Frightening question

[Inna]

I no longer take transgender tests to find out weather maybe I am or maybe not, or maybe just a phase of femininity or else. I have arrived at the place where I KNOW who I am and the girl in dreams is one and the same as mirror image of my soul. However, my girlfriend has shown me her results of taking test I haven't heard of before and being curious I too have indulged in test taking just for fun to find out how much of a tranny I am:-)
To my surprise one of the questions has struck me so deep that feeling of fright has overwhelmed me which honestly, never happened before. The question simply stated that a medical professional advised of a new cure to the gender disphoria and by taking a pill all the feminine aspects of the condition shall perish and never ever threaten my psyche. Just the thought of such suggestion sent horror and shiver over my entire body and mind. I then realized, this was a first time in my life I have reacted this way to a suggestion of amputating a Girl out of me. I felt literally as though, threat has been made against my life, not mere philosophical suggestion.
Since starting HRT one year ago and slowly coming to terms with inner me and letting the concrete walls of protective self image crumble before me I am becoming, her, more and more each day. I am not sure weather by finally allowing her to take the control or hormone intervention has created deeper feminine self awareness but I am becoming one with image I so tried to sheer from what I once considered my self. I always thought of it as a curse and fought against it but now I am becoming a believer that it was a blessing.

[kellycan27]

The true test is what is in you heart and head. For me there was no question about it, and no pill or psychological exorcism will change that. if you believe that you are on the correct path.. why waste your time agonizing over a "what if" question? :2c:

Kel

[Karen564]

A few years ago, if I was offered that magic pill, I would of taken it...

But ever since I started my RLE, I realized this was the right thing to do & now wouldn't trade my new life for anything because I finally feel free to be myself & good in my own skin .. so yes, it was a blessing in disguise..

But like Kelly just said, it gets pointless to ask the what if's now when you finally feel good about yourself going down this path knowing now it was the right path to take...
I prefer not to look back & only look forward to where I'm going now..
:hugs:

[carolinoakland]

This is what I like about this forum... I spent my whole life desperate to prove I wasn't a woman. Afraid of what I'd have to do if I was TS. And the one thing I never saw I'd be... until I started HRT... is I'd be happy, finally. And I am, beyond any fear or threat. I am fearless in my joy.

[Kaz]

Embrace... I wish you well! I have never had the courage.. xx

[Inna]

Embrace... I wish you well! I have never had the courage.. xx

Thank you hon. Honestly, desperation and bit of "what the heck" were the catalyst. I have actually come to dismiss all safety and dove head first into transition. Life at that point didn't have any substantial value to me so deciding on transition didn't weigh pros and cons but was a one way street.

[Mistybtm]

:battingeyelashes:may i ask what was the test?:battingeyelashes:

[Daphne S]

I am really in that place of questioning whether I am TS or not right now in my life and if given the pill option, I am not entirely sure what I would do. But hearing how all of you girls have gone through much the same and are now so sure gives me hope that I will find the answer for myself.
Alexia, I am so happy for you that you've made it to that point. Someday I hope to join you there.

[imarocker2]

A close friend of mine told me, before I decided to transition, that I had been given a gift. I said "I don't think so. A gift, you can return." She told me that when I began to look at it as a gift I would understand and find true peace and happiness.

Long story short, she was right. Along the way, all of the anger and resentment I had for being cheated by the universe and missing out on all of the things that girls get to do on the way to womanhood, all of the negative emotions I was struggling with for years, it was all simply gone. It had melted away leaving me free to pursue my new life.

[Nicole Erin]

There is now a pill to hael you stop being TG, it is called Trahnnicept.
The commercial depicts a family having quality time in some grass field, except the dad is dressed like Cinderfella.

OK I am kidding, no magic pill. Well not to rid TG-ness.

I once did swallow some magic beans and a bean stalk grew out of my butt, does that mean anything?

[hopingsecret]

I took a test with the same question. The COGETI test I think it was called.

[Inna]

I took a test with the same question. The COGETI test I think it was called.

Yep, that's the test, COGIATI here is the link:
http://www.transsexual.org/cogiati_english.html

[fallen_rayne]

I didn't read any of the replies as to muddle my own. Though I believe this is a part of who we are as a whole. Take the feminine out of us and your left with essentially half a person. For all you soul-seekers out there that believe your half until you find your soul-mate, 1/4 a person.:heehee:

[NathalieX66]

I didn't read any of the replies as to muddle my own. Though I believe this is a part of who we are as a whole. Take the feminine out of us and your left with essentially half a person.:
Such a thing applies to me.
As for the rest, I sincerely believe that there are a number of you out there that going the complete transition is preferrable to death. Am I reading this post right?


