sandra-leigh
04-18-2010, 02:20 PM
I have wanted "breasts" for a number of years... the thought has been consuming more than its fair share of attention, with me thinking about HRT, implants, studying size and shapes that I'd like, working out volumes, and so on. Meanwhile I'm stuck with just AA's, and as I have very little flab in that area, taping or NuBra or the like do not help.
Yesterday, I was sitting upright in bed, leaning forward slightly, and I looked over at my profile in the mirror -- and for the first time ever, what I perceived was not "just a little raised area": it was a small but distinct "boob", with a down-slope and cut-back with some curvature.
My actual body shape in that area is leaner than it was 6 months or a year ago (I've lost weight including off my chest), so it isn't that I've had any growth, though some re-shaping is possible with aging and my increasingly wearing a bra. The real difference is not in what is really there, but rather in how I saw it.
Tomorrow maybe my "boobs" will be gone, or maybe from now on they will appear or disappear, like that optical illusion of "The Old Woman, or The Young Girl".
I was thinking that I should put this post in Body Issues, but the point is a bit more general: that whether your body or mannerisms are "female" or "feminine" depends upon how you look at yourself and how you feel about yourself. The biggest change comes not from a new corset or skirt or hormones: the biggest available change comes from the gray matter between your ears.
Yesterday, I was sitting upright in bed, leaning forward slightly, and I looked over at my profile in the mirror -- and for the first time ever, what I perceived was not "just a little raised area": it was a small but distinct "boob", with a down-slope and cut-back with some curvature.
My actual body shape in that area is leaner than it was 6 months or a year ago (I've lost weight including off my chest), so it isn't that I've had any growth, though some re-shaping is possible with aging and my increasingly wearing a bra. The real difference is not in what is really there, but rather in how I saw it.
Tomorrow maybe my "boobs" will be gone, or maybe from now on they will appear or disappear, like that optical illusion of "The Old Woman, or The Young Girl".
I was thinking that I should put this post in Body Issues, but the point is a bit more general: that whether your body or mannerisms are "female" or "feminine" depends upon how you look at yourself and how you feel about yourself. The biggest change comes not from a new corset or skirt or hormones: the biggest available change comes from the gray matter between your ears.