When you discovered you were not alone

[Brianne_bc]

Im curious at what age you discovered you were not alone in crossdressing, and that others shared your desires and compulsions.

I was about 18 years old and read a story in Penthouse forum about a guy who dressed up and ....... There was no internet back then..

[gender_blender]

I read about it in my high school health book, so probably 16 or 17 is when I discovered basic terminology.


charlie

[Deborah]

I knew about it. Just didn't think it was this large of a scale until i came here.:cool:

[Helana]

About 15/16 when I saw a Donahue show about CDs. Did not even know it was on, I was just flicking through the channels. My dad was in the room but luckily he was reading the newspaper so I was able to continue watching although very nervous he would notice I was watching too ardently!

The following day I went off to the library to look up "transvestite". Found nothing so I looked up psychology books instead and eventually found a couple of pages on it.

Had no idea of the huge extent of our community until I got access to the internet in 1997.

[racquel]

Around 12-13.Saw it on t.v talk show,before that thought only I did this. :rolleyes:

[Samantha Jane]

Strange, but I can't remember when I first discovered that I wasn't actually alone in my compulsion to crossdress. What I can remember is thinking for years that I must be the only person in the world, who has this type desire.

I did a spell on stage at the age of 12 in a piece about the 'Moulin Rouge' night club. Dressed as a women in the club audience, unfortunately not one of the dancers. (What a fantastic experience that was, but that's another story.) :)
However, even with this experience I just assumed that people dressed in womens clothing purely for entertainment and not something that other people did in private.

Then at around 16/17, I remember a tremendous a sense of relief knowing that I was not alone in my crossdressing, but for the life of me, I can't remember a particular incident that endorsed this realization.

[jo_ann]

for me I Think it was donahue too. They showed a bunch of crossdressers/pre-ops, and then they brought a guy out from the audience to makeover, and at the end of the show they brought him back out (my favorite kind of show).. He had a blonde bob wig, and this evening gown (fuzzy top, black skirt). I was so blown away how just a few things made him look so different. Shortly after I saw some story on a transexual in vegas that started doing dance shows, and they showed how she wasn't allowed in her high school reunion because of the situation. I think I was like 14-15.. Started dressing when I was 16.

[Elinor]

It was really when I bought a computer and I discovered that lots of men wore dresses and also had a female name to go with their feminine side that would be around eight years ago. And what I have found is that most men are hetrosexual crossdressing in secret and due to the internet are learning that they are not alone or anyway strange millons of guys crossdress. At the end of the day its better than being a drug addict and the PC means that Janegirls meet with others around the world and educated in becoming better Janegirls who dress guilt free and willing to open the gate to female freedom within themselves. Yes I was encouraged to open the envelope more and more and continuing to learn how to be a better Janegirl/crossdresser. I think finding others like myself and seeing crossdressers walking in a parade has given me the courage to go out in a skirt and to buy a skirt twice in person who knows one day I may yet go to the TV Scotland event held each year. This site helps too to discover the Janegirl within and to talk with other girlies. Keep on skirting girls its a lifestyle choice we need to make our life worth living. :)

[Tristen Cox]

You mean people wear clothes meant for the opposite sex? Wow far out! :thumbsup:

[mand]

You mean people wear clothes meant for the opposite sex? Wow far out! :thumbsup:


"Oh my god, you're kidding aren't you love, they don't do they" :)




Hello Brianne :) ............................Can't remember how old I was exactly, must have been around 10 years old, but I read something about April Ashley's GRS and I knew then that I wasn't alone with my feelings.

She is one of the people who I really admire.


love mand xxx :)



http://www.aprilashley.com/gallery.html
This link tells of why I admire her .............................xxx

[NatalieBliss]

Well not counting crossdressing in comedy shows like SNL, because while I saw that others did it, their usuage was for comedy. Although I like to laugh I was not doing it for giggles.

I started dressing in some form or another around age 6 (curiosty as to how it felt was the main reason then) Like a few have posted before it was not till around early adolesence that I found out other people do it for many reasons and some of them were the same as mine! that was a good day. I think it was probably Danahue or Maury.

[Wendy me]

well i kinda knew that outhers were some what like me or was that i was like them ???
the only thing i had to go on was like jerry springer and talk shows ...then i got hooked up a got a coumpter the internet changed things for ever till then i never realy had mutch to go on see ............http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=6295

[Brianne_bc]

I started dressing in some form or another around age 6 (curiosty as to how it felt was the main reason then) .

