how did you feel

[slamddoger]

when you walk out the door drass as women for the frist time out

[Janetmichelle]

scared out of my mind but I was going out with friends so after about an hour i relaxed and had a great night.

[Pattie O]

Excited,exhilarated and comfortable(but a little scared):daydreaming::battingeyelashes::heehee:

[patti1569]

OMG my heart starts to pound just thinking about going out dressed. I never have, but hope to SOON!

[Lexine]

Silly.

Not sissy.

LOL

[sterling12]

I think most would answer, "overwhelmed!" I always advise "newbies" on Their First Outing: "Try to take a big breath, and calm down!" "Try to actually experience The Feelings of going out."

Unfortunately, most folks are so panicky, fearful, distracted, uptight, that after "The Doing," they realize they missed A LOT! But, this almost always convinces them that they want to do it again. They know they had Fun, and their femme-self gained a huge sense of freedom, they just feel like they "missed something."

Maybe a follow on question should be: "How did you feel The Second Time you went out in Public?" I think that's when a person starts to realize how important it's going to become. The second and successive soirée's convinced Yours Truly, I think I was like just about everybody else on My First Excursion, "Wow, that went so quick, what happened? And, Let's do it again!"

Peace and Love, Joanie

[SuzanneBender]

Before the door opened I was so scared my wig was standing on end. :D Then while I was out I was incredibly aware of my surroundings. Then when it was over exhilarated and a little sad that it was over.

Enjoy it. We have so few moments of being and going out for your first time is truly one of them.

[mklinden2010]

The first time?

Oh, I felt fine.

I had some errands to run and knew my makeup was "cakey" but I was more concerned about all the perfume I was wearing. Totally unnecessary, that stuff.

Years later, when it occurred to me - for the first time - to go to a support group to easily meet an entire group of like minded people all at once, I was mostly annoyed --- at the thought of being late, which I was.

On the plus side, however, being late to that meeting was, in retrospect, great fun. Nobody knew me, nobody expected me, and I just seemed to walk out of the mall and into their meeting.

To a group more used to people quietly sneaking in and finding a spot in the corner, my, "Whaaaaat, no cookies?" first question stunned them for a few moments.

Someone managed to croak out, "I think we have some cookies left from last week..." and, after that, we were off and running.

How was it for you?

[CallMeMeg]

I barely slept for a week before I went out, and was nervous as hell ~ I was sure I'd never be able to make a straight eyeliner line ~ until I started getting ready. Then I was calm, and going out was fine. I did have a gg with me which may have helped. But for my latest outing (six years later!) I was still nervous, didn't sleep, etc, but I felt fine as I got myself ready and flew to Kansas as Meg.

[docrobbysherry]

I was nervous stepping out of my room, but there was no one in the hallway. I tried NOT to walk like a cow in my heels!:doh:
I waited for the elevator and a clean cut young man came up and stood there with me. He didn't bat an eye, so we chatted. The hotel was FILLED with girls, so I figured he was used to us. :brolleyes:

After we got off the elevator, I realized later he could have been a FtoM TG!:eek:

[linnea]

I was very nervous, but I gradually gained more confidence and started to enjoy going out.

[StaceyJane]

The first time I was so nervous. I hid behind a tree on my front porch.
But I also knew this was right for me and soon I made the walk to my car and the rest is history.

[Cherie]

u ladies are all so lovely and can pass easily im not as pretty and know to many people with very bad attitudes towards cding. it is a shame people have such small minds. my 1st time in front of my best friends was greet for me :daydreaming:

[t-girlxsophie]

Before I got changed I must have wore a groove in the Pavement before going into LGBT centre to the meeting.When I was dressed I felt Like my heart was about to burst,knees quivering like jelly (may have had something to do with the heels),This was the first time ANYONE had seen me dressed.At the end of the night I was so happy,and couldn't wait to go out again:daydreaming:

[PretzelGirl]

I am very much the kind of person that gets nervous about things and then once I am in the moment, the nerves vanish. It was that way for any big moment in my life, public speaking, and my first time out. I journalled the two weeks leading up to mine to make a post here:

http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=122889

[Cheryl T]

Paranoid and super nervous, but anxious to move on and begin facing the world as a woman.

