Finally becoming the woman I'm meant to be

[jambam]

Things have been going so well lately... It seems like everything is finally falling into place.

I came out to my father, and amazingly enough, he seemed completely okay with it. It took me a really long time to tell him because I wasn't sure how he'd react... I mean, he makes a lot of gay jokes, so I was just afraid, I guess... But he seems fine with it, so that's good.

I also went shopping for women's clothes for the first time, and it felt really good. These are the clothes I'm meant to wear, and it feels wonderful knowing that I no longer have to put up a "manly" facade anymore. It was also great because none of the sales associates seemed to care. Two of them even seemed super happy to help. They made me feel "normal," if that makes sense...

When I got home from shopping, I took all of my boy clothes and bagged them up. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with them, and honestly, I don't really care. I've wanted to get rid of them for so long. Taking them out of my closet and bagging them just felt... Therapeutic, somehow. It's like I'm finally removing this mask that I've worn for so long.

I'm also close to getting hormones. If everything goes well, I should be on them by the middle of December. I can't wait... And I'm starting electrolysis on Monday, too. I'm really excited. Now I just need to work on my voice more. Hopefully I can get it semi-passable in a few months time.

I remember, I used to be so afraid of what other people would think... Would they like me? Would they heckle me? Stuff like that... But now, I don't even care anymore. I know I'm a woman, so who cares what they think? I'm thinking of going full time at the beginning of my next college semester. Even if I can't "go stealth" and pass well, I still want to because I know it's who I am and it just feels like the right thing to do.


So... I know most of you don't know me (yet), and I'm sorry for this wall-of-text post... I'm just the happiest I've ever been in my entire life, and I guess I feel like telling someone about it :)

[Melody Moore]

First of all congratulations for having the courage & strength to be & live your life as your true self.

I also know how good it has felt to be throwing all my male clothes into a bag & knowing I wont ever be wearing them again - a good suggestion for disposing of them is to donate the to charity. I have given all mine to the Salvation Army because I also buy female clothes from their thrift shop which is the fairest prices for second hand clothing here in my city.

Its also nice to see that you quickly found out that your own fears & paranoia about what others will think is very unfounded - so be proud & feel confident just being your true self. Those that have an issue really are not happy in their lives & most often you will find they have a deep issues within themselves.

Dont worry about your wall-of-text post, its nothing compared to my own rants when I first came out... we share your excitement,
along with a deep sense of pride just seeing another sister like yourself come in here out of the cold. So welcome home! :gh:

[Faith_G]

And another one explodes! :hugs: You decided to act and nothing is going to slow you down, good for you!

[Jorja]

Congratulations Jambam, I wish you the best during your transition. Know there are going to be difficult days ahead. Transition can be a very bumpy ride. It seems not all will be happy that you are on this journey. When those times are at hand, know we all are here for you.