Princess Jen
06-27-2010, 09:58 PM
Hello there, I'm hoping some of you could help me out. :love:
I'm a male who has been dressing up since a young age. I went through several "purges" before I ended up coming out to my mom. That was at least 7 years ago. I started out as an occasional crossdresser, my mother did not know what to do initially but she ended up taking me shopping for girls clothes quite often. She has been very accepting of my dressing throughout the years.
I am still only an occasional crossdresser but I have identified as being TG for many years, not knowing how that would impact my life. For the past few years, thoughts of becoming a real female have been dominating my mind. I felt that I should do things that would help my appearance match the way I felt inside and so I did. I have long hair, pierced ears, 3 years of laser hair removal treatments (face and legs) and I just started electrolysis a few months ago.
But hair removal was an easy choice for me; I never even wanted body hair in the first place, male or female. I have been out as a woman quite a few times and have had very positive experiences, except for being hit on by men :Angry3:. I feel that I can be quite pretty when dressed up and that has been a source of joy for me.
Recently, I have been torn between two things. The first is feeling that I should consider transitioning, before I am too old. I am 23 and I should say that I am interested in going through the proper channels if I do choose to go that route.
The second thing is that I should stay male and basically wait to meet a girlfriend who accepts me as I am and hope that is enough to make me feel satisfied with my femininity. I suppose this would be striving to be a passable crossdresser at best.
The only reason I haven't done anything is because I have been afraid of the possible consequences (health, infertility, dealing with prejudices etc) but with every day that passes, I become more afraid of what my life would be like if I do not transition. I have basically been able to switch my gender (as in appearance) whenever it would suit me but I am afraid that I cannot maintain that balance forever and I just do not know what to do.
I'm curious if any of you have had similar experiences and what you have done. I would also like to know what the first step or steps are in a transition. I have searched and searched but still have only a vague idea that it starts somewhere with a therapist?
I'm a male who has been dressing up since a young age. I went through several "purges" before I ended up coming out to my mom. That was at least 7 years ago. I started out as an occasional crossdresser, my mother did not know what to do initially but she ended up taking me shopping for girls clothes quite often. She has been very accepting of my dressing throughout the years.
I am still only an occasional crossdresser but I have identified as being TG for many years, not knowing how that would impact my life. For the past few years, thoughts of becoming a real female have been dominating my mind. I felt that I should do things that would help my appearance match the way I felt inside and so I did. I have long hair, pierced ears, 3 years of laser hair removal treatments (face and legs) and I just started electrolysis a few months ago.
But hair removal was an easy choice for me; I never even wanted body hair in the first place, male or female. I have been out as a woman quite a few times and have had very positive experiences, except for being hit on by men :Angry3:. I feel that I can be quite pretty when dressed up and that has been a source of joy for me.
Recently, I have been torn between two things. The first is feeling that I should consider transitioning, before I am too old. I am 23 and I should say that I am interested in going through the proper channels if I do choose to go that route.
The second thing is that I should stay male and basically wait to meet a girlfriend who accepts me as I am and hope that is enough to make me feel satisfied with my femininity. I suppose this would be striving to be a passable crossdresser at best.
The only reason I haven't done anything is because I have been afraid of the possible consequences (health, infertility, dealing with prejudices etc) but with every day that passes, I become more afraid of what my life would be like if I do not transition. I have basically been able to switch my gender (as in appearance) whenever it would suit me but I am afraid that I cannot maintain that balance forever and I just do not know what to do.
I'm curious if any of you have had similar experiences and what you have done. I would also like to know what the first step or steps are in a transition. I have searched and searched but still have only a vague idea that it starts somewhere with a therapist?