StephanieCD
09-05-2005, 07:08 PM
Miss me? (oh come on, ya know you did ;) )
I haven't been on much lately - been busy preparing for my NEW JOB! I've been self-educating myself for years trying to earn a legit job in my field and I start tomorrow :) Two months to get in but I did it. Yay me. Not that that's why I'm posting...
I had a fun and monumental weekend with my GF regarding my dressing and accepting the fact that she actually accepts me. It's been hard to believe her - I've got two decades of walls put up around my closet, ya know? Anyway!
She took me to the mall and said she wanted to buy me something pretty to wear to bed cuz I have a pretty small "stash". I was so excited! I even asked her to take a couple extra dollars of mine and pick me out some pretty panties... she was cute cuz she didn't want to get me ones I wouldn't like. HA! I assured her there was no wrong answer and told her some of my preferences.
Anyway, later we got home and she showed me. Oh my she picked out the prettiest things! Anyway... THEN! Then we decided to do this... she got all gussied up in her nightie and heels and makeup and stuff (she's almost as nervous as me cuz she's not used to being girlie). Then she watched tv while I gave my BIG DEBUT! I did it - the whole nine yards (minus shaving and boobies ;) ). I had on my girlie jeans, patent pumps, a pretty black top I picked up and I did the best looking makeup I could (I have one look that really works so far). Then I even put on the wig I bought from a friend on here. I had earrings and a choker... and I took my time. I hesitantly came from my bathroom that's ironically closet-sized and stood in front of her. I was scared.
Her initial reaction - the one I was worried about - was "oh my god you did such a good job! You look pretty."
The rest of the night was all too naughty to detail here ;) But I was very reassured - she looked me in the eyes and treated me like me the whole time. She flirted with me. Brushed my hair to kiss me. There were a couple of awkward moments dealing with hair and smudged lipstick but all in all it was better than anything I could hope.
I'm posting to a: brag, b:gossip with the girls about my big debut and c: offer advice...
If you are in that point in your relationship where your GG is attempting to accept you and it's bumpy... take a look at yourself. You may in fact be a major part of why it feels like she isn't accepting sometimes. Our own fear is easy to paint upon others when we're afraid of rejection. Fear isn't sexy or appealing in any way and what may actually be a reaction to your nervousness is easy to interpret as hidden disgust or lack of acceptance. My point - maybe she accepts you more than you're allowing her to. Relax and those around you are more at ease.
I haven't been on much lately - been busy preparing for my NEW JOB! I've been self-educating myself for years trying to earn a legit job in my field and I start tomorrow :) Two months to get in but I did it. Yay me. Not that that's why I'm posting...
I had a fun and monumental weekend with my GF regarding my dressing and accepting the fact that she actually accepts me. It's been hard to believe her - I've got two decades of walls put up around my closet, ya know? Anyway!
She took me to the mall and said she wanted to buy me something pretty to wear to bed cuz I have a pretty small "stash". I was so excited! I even asked her to take a couple extra dollars of mine and pick me out some pretty panties... she was cute cuz she didn't want to get me ones I wouldn't like. HA! I assured her there was no wrong answer and told her some of my preferences.
Anyway, later we got home and she showed me. Oh my she picked out the prettiest things! Anyway... THEN! Then we decided to do this... she got all gussied up in her nightie and heels and makeup and stuff (she's almost as nervous as me cuz she's not used to being girlie). Then she watched tv while I gave my BIG DEBUT! I did it - the whole nine yards (minus shaving and boobies ;) ). I had on my girlie jeans, patent pumps, a pretty black top I picked up and I did the best looking makeup I could (I have one look that really works so far). Then I even put on the wig I bought from a friend on here. I had earrings and a choker... and I took my time. I hesitantly came from my bathroom that's ironically closet-sized and stood in front of her. I was scared.
Her initial reaction - the one I was worried about - was "oh my god you did such a good job! You look pretty."
The rest of the night was all too naughty to detail here ;) But I was very reassured - she looked me in the eyes and treated me like me the whole time. She flirted with me. Brushed my hair to kiss me. There were a couple of awkward moments dealing with hair and smudged lipstick but all in all it was better than anything I could hope.
I'm posting to a: brag, b:gossip with the girls about my big debut and c: offer advice...
If you are in that point in your relationship where your GG is attempting to accept you and it's bumpy... take a look at yourself. You may in fact be a major part of why it feels like she isn't accepting sometimes. Our own fear is easy to paint upon others when we're afraid of rejection. Fear isn't sexy or appealing in any way and what may actually be a reaction to your nervousness is easy to interpret as hidden disgust or lack of acceptance. My point - maybe she accepts you more than you're allowing her to. Relax and those around you are more at ease.