Nicole Erin wrote: There is now a pill to hael you stop being TG, it is called Trahnnicept.
The commercial depicts a family having quality time in some grass field, except the dad is dressed like Cinderfella.

OK I am kidding, no magic pill. Well not to rid TG-ness.

Sounds like something Dr. Nicolosi of the organization called NARTH would come up with.

[Inna]

I didn't read any of the replies as to muddle my own. Though I believe this is a part of who we are as a whole. Take the feminine out of us and your left with essentially half a person. For all you soul-seekers out there that believe your half until you find your soul-mate, 1/4 a person.:heehee:

I like that quarter person, soul-mate thing :-) and agree that we are whole with both sides of the equation.

[Bree-asaurus]

I have debated that question before. And now, I am now on the side that I wouldn't take the pill. I've started realizing how amazing it is to just be myself, to not hide who I am anymore. If I took the pill, then sure, I would be able to be myself, because I would no longer be a woman. Sounds great... that would solve that problem... BUT...

What I am thinking about more lately is that while most people are able to be themselves, they don't appreciate it. We have to go through a lot, challenge ourselves and grow. We struggle, but in the end, I have a feeling that we can then appreciate the simple things like being yourself far better than everyone else. I feel like our journey, while difficult, is more rewarding in the end.

At least... I hope so...

[Faith_G]

Before I accepted who I am I would've taken "the pill" in a heartbeat. But now it would be like a suicide pill - not an option I'm interested in these days. I'm happier than I've ever been and I can't wait to see what happens next! :happy:

[Kaitlyn Michele]

Pls don't take those stupid tests!!!

They are poison...they get into your head and tell you lies...

Kelly said it best, only you know...


its normal and healthy to question yourself..this is a big deal...

if you must take a questionnaire..try this one.

Are you a woman? Y or N:daydreaming:

[Karen__Starr]

Pls don't take those stupid tests!!!

They are poison...they get into your head and tell you lies...

Kelly said it best, only you know...


its normal and healthy to question yourself..this is a big deal...

if you must take a questionnaire..try this one.

Are you a woman? Y or N:daydreaming:

I agree 100 percent :thumbsup::thumbsup:

[Hope]

I think the idea that we would destroy or separate, or do away with any part of ourselves (ok - one part excepted) is generally one that sends a shiver up one's spine.

I would rather have been born a girl, and to have lived as a girl all of my life, but that was not my lot in life. For me, now, to do away with the male part of my self entirely, to go forward with my life pretending it was never a part of me, or that I never had those experiences would be devastating. If for no other reason it would leave a hole where my childhood should be.

That doesn't mean I want to be male. I do not. It simply means that I understand that my history is a big part of what made me who I am... and without it - I don't really exist. A shudder indeed.

[Starling]

...while most people are able to be themselves, they don't appreciate it...We struggle, but in the end...we can then appreciate the simple things like being yourself far better...

Yes, Bree! It's like becoming a naturalized citizen, rather than being born into all the rights and privileges. I may never make it, but I still wouldn't take that pill.

:) Lallie

[morgan51]

I feel Blessed to be right where I am today. Good luck with the tests! I prefer not to let anyone tell me where I fit on the m/f spectrum. Morgan

[Katelyn]

That is a tough question to answer. Sometimes I feel like saying yes because I would've preferred to have been born either completely male or completely female, however, I also know that if I were to take such a pill, I'd be losing a part of my identity. I know some people wish there was a pill to change their race, skin color, or even their orentation. Being transgendered allows you to view life from both sides of the spectrum. That's an experience some will never have the opportunity to experience.

[LisaM]

I have seen that question many times before (probably because I am older) and I have always dismissed it because I understood that I never would take any pill that would change who I really am.

[Kaz]

Alexia, you are who you are and while you may also at times be like others you are in yourself unique. Why abort a part of you that is fundamental to your being?

I haven't had the courage to transition and in many ways I am glad I didn't.. I have had a rich and varied life (if a little difficult at times!). For others the deal is different.

Be who you want to be... don't rely on others (and certainly not dubious tests) to tell you!

