Hardest challange so far.

[tanyalynn51]

Tomorrow, the 26fh, I begin my toughest test yet since Ive really started this journey. I didnt think when I started hormones a week or two ago about the fact that I was leaving tomorrow and going home. I will be there 8 days, and cant show any trace of Tanya, as there is no way that I am ready to reveal to my family. Im already working on ways to hide the pills, and being more emotional shouldnt be hard to deal with, as Ive always been known for being sensitive. But, I wont be able to really be me for 8 days. I have to do this 2 days a week, living at work, but I dont know how Ill handle 8. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, as I wont even be able to come on here, cause Ill only have my Mom's computer to use. I am fortunate in that nothing is really showing, but I guess I didnt spend enough asking what might happen starting off hormones with already fleshy breasts. they do feel, if not look different. Im just hoping for nothing really visible in the next 8 days.

[Chari]

Continue to take small steps and think good thoughts of the fantastic end result! Doubtful that any visible changes will occur in 8 days - mostly your emotions will change. Body changes for most on hormones will occur very slowly, usually 2-3 months at the earliest, unless increased meds are advised. Please keep your physician aware of your "changes/moods". and do what they advise. Continuous prayers to you.

[Loni]

if you must get a web fix, then buy a iphone or a droid, other "smart" phone.

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[Jorja]

OMG!!! No dressing for 8 days!!!! At home with family!!!!! You know under that kind of stress that your breast will grow to humongous proportions over night and your bottom will all of a sudden become sexy round and shapely. :D Just Kidding!!!!

Go home and have a good visit. Nothing except maybe some emotional changes will happen in that amount of time.
My prayers are with you.

[Bree-asaurus]

Good luck Tanya! I think you'll be okay :)

[Kaitlyn Michele]

you hang in there...i'll send my best karma your way!

[Melody Moore]

I think your biggest challenge will be keeping your mouth shut about it because I think after awhile
that you will feel some type of compulsion to tell them just so you can get back to being your true self.

Good luck I hope that it all goes well.

[Traci Elizabeth]

Forget about Tanya & go and enjoy just being with family.

[tanyalynn51]

I think your biggest challenge will be keeping your mouth shut about it because I think after awhile
that you will feel some type of compulsion to tell them just so you can get back to being your true self.

Good luck I hope that it all goes well.

You got that right, Melody. That is one of my big worries too, my own mouth. Talk about having to guard your tongue...

Thanks to everybody for your support.

[Katelyn]

Hi Tanya. Good luck. You'll do well. Just keep your emotions in check. The smallest things may upset you severely. Also, if you must get on the internet and you don't have a smart phone, most internet browsers like Safari, Firefox, and IE8 have a setting under tools that allows you to keep your web-browsing history private. When enabled, you can surf most any sites and when you close the browser, it dumps every trace that you were ever on that site. Just don't download any files or pics to the computer form these sites. I used it to visit this site when I was back home. God luck.

[Starling]

Persevere, Tanyalynn. Eyes on the prize.

:) Lallie

[Melody Moore]

You got that right, Melody. That is one of my big worries too, my own mouth. Talk about having to guard your tongue...

Thanks to everybody for your support.

Of course it is.... I can tell already you are feeling happier & excited - I think many of us experience a sense
of euphoria when we start HRT because of how much better we do really feel within ourselves - I know I do :)

Once I started coming out to people I couldn't stop - the first thing I realised that the fears & the paranoia I had was very unfounded with most people once I had explained why I was transitioning. I also really didn't care if they were opposed to it, the thing was I had to be my true self and if others had & issue with that, when that was their problem, not mine. So it became very easier to come out to other people - not like the first time when I was absolutely crapping myself to say anything. So be prepared and don't worry if you do, because you will feel even a lot better for it once you get things off your chest.

As I said, good luck and I hope that it all goes well.

[tanyalynn51]

So, its Tuesday morning, and Im waiting on my friend to come get me in about an hour to the airport. Im thinking of what everyone said, and that this is it. I believe I can do it. Gotta watch those emotions though. Something I was watching last night made me cry hard. (Ok, the ending was emotional anyway). Im ready to go. I may even use the suggestions that you gave, Katelyn, to get on here if I have to. Im as ready as I will ever be.