I actually started in my moms heels at age 5 and was scorned dearly for it... I very quickly learned to keep it secret...... Im sure ive become a very good liar due to my secret hobby.....

[joni-alice]

There were all those "others" on TV and mags, but they weren't real to me until I found the forums sometime last year and realized the extent of it all. The cyberworld still makes me wonder sometimes, but reading about the girls who go out and get together and looking at some of the questions and predicaments, I know i am in good company.

[Amelie]

They were my neighbors. When I was a teen,for awhile I lived in Hell's Kitchen in NYC and my neighbors were Cds, Ts's whatever they were called back then. Most of them were working girls.

[Heather_cd]

:eyes: I must of been around 13 or so. I have a sister and when I was younger I so loved how pretty and sexy she was. She use to wear skirt and dresses to school and always looked so fem and pretty. One day dont know actually why no one was home. So went into her bedroom and slipped into a pair of panties, hose, skirt and blouse and well got in front of a full length mirror and actually was so surprised at the results. Since than have always had that desire to look fem. Than I met a gg friend that loved cd's and convinced me to move on with my desire of crossdressing.

[ChristineRenee]

Not until I became involved with the internet really...at least to find out how widespread this really is worldwide anyway!;)

[Katie Ashe]

Oddly enough.. 29 years old. I didn't know what my disfunction was called. Apperantly I JUST LIKE LADIES CLOTHING :D

[Sharon]

They were my neighbors. When I was a teen,for awhile I lived in Hell's Kitchen in NYC and my neighbors were Cds, Ts's whatever they were called back then. Most of them were working girls.

I didn't have Amelie's advantages of growing up in a mixed neighborhood. I was raised in a suburban, white bread, middle-class "Leave It to Beaver" environment, not very conducive to even knowing about other lifestyles.
I thought I was an anomaly until I discovered a paperback on a drug store spinner rack titled "Behold, I am a Woman" in 1970 or so when I would have been fifteen years old. I read and reread that book numerous times and this led me to look for more books at better stocked outlets.

[parris james]

Bought me a book on sex at the age of 13. recognized myself right away :)

[jade lee]

I saw my first porn magazine. Not Pen House or Playboy. I ask where he got that book. He told me in a porn store. I went driving and found it in NJ. I guess I was 18 or 19 and saw tv/tg and want ad in a newspaper.

[Laurie Ann]

I have believed that their were other girls like me out there However, until I joined this forum I began to realize that it was much more common than I thought. I am happy knowing other people share this desire and are proud of it.

[Shaylynn]

For a long time i thought i was alone. My father caught me wearing my sister's panties told me told me that i was a sissy, and that men never act girly. It wasn't until I was in my 20's that I found out there other guys that loved wearing ladies clothes. I never realized til now,thanks to this site, just how many sisters are out there.

I'm very shy so this place is great for me. I will admit my desire to go out en femme has gotten so much stronger since coming to this site. Looking forwarded to being all dolled up and having pics taken so that i can post them here.
hugs
Shaylynn

[ebony]

Growing up I thought Ru Paul was the only one that walke this earth like me.

[Joanne08]

I discovered I was not alone when I saw magazines in a Porn shop. I remember it was a title something like "FI" (female impersonator). It was not a XXX magazine but articles and pictures of guys dressed attending "a retreat" of sorts. I learned terminology such as Transvestite in that magazine. I set out to learn as much about the subject that I could in the library and in porn magazines. I do remember seeing a film, with my parents as I recall, about an english family where the grown son was quite out spoken about wearing panties. I remember not being able to forget about that movie. Can't remember the name but it would have been made in the early 60's.

[Stephenie]

While researching mental illness about my desires I came across sites about guys who where not ashamed of them selves. I started checking them out and then found this wonderful place. I realized that not everyone that CDs is doing it for the laughs or for sex. I found many who dress because they like to feel pretty or feel better while dressed, or feel they have been hiding a part of them selves that can come out while dressed.

Until then I thought that I was the only one who felt these thing. It sure changed thing in my mind about myself. I no longer feel that there is some thing in me that needs to be stopped. I am happier about me and about life.

It sure makes a differenace knowing that your not alone.

