KatrinaUK
09-24-2010, 07:45 AM
Hi everyone,
I thought I would share my life story and see if anybody could give me advice or at least a friendly word or two.
My first memory of anything relating to this subject would have been when I was about 5 years old. I was in my bed and I had Snow White sheets. I looked at her and wished that I was her, I loved the way she looked and dressed. Not long after that I got the desire to put on a pair of my mother's heels and started walking around in them, I knew it was wrong and when some of my family saw me they started to laugh at me. I remember that I would get so excited whenever there was a male/female bodyswapping story in cartoons as a child and I still remember those particular episodes to this day).
It was then a good few years until I experimented with dressing and it would have been in my teens when I started to try on my sister's clothing. There was definitely a sexual attachment to the dressing but I also used to read a lot of body-swap fiction and still do to this day.
I put the dressing to the side for a number of years when I met my girlfriend but still had the burning desire to do so. I came out to her a couple of years ago telling her about the dressing and she understood and wanted to stay with me. Now that I have been dressing at home for a couple of years I want to push it further and go out dressed at some point. I have started to fantasise about being with men, sexually when dressed as a woman but I am not attracted to men at all when I am not dressed and would almost be disgusted to do anything sexual with a man if it wasn't dressed as a girl. I find myself looking at girls everyday and getting jealous and wishing to look like them but I still also find girls very sexually attractive.
My girlfriend asked me the other night if I wanted to be a woman and I said yes but I couldn't go through the whole sex change process. She asked me if I was attracted to men and I told her that story too. The discussion ended with her saying that even if I became a woman, she would stay with me as it is me that she loves and not my gender. She is honestly the most supporting person I have ever met and I'm very grateful but I do have a desire to find out what is likely to happen if I don't address these issues.
Thanks in advance x x
I thought I would share my life story and see if anybody could give me advice or at least a friendly word or two.
My first memory of anything relating to this subject would have been when I was about 5 years old. I was in my bed and I had Snow White sheets. I looked at her and wished that I was her, I loved the way she looked and dressed. Not long after that I got the desire to put on a pair of my mother's heels and started walking around in them, I knew it was wrong and when some of my family saw me they started to laugh at me. I remember that I would get so excited whenever there was a male/female bodyswapping story in cartoons as a child and I still remember those particular episodes to this day).
It was then a good few years until I experimented with dressing and it would have been in my teens when I started to try on my sister's clothing. There was definitely a sexual attachment to the dressing but I also used to read a lot of body-swap fiction and still do to this day.
I put the dressing to the side for a number of years when I met my girlfriend but still had the burning desire to do so. I came out to her a couple of years ago telling her about the dressing and she understood and wanted to stay with me. Now that I have been dressing at home for a couple of years I want to push it further and go out dressed at some point. I have started to fantasise about being with men, sexually when dressed as a woman but I am not attracted to men at all when I am not dressed and would almost be disgusted to do anything sexual with a man if it wasn't dressed as a girl. I find myself looking at girls everyday and getting jealous and wishing to look like them but I still also find girls very sexually attractive.
My girlfriend asked me the other night if I wanted to be a woman and I said yes but I couldn't go through the whole sex change process. She asked me if I was attracted to men and I told her that story too. The discussion ended with her saying that even if I became a woman, she would stay with me as it is me that she loves and not my gender. She is honestly the most supporting person I have ever met and I'm very grateful but I do have a desire to find out what is likely to happen if I don't address these issues.
Thanks in advance x x