:hugs::love:

[Brittany North]

I believe that ones personality/identity is all that I have. It's all that makes me, me. It encompasses my intellect, my feelings, my soul if you wish, my gender identity, my sexuality. My body comes and goes (ages) and can be changed :D to some extent.

Take my identity and you take me. Not while I still breathe.

(That came out a little more strident than I intended :o All humbly intended)

[Kaz]

Yep, that's the test, COGIATI here is the link:
http://www.transsexual.org/cogiati_english.html

I have just done it. Trust me, this is a load of what we call in the UK "********"! Many of the questions force you into a prescribed route and it looks like there may be "loading", ie how you answer one or two questions has a dramatic effect on the result.

Just be you... xx

[Kimberly Marie Kelly]

There were about 12 of us that day and the group of woman were split roughly 50/50. Half of the group would have taken the pill, the other half would not. The way I looked at it, the half that would have taken the pill were the woman who were having problems with people accepting them or had other issues such as depression or anxiety problems. Those who would not take the pill embraced their female self, they knew who they were and were not afraid of being themselves or facing their fears. Some people tend to over analyze the issues and create more of an issue than there really is.

But alas, there are no magic pills and we all deal with the issues differently but however we deal with it, ultimately we do succeed and find true happiness with ourselves. Ask any one who has transitioned. They would not go back to being who they were before. Kimberly Kelly :battingeyelashes:

[Traci Elizabeth]

I have seen that question many times before (probably because I am older) and I have always dismissed it because I understood that I never would take any pill that would change who I really am.

Lisa, I could not have said it any better.

I am! I am! And I have desire to change who I am.

I have always embraced my femininity not turned away from it.

[Byanca]

a new cure.
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I felt literally as though, threat has been made against my life, not mere philosophical suggestion.

Agreed. It's unthinkable.



if you must take a questionnaire..try this one.

Are you a woman? Y or N:daydreaming:
Is it the same if you ask if you are a man. Y/N. Sometimes it's easier to see what you are not, compared to what you are, as this is sort of direct. As long as one arrives at the same answer. Or is it very important to be assertive?

*like having a gun pointed at you, and you freeze, paralyzed by fear, as the most important thing to you may be threatened, like your life regarding the gun from an outsider.

[Starling]

...this is a load of what we call in the UK "********"!...

********?

(Time passes.)

I knew I was right!

:heehee: Lallie

[~Michelle~]

Pls don't take those stupid tests!!!

They are poison...they get into your head and tell you lies...

Kelly said it best, only you know...


Exactly! Just look at how Cogiati starts; Describe your relationship with mathematics.....

Seriously... sigh...and that's just one silly question of many. :heehee:

Kelly is 100% right!

[Kaitlyn Michele]

Agreed. It's unthinkable.


Is it the same if you ask if you are a man. Y/N. Sometimes it's easier to see what you are not, compared to what you are, as this is sort of direct. As long as one arrives at the same answer. Or is it very important to be assertive?

*like having a gun pointed at you, and you freeze, paralyzed by fear, as the most important thing to you may be threatened, like your life regarding the gun from an outsider.

hi byanca...i think you are hitting the real problem...its quite easy for me now to say "oh i'm a woman"...but all the crap that gets in the way of the thought process made being able to say it very difficult...

it did feel like i had a gun at my head...

great point!

[vetobob9]

There is a real story that was circulating in the news media about some crazy chick who was conducting medical experiments to use hormone therapy to stop fetuses from becoming gay or gender atypical as adults. That’s scary. Nevermind the homophobia, it’s a real life case of someone actually trying to create the Stepford wives by declaring any genetic female who challenges male dominance to be mentally diseased and in need of medication and a few days at the asylum.
Funny how these things work. First they target the immigrants then they go after stripping away the citizenship of all nonwhites and non males.
Now they were targeting the gays and transgendered people and they intend to use their new knowledge to strip all genetic women of their equality and dignity.
This has proven to me that people who target the least popular often have more evil motives in mind. Illegal immigrants and transgendered have one thing in common: when it comes to the state of civil rights they are both canaries in the proverbial cave.

[AlisonRenee]

I would rather have been born a girl, and to have lived as a girl all of my life, but that was not my lot in life. For me, now, to do away with the male part of my self entirely, to go forward with my life pretending it was never a part of me, or that I never had those experiences would be devastating.

-- well said, Hope. Whatever we are, we're at least in part the sum of our life experiences and some of that male life has too much value to discard. Can't turn back the clock completely, or at least that's my own personal conclusion. Your mileage may vary.