[MaylinJane]

My first real exposure to CDing was "Some like it hot" still one of my favorite movies. I still didn't know what it was called, till Donahue. I spent hours at my local library reading everything I could find, none of it really helpfull it was rather dated and transvestism was still considered a "mental illness". It really wasn't till I found this site that I realized I was not truly alone.

May

[susiej]

It was the internet that helped me understand that I was *truly* not alone. I never believed I was the only guy on the planet that liked to dress in girls clothes. But surfing the internet helped me understand that we girls are not even in the sub-1% category of "peculiar" :).

Hugs,
Susie

[jjjjohanne]

I think I had seen those people on TV, but that's TV... It wasn't until I had a chance to read some psychology books that I found people more like me who had interests in certain garments over being a woman. I have come across several guys who seem to have interests in partial dressing. No conversations about it, but you know things when they are before you...

[Angela Burke]

Oh, on the 21/5 /2005. I'ts great knowing you're not alone. And you've got
CD sisters all over the planet.

Love Angela xx

[jessiemillard]

I don't really know..the truth is i can't really remember...I guess when i discovered the internet i realised how widespread it is... :)

[Mirragea]

I knew it existed but I think part of me was blocking it out for awhile.Oneday I was in a porn shop lookin for a few rentals.I felt like branching out and check out what is going on with stuff I'm not into(denile).I saw the tg flicks next to the regular str8 stuff.I built up my nerve and waited for a gg to get back on the cash register.I took one home watched it and liked it.Next I finally got a computer and saw how this is a worldwide thing like the hidras in India,asian ladyboys in Thailand etc...Now I just try to find all the info I can be it positive or negative in the world of tg/tv/ts/xdressers/hermphrodites/intersexed and anyone I failed to acknowledge.I find it all so interesting!

[Lois82]

It was the internet that helped me understand that I was *truly* not alone. I never believed I was the only guy on the planet that liked to dress in girls clothes. But surfing the internet helped me understand that we girls are not even in the sub-1% category of "peculiar" :).

Hugs,
Susie
I have to agree with Susie and all of the other girls. Once I got on-line and saw all the CD chat rooms and chatted with other sisters I was amazed. Then I got up enough nerve to join this forum :) and glad I did. I have met so many nice girls here and lot of good articles.

Hugs,

Lois

[cindybarnes]

Hi Brianne :)
I remember some daytime tv shows when I was home from school for some reason. One show had 4 guys wearing skirts but not dressed as girls. they said it was skin irrataiton probs ? Another show had a TS I rememer her perfectly her name was Carrie, long blonde hair and she told her story about watching the girls play and wishing she were like them. I was probably 10 or 12, and this realy confused me ,, was this what was wrong with me ?
Later in life I read lots of stories in the books ,Variations and Forum where crossdressers would send in stories, my wife and I still read those but I made sure to tell her those stories dont reflect how most of us are since they usualy ended up in homosexual fantasies.
It was probably 1994 when I got online with my new Web TV hook up that I did a search for crossdressers and was floored by how much info was out there.
Thats when I knew I wasnt alone,,,6 computers later lots has changed LOL
And now for the rest of the story,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

:)
Cindy

[Debbie Kong]

I remember seeing a magazine involving Transexuals in early '81 so I figured that I wasn't alone then. Not that I'm an aspiring TS mind you it's just that I saw in their eyes something special and knew that if there was a magazine devoted to these ladies then there must have been more than a few people interested in this subject.

Soon after I discovered TAB magazine. A personals tabloid in which there were always a few pages devoted to "TVs". 'Twas then I knew the distinguished road I should follow, but, I didn't. I was accumulating clothing but I still wasn't feeling good about it and wished that I could shake the feeling. Finally, in '97, I connected to the Internet and quickly found how common my predicament was. I discovered "sisters".

I think that I can set the date to be somewhere in late March of '97 that I realized that trying to be a sexy TV was a righteous pursuit.

Debbie

[Deborah757]

I learned from a Hustler magazine when I was 14.

[kathyw]

:) seen it on the ed sullivan show :D

[Toyah]

For me only about 2 years ago when I got the internet I suppose

[Georgette]

:) seen it on the ed sullivan show :D
Don't forget Flip Wilson, That's when I realised I was not alone then I found this internet site and met all you sweet and wonderful girls. you helped me be who I really wanted to be. :rolleyes: