Krista1985
10-20-2010, 07:12 PM
Sorry in advance for posing so many questions.
Don't be discouraged from replying, please feel free to answer some and ignore others if you wish. I've got a lot on my mind though.
It's been a windfall week for my girl-side,
I've noticed that the inclination to venture into new territory and push my limits seems to come and go in spurts. I'm in the midst of such a phase right now. Is/was that the case for others too?
Sometimes I find taking things further is the product of planning, opportunity and feasibility. Is now the right time? Can I afford it? Will I be able to find the time to take advantage? Has logic played a positive role in your journey, or held you back?
At times I feel circumstances dictate my evolution. For most people, myself included, money is a factor. I can't afford everything I want, or else I'd be typing this message from my yacht off the coast of Hawaii, dressed in the finest fashions from New York and Paris, entirely surrounded by an army of beautiful, loyal female bodyguards. Some people have domestic conditions to consider, and may not take steps forward because it's dangerous or impractical. I'm pretty free of this consideration but I can see how it would have an impact on the progression of others. What circumstances influenced your develop/ing transness?
At other times I feel the desire to enhance my dressing so strongly, the decisions I make are more spontaneous and irrational. I want this now, I'll find a way to make it happen, I'll make the time to take fullest advantage, consequences be damned. If you experienced this motivation, what was the result? Haste makes waste, or fast is fine?
How would you describe your own personal progression from partial dresser to full on, head-to-toe dressing? Was this a planned, deliberate and logic driven process, or did the over-riding and sometimes impractical desire to take things further fuel the journey? Perhaps circumstances directed the course of your adventures in gender-land?
For me, I'd have to say it's a bit of all three so far.
Take this past Saturday for example.
For a while I planned on shaving my legs for the first time ever. Thanks to some good advice about technique (draw a bath, lotion up after, use a proper razor with a springy cartridge etc...thank you Krysta) and friendly encouragement (again thank you, Krysta) the results were better than expected. This for me is an example of a planned and well calculated escalation. The advent of colder weather, the curiosity to try something new and a plan of 'attack' based on research and consultation. All these preparations/conditions made Saturday a logical choice for my first shave.
As luck would have it, I also received a refund check from my alma mater (for overpayment of my last semester's tuition) and did a little shopping on Saturday. Whereas before I was mostly interested in fantasy-wear and costumes when shopping, this time around I felt drawn to more practical, everyday items. I'm sure my fashion sense is several degrees off 'sharp,' but it's a start. I also got a full-on make-up kit (first ever) to play with, so I'll be dabbling in the sweet science of cosmetic application. I attribute this development mainly to circumstances. Getting unexpected money out of thin air made it possible to act on my desire to take dressing to a new level.
Finally, after a wonderful Saturday of firsts, the rush lead me to make some illogical financial decisions. I'd spent a portion of my refund on the new clothes and make-up, I planned to squirrel a portion away for non-dressing related activities. But I was powerless against the burning urge to buy some new forms. My old ones weren't in bad shape, and I rather enjoy them, but I wanted something bigger, softer and more durable. So I went ahead and placed an order for new forms that fit the bill, but broke the bank. I spent more than the balance of my unexpected wealth on them. So now I'm on the PB and J diet until my next paycheck, all because I lacked the discipline to reign myself in from my spending bonanza. This is an example of the spontaneous and irrational desire to ramp up my presentation. I thought perhaps I was past all that but as it turns out I am not.
If you're still reading thank you. If you are considering writing a reply thank you even more. I'm curious about the tendency CD'ers and TG's of all levels and ages have to escalate their dressing. I wanted to share my own experience, and to hear how others like me experienced it.
Thank you for your time!
Don't be discouraged from replying, please feel free to answer some and ignore others if you wish. I've got a lot on my mind though.
It's been a windfall week for my girl-side,
I've noticed that the inclination to venture into new territory and push my limits seems to come and go in spurts. I'm in the midst of such a phase right now. Is/was that the case for others too?
Sometimes I find taking things further is the product of planning, opportunity and feasibility. Is now the right time? Can I afford it? Will I be able to find the time to take advantage? Has logic played a positive role in your journey, or held you back?
At times I feel circumstances dictate my evolution. For most people, myself included, money is a factor. I can't afford everything I want, or else I'd be typing this message from my yacht off the coast of Hawaii, dressed in the finest fashions from New York and Paris, entirely surrounded by an army of beautiful, loyal female bodyguards. Some people have domestic conditions to consider, and may not take steps forward because it's dangerous or impractical. I'm pretty free of this consideration but I can see how it would have an impact on the progression of others. What circumstances influenced your develop/ing transness?
At other times I feel the desire to enhance my dressing so strongly, the decisions I make are more spontaneous and irrational. I want this now, I'll find a way to make it happen, I'll make the time to take fullest advantage, consequences be damned. If you experienced this motivation, what was the result? Haste makes waste, or fast is fine?
How would you describe your own personal progression from partial dresser to full on, head-to-toe dressing? Was this a planned, deliberate and logic driven process, or did the over-riding and sometimes impractical desire to take things further fuel the journey? Perhaps circumstances directed the course of your adventures in gender-land?
For me, I'd have to say it's a bit of all three so far.
Take this past Saturday for example.
For a while I planned on shaving my legs for the first time ever. Thanks to some good advice about technique (draw a bath, lotion up after, use a proper razor with a springy cartridge etc...thank you Krysta) and friendly encouragement (again thank you, Krysta) the results were better than expected. This for me is an example of a planned and well calculated escalation. The advent of colder weather, the curiosity to try something new and a plan of 'attack' based on research and consultation. All these preparations/conditions made Saturday a logical choice for my first shave.
As luck would have it, I also received a refund check from my alma mater (for overpayment of my last semester's tuition) and did a little shopping on Saturday. Whereas before I was mostly interested in fantasy-wear and costumes when shopping, this time around I felt drawn to more practical, everyday items. I'm sure my fashion sense is several degrees off 'sharp,' but it's a start. I also got a full-on make-up kit (first ever) to play with, so I'll be dabbling in the sweet science of cosmetic application. I attribute this development mainly to circumstances. Getting unexpected money out of thin air made it possible to act on my desire to take dressing to a new level.
Finally, after a wonderful Saturday of firsts, the rush lead me to make some illogical financial decisions. I'd spent a portion of my refund on the new clothes and make-up, I planned to squirrel a portion away for non-dressing related activities. But I was powerless against the burning urge to buy some new forms. My old ones weren't in bad shape, and I rather enjoy them, but I wanted something bigger, softer and more durable. So I went ahead and placed an order for new forms that fit the bill, but broke the bank. I spent more than the balance of my unexpected wealth on them. So now I'm on the PB and J diet until my next paycheck, all because I lacked the discipline to reign myself in from my spending bonanza. This is an example of the spontaneous and irrational desire to ramp up my presentation. I thought perhaps I was past all that but as it turns out I am not.
If you're still reading thank you. If you are considering writing a reply thank you even more. I'm curious about the tendency CD'ers and TG's of all levels and ages have to escalate their dressing. I wanted to share my own experience, and to hear how others like me experienced it.
Thank you for your time!