SusieK
06-30-2010, 03:18 PM
It was a few months ago now, but I didn't post at the time, because
a) It takes me ages to get round to posting anything
b) I wanted to know what, if any, were the immediate repercussions
The background is that the urge to dress has been stronger this year, and at the same time I feel more comfortable with it. I don't like deception, and so had been considering what would be the appropriate age for the kids to know. Much lurking on this site had impressed upon me, that in terms of telling others (usually an SO), there is never a good time except that if you're ever going to tell - the sooner the better. In terms of the kids - the sooner they know, the less ingrained are any negative images from society, the longer they will have to get used to the idea, and the longer I will have without needing to hide who I am from my own children.
So in early March (Eddie Izzard had recently been on TV), I sat the kids down (son age 11, daughter age 13) and said I had something to tell them. My daughter immediately piped up with two options "Has someone died?" and then "Are you gay?". I said no, but she was along the right lines and that I sometimes like to dress in women's clothes. I think my son was a bit confused and it was a kind of "does not compute" moment (understandable really), whereas my daughter was surprised but very quickly into asking for details.
The other thing I said was to try to understand that I hadn't changed, and that it was their perception of me that had changed (I know, it sounds corny to me too, but I believed it and thought it would help). It also turns out that it wasn't entirely true, because the act of telling them did change me. It has given me a level of freedom, and allowed me to relax at home at least about the fact that I CD. I do also appreciate however, that it has to some degree placed an unfair burden of secrecy on my kids.
Fast forward to now - they've seen me dressed a couple of times (see my recent "First time out as guy in a miniskirt" pics post for how they've seen me), no forms or wig, but a dash of makeup on one occasion. I have hair removal discussions with my daughter, and she seems to get it up to a point as she is starting to get into clothes and makeup herself (in fact I wonder if this was the trigger for my renewed interest).
My son? not as sure how he feels about it, purely because it's not an obvious topic of conversation. As far as I can tell our relationship is pretty good, and unchanged (and maybe slightly improved) from how it was before I told him.
Why am I telling you all now?
Well so far I think telling them has been a good thing. I think they've handled it well, and it has just become another aspect of their dad (they already thought I was a bit weird anyway). From a purely selfish point of view, I won't have to worry about if/when/how to tell them in the future. From their point of view, I think they appreciate my openness and honesty and that with any luck this will actually improve our relationship when the fact itself becomes irrelevant.
Hopefully, if you're in a similar situation, then you can consider my experiences when deciding what to do. Only you know your own kids, but if you do, and you think they can handle it, then they probably can.
Kids - thank you, and love you lots :hugs:.
Susie :)
a) It takes me ages to get round to posting anything
b) I wanted to know what, if any, were the immediate repercussions
The background is that the urge to dress has been stronger this year, and at the same time I feel more comfortable with it. I don't like deception, and so had been considering what would be the appropriate age for the kids to know. Much lurking on this site had impressed upon me, that in terms of telling others (usually an SO), there is never a good time except that if you're ever going to tell - the sooner the better. In terms of the kids - the sooner they know, the less ingrained are any negative images from society, the longer they will have to get used to the idea, and the longer I will have without needing to hide who I am from my own children.
So in early March (Eddie Izzard had recently been on TV), I sat the kids down (son age 11, daughter age 13) and said I had something to tell them. My daughter immediately piped up with two options "Has someone died?" and then "Are you gay?". I said no, but she was along the right lines and that I sometimes like to dress in women's clothes. I think my son was a bit confused and it was a kind of "does not compute" moment (understandable really), whereas my daughter was surprised but very quickly into asking for details.
The other thing I said was to try to understand that I hadn't changed, and that it was their perception of me that had changed (I know, it sounds corny to me too, but I believed it and thought it would help). It also turns out that it wasn't entirely true, because the act of telling them did change me. It has given me a level of freedom, and allowed me to relax at home at least about the fact that I CD. I do also appreciate however, that it has to some degree placed an unfair burden of secrecy on my kids.
Fast forward to now - they've seen me dressed a couple of times (see my recent "First time out as guy in a miniskirt" pics post for how they've seen me), no forms or wig, but a dash of makeup on one occasion. I have hair removal discussions with my daughter, and she seems to get it up to a point as she is starting to get into clothes and makeup herself (in fact I wonder if this was the trigger for my renewed interest).
My son? not as sure how he feels about it, purely because it's not an obvious topic of conversation. As far as I can tell our relationship is pretty good, and unchanged (and maybe slightly improved) from how it was before I told him.
Why am I telling you all now?
Well so far I think telling them has been a good thing. I think they've handled it well, and it has just become another aspect of their dad (they already thought I was a bit weird anyway). From a purely selfish point of view, I won't have to worry about if/when/how to tell them in the future. From their point of view, I think they appreciate my openness and honesty and that with any luck this will actually improve our relationship when the fact itself becomes irrelevant.
Hopefully, if you're in a similar situation, then you can consider my experiences when deciding what to do. Only you know your own kids, but if you do, and you think they can handle it, then they probably can.
Kids - thank you, and love you lots :hugs:.
Susie :)