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Jay Cee
08-06-2010, 06:31 AM
I just started crossdressing, where it is more than just an aid to sexual relief. Even then, it really wasn't the full deal - more like put on a bra or panties.

I admit that I feel totally relaxed dressing, and that I love looking down to see myself in a nightie or dress. And shoes? Wow, what an awesome buzz that is. I don't even need the sexual relief now - just the feel of silk (well, I guess nylon, or polyester :) ) against my skin is more than enough.

I think I was transposing my desire to be feminine into very brief moments of sexual desire / relief.

Anyone else here hide their desire to crossdress from themselves?

sissystephanie
08-06-2010, 06:41 AM
From the moment that I first put on a pair of panties, I loved the feeling I had. That was at age 6, so wasn't sexual! I just loved the feeling of feminine clothing and still do. BTW, that first feeling was over 70 years ago!

Renee_E
08-06-2010, 07:08 AM
I spent many years denying I loved clothes designed for women. I tried very hard to accept the gender my body indicated.

KristinSkye
08-06-2010, 07:13 AM
Interesting question cameron.

For me it also started out purely as a sexual thing way back in my early teens. When I realized I could get dressed and just feel 'good' and it didn't have to turn into a sexual thing is when I realized I was hiding what it truly meant to me to CD.

Rianna Humble
08-06-2010, 07:46 AM
I hid from my cross-dressing for about 46 years :sad: Every now and then I would give way to the need to dress and feel an immense liberation - followed by the most massive guilt trip. :eek: As far as I can recall, it was never linked to anything sexual.

Jennifer in CO
08-06-2010, 08:01 AM
maybe for a few years in my teens it became sexual, just because I had no other release. But other than that time, I just loved the clothes, and spent many years wanting to be a girl then woman. Then, when I lived as a woman in the early 80's they just became daily wear. It was also during this time they became sexual again. Not to "get" a feeling, but to turn others on...the power of women and their clothes is a powerful tool

Jenn

Cheryl T
08-06-2010, 07:54 PM
Anyone else here hide their desire to crossdress from themselves?

Never...
I realized from the first time I wore something feminine that this is who I am and who I need to be.

Jay Cee
08-06-2010, 11:38 PM
Glad to see that others have had similar experiences - my rather limited crossdressing began in my teens as well, and was sexual in nature. Now, twenty some odd years later, I finally understand that just crossdressing can be great. Sex doesn't need to be part of the equation.

gemsay32
08-07-2010, 04:00 AM
I think for some people this is true.

Be careful about putting everyone into the same boat.

eluuzion
08-07-2010, 05:38 AM
What crossdressing? Me? Nah, I just started doing it as research for a friend's psychology project in college.

Now that you mention it, that was about 25 years ago...he never came back for my "results". Oh well, I will just continue dressing...I'm sure he will pick up my "research data" in the next week or two...:brolleyes:

Same with the "sexual" aspects. They will probably just fade away too. I will give it maybe another 20-25 years...just to be fair...:love:

KathyC
08-07-2010, 05:59 AM
Nothing "sexual" to me either, I really careless about the bras & panties part.
I transform into Kathy whenever I feel like I need to, such as after a day of hard work, facing a problem or bored to dead.
Kathy usually can solve my problems & give me the answer, I also can find out what kathy's problems as well.

Christina2008
08-07-2010, 01:00 PM
The sexual part for me has been the main driving force to dress in the past. These days, and being truthfully honest, it probably still is!

Differences are that I feel less (or more like no) guilt now and yes I sometimes dress only, without indulging shall we say, as it feels comfortable and more free to wear a skirt and top just sitting about the house.

But I have to admit after nearly 20 years of experimenting with girls clothing, it is the sexual part that keeps me continuing my hobby.

I have either reached my peak as far as I go regarding Crossdressing or may still be in the early stages?

Karinsamatha
08-07-2010, 01:38 PM
I had burried that part of myself for better than 30 years. When I put on a bra for the first time it was as they say all over :) - it wasn't a sexual thing to begine with. That was the begining of my journey of finding out who I am - a journey that continues as we speek :D.
Now when I am dressed I feel like a complete person not impersonation of a man!
:hugs:

GirlieAmanda
08-07-2010, 01:48 PM
I am with Christina. The sexual part drives me BUT I am just right now and with the help of this site experiencing a revolution and becoming guilt free about my CDing. Amanda has had a rough last 10 years and my marriage is most likely ending over CDing but there are so many new things happening. I am attempting to just enjoy the feeling of the clothes. It is almost like I am wearing pure pleasure if one can do that. I feel incredibly sensual. I can feel every piece of clothing and its power. Its very calming. I get so sexually charged up from this power though. It's hard to resist usually but am in the infancy of just enjoying the feeling. It has been 25 years, but I feel like I am beginning again. The right way.

Christy_M
08-07-2010, 01:54 PM
I too started out early (like 8 by choice and before that my mom put me in my sisters Easter dress when I was 4). It was never sexual until puberty. Then, the same things I wanted in a woman (Loni Anderson, Farrah Fawcett, Adrianne Barbeau, etc) were the same things that turned me on about dressing, high heels, panty hose and dresses/skirts. Once I passed puberty, the sexual part faded off, too. Now I just feel right in woman's clothes.

RoxyDoxy
08-07-2010, 06:36 PM
There's never really been a sexual side to it for me. It was always in good fun and then I realized it gave me an outlet to express the feminine side that I always have to put in check in social situations. It does give me a sexy feeling, but not really in a true - sexual sense. I just feel like a sexy feminine being - alluring in a way to others. I guess (which I've discovered recently) that I'm an attention seeker and this gives me another (usually) positive outlet for attention from others.