Drake
07-27-2010, 01:11 PM
Hey guys! Haven't been here in a while, so yeah, you probably don't know me very well.
Anyway, I can't remember where I was the last time I posted here. I think I was extremely stressed or something? It would take forever to say everything that's happened from then.
Right now I'm out to my aunt, my brother and sister, my mom, and now my grandfather (crazy homophobe but a bit more tolerant to transgendered people..?) knows sort of but never brings it up and probably doesn't take it very seriously.
I have one more brother to come out to, who I know will be pretty cool with it, and then my plan is to change my name on Facebook. Then the rest of my family will know.
So far I've been getting the best reactions possible, except for my mom who thinks it's Aspergers causing me to feel this way, but really, I think she's just trying to think of any excuse for me not to transition because of the way it looks on her and because it's something she has no control over. She's a real control freak.
My dad doesn't know and he's the reason I haven't come out sooner. He has bipolar and was going crazy every time I wanted to come out. Obviously I didn't want to make a stressful situation even worse. He still doesn't know and I know he won't take the news well...
All that being said, everything's calmer than it's ever been and honestly this is the best chance I'm gonna have to come out, so I'm going for it.
My sister is also gonna help me with trying to pass, which is awesome. She knows a lot more about fashion than I ever will. I might start the RLT this week or the next.
Lastly, I have a Gender therapy appointment on August 12th. I've had it scheduled since May. ****ing awesome.
Now, I'm not worried about the questions they'll ask or anything. I've been to normal therapy before so I've gotten a lot of my nerves out that way and thought through a lot of stuff. I'm pretty prepared. However, there's still something that's been bothering me.
I have Aspergers (undiagnosed but confirmed by my therapist, another aunt who works with autism/aspergers people, my sister who is studying psychology (and she's fricken amazing at it), and I have a book on it which describes me pretty spot on.
On top of that, my father has bipolar, like I said.
AND lastly, I get hallucinations when I'm really stressed.
With these 3 things, I'm wondering if these will slim my chances of getting diagnosed with GID. There is absolutely no question in my mind of whether or not I'm a man. I know I am. I've felt this way since I was a toddler, just varying degrees of acknowledging it.
I just don't want them to think I'm mentally ill, and that this is the reason I feel the way I do.
So, does any one else here have Aspergers or something like that (mental illness in the family) and did it affect how the therapist judged you? Anyone can answer.
Anyway, I can't remember where I was the last time I posted here. I think I was extremely stressed or something? It would take forever to say everything that's happened from then.
Right now I'm out to my aunt, my brother and sister, my mom, and now my grandfather (crazy homophobe but a bit more tolerant to transgendered people..?) knows sort of but never brings it up and probably doesn't take it very seriously.
I have one more brother to come out to, who I know will be pretty cool with it, and then my plan is to change my name on Facebook. Then the rest of my family will know.
So far I've been getting the best reactions possible, except for my mom who thinks it's Aspergers causing me to feel this way, but really, I think she's just trying to think of any excuse for me not to transition because of the way it looks on her and because it's something she has no control over. She's a real control freak.
My dad doesn't know and he's the reason I haven't come out sooner. He has bipolar and was going crazy every time I wanted to come out. Obviously I didn't want to make a stressful situation even worse. He still doesn't know and I know he won't take the news well...
All that being said, everything's calmer than it's ever been and honestly this is the best chance I'm gonna have to come out, so I'm going for it.
My sister is also gonna help me with trying to pass, which is awesome. She knows a lot more about fashion than I ever will. I might start the RLT this week or the next.
Lastly, I have a Gender therapy appointment on August 12th. I've had it scheduled since May. ****ing awesome.
Now, I'm not worried about the questions they'll ask or anything. I've been to normal therapy before so I've gotten a lot of my nerves out that way and thought through a lot of stuff. I'm pretty prepared. However, there's still something that's been bothering me.
I have Aspergers (undiagnosed but confirmed by my therapist, another aunt who works with autism/aspergers people, my sister who is studying psychology (and she's fricken amazing at it), and I have a book on it which describes me pretty spot on.
On top of that, my father has bipolar, like I said.
AND lastly, I get hallucinations when I'm really stressed.
With these 3 things, I'm wondering if these will slim my chances of getting diagnosed with GID. There is absolutely no question in my mind of whether or not I'm a man. I know I am. I've felt this way since I was a toddler, just varying degrees of acknowledging it.
I just don't want them to think I'm mentally ill, and that this is the reason I feel the way I do.
So, does any one else here have Aspergers or something like that (mental illness in the family) and did it affect how the therapist judged you? Anyone can answer.