[Yvonne York]

petrified, excited and wonderful :)

[Tasha McIntyre]

Adrenaline overload..... terrified, but exhilarated.
Afterwards, it was like ' wow, I could get used to this'

Tash :)

[Victoria Anne]

In a nut shell ... terrified ! but I went out the first time in my home town in the middle of the day , to be honest if I did not have the company of my wife I don't know that I would have made it out of the door. It was over the next several outings that I relaxed and started to enjoy myself. There are still times when I need to remind myself to just relax and enjoy being out as myself and not to worry about others. In being honest I have only gone out once alone and that truly terrified me , but I am learning more and more to just be myself.

[AKAMichelle]

Terrified comes to mind immediately.

[Alberta_Pat]

I have yet to walk out the door while dressed. We live in a less welcoming part of town, and as I am away from home for days at a time, we have decided that we will keep this quiet here.

But, this does not mean that I have not been out. I just cover up and then uncover in the car, put on the wig, and on my way.

First time, I dressed at home, got the approval of my lovely wife, then prepared for the walk from the door to the car. A bit shakey to be sure.

Into the car, away from home, quiet place to "transform". Accomplished!

Car in gear, driving to the center of town where a winter fest was to take place. Found a place to park, checked things in the mirror, then....CHICKENED OUT.

Drove home, shucked the wig, and covered up. Into the house to tell the Love of my Life that I couldn't do "IT".

I have since taken the steps to go out to meet with the "girls", and have pretty much gotten over the nervousness.

[Michaela42]

Well, it was for a Halloween party about ten years ago. I was excited but apprehensive at the same time. I was afraid that people at the event my make a bit of a scene and to be honest I did receive a few 'looks'; but after about ten minutes I was there and everyone went back to whatever they were doing. I had a great time and did not want the night to end :daydreaming:

[Sarah Doepner]

In a way they were all the same, each one building up to the next.

The first time out at 2:00AM in the back yard
The first time out at 2:00AM to the motel ice machine
The first time out at 6:00AM on Sunday to the closed strip mall
The first time out at 8:00PM in Las Vegas to the Casino across the street from my motel
The first time out anytime with other CDs
The first time out with my wife
The first time out dressed as a woman during the day on Halloween visiting family and friends

There was always a knot in my stomach, and adrenaline rush that kept me very alert and a couple of voices in the back of my mind, one saying I was an idiot for doing this and it was going to ruin my life and the other one asking why I had waited so long before doing this.

After each one, as soon as I got back to "safe" ground I smiled and wanted to go right back out the next moment.

[windycissy]

Scared to death!

[NathalieX66]

My driveway is such that I share it with a policeman, and his family. I own it and he uses it. We get together, and drink beers & talk sports and whatever but he does not know this side of me.
In the months where the days are short, no problem. I can slip out of the house because it's dark.
In the months where the days are long and my neighbor is hosting pool parties with lots of kids, it's not so easy. I have found myself in the parking lot of business parks changing clothes to go to outings en femme. ... Don't like.:thumbsdn:

[marlacd]

Terrified! First time, at night, just to drive around. First time, in broad daylight, to shop. Both very big moments in my life, and ones to remember, and cherish.

[Christina Horton]

My first time was at the mall getting my makeup done at MAC in their privet room in the back. When the girl was done she left me in the room to get changed but I looked in the mirror and almost chickened out right there but I figured I cam this far I was going to at lest get dressed and see what she thought. I got dressed and still almost back out then I put my wig on and I thought well look at that . I look ok. She came in and did a double take and said you don't look like the same person who cam in here an hour ago. She said when I'm ready to come out and pay for the makeover. I took the deepest breath I think I have ever taken (If I'd taken any more I would have floated to the celling). Then walked out and looked around. I was n=so nervous but no one yelled "Hey look and the crossdressing freak" one one pointed. I got a few looks but thats it. I paid for my makeover and left the MAC store and went shopping.

Once you get over the fear that people will point and stare and make fun (witch almost never happens) you can enjoy yourself. And more importantly BE yourself.




I was nervous stepping out of my room, but there was no one in the hallway. I tried NOT to walk like a cow in my heels!:doh:
I waited for the elevator and a clean cut young man came up and stood there with me. He didn't bat an eye, so we chatted. The hotel was FILLED with girls, so I figured he was used to us. :brolleyes:

After we got off the elevator, I realized later he could have been a FtoM TG!:eek:


Was that with or with out your mask???



u ladies are all so lovely and can pass easily I'm not as pretty and know to many people with very bad attitudes towards cding. it is a shame people have such small minds. my 1st time in front of my best
friends was greet for me :daydreaming:



Most people talk big when there is no CDs around or behind there backs but when it comes to saying anything to there faces they generally won't say anything. Plus I am not very pretty and don't pass well but who cares. I'm being me and thats all the counts right.