despite this ex footballer/bodybuilder body, I passed somehow. a few others told me the same.
I had such a wonderful time! I felt so nervous at first even as I was inside with so many other people just like me! But I met so many friendly faces (and even got recognized from this website by one person :battingeyelashes:) who made me feel right at home. I loosened up a bit and had fun! I had shown up to the dinner like 2 hours late, and spent 2 hours there. Needless to say, once I was having fun, I didn't want it to end so soon.
The majority of the magic of this night actually happened after the dinner, all the way an hour back into my hometown.
It all got to my head. All those compliments of potential passability got the best of me. I never planned on going out in 'real' public tonight, only to a place where I knew I would be accepted...
I decided to go to the most desolate convenience store still open in the next town over after driving home.
I walk in, and ask for a pack of marlboro reds. He asked for ID, and I mentioned how I only had guy ID :heehee:. Since this was my first contact with the real world as her, I candidly asked him what gave me most. He only said, my voice. Nothing else.
I nearly bursted from happiness when I got back into the car! So whats the next logical step? Go to walmart at 11pm to stroll around, of course :)
I almost flaked out. I drove away from the parking lot only to drive back. I finally stepped out after waiting for the twenty somethings to walk in (I figured they would be my worst critics)
So I walk in, and see some young mexican guys with beer walking out right next to me. I cringed on the inside, maintained my confidence outside. As I walked away I only heard:
"Damn, shes like, 6 feet tall"
Nothing eventful happened as I walked around for a while. People looked at me as normally as I could ask for. Nothing was said. No one even looked at me confused, or awkwardly.
So I walked back to the exit. The lady at the exit said goodbye.
So I had some fun with it. I threw on a really deep voice (since I have not done that much voice training yet, and I would be given away anyways) and said "you too."
Her expression was priceless!
Passing in real public has made me the happiest I have been in a very, very, long time.
Such as fantastic night <3