Something strange is happening around here...

[KylieQ]

This may get a bit long so please bear with me:)

I don't know what it is, but I'm not doing very much to fight it, that's for sure! In all honesty, like many out there, my urge to dress seems to come and go in cycles. I haven't had the urge for almost six months and all of a sudden about a week ago it kicked back in at what I would call more than full force. It started slowly, with just wearing a nightie and panties to bed rather than my usual basketball shorts, and it seemed to escalate from there. What makes it strange for me is that it seems that this time the boundaries have moved quite a bit further than at any previous time. Before I would dress for a few hours at night, sleep in a cute nightie or PJs, and in the morning return to full drab for the day. This time I seem to be throwing all that to the wind. I haven't worn any of my male clothes in almost three days with the exception of a jacket (it's a little cool here right now) and I seem to be getting somewhat more brave. Yesterday I went to get my car looked at and sat in the crowded waiting area of the shop in girl jeans, tights, female shirt under my jacket which is a zip-front hoody that was nowhere near zipped all the way up. I'll admit that the look was a bit more on the androgynous side, but I felt so free. After spending money on my car I felt a little bad so I went to a local retail store, walked right in, bought a new set of PJs, tights, leggings, and several pairs of panties. Again, this is something I would have never done except for maybe late at night when I knew the local Wal-Mart would be just about empty because I was so terrified of leaving the house. So far today I have already been to the store to buy foundation and makeup applicators, again fully dressed. When I got home I shaved, showered, and put on makeup and wig, something I haven't done in years! Sunday is typically serious guy day (I love football), but I decided to do what I'm calling "girly football." My outfit for the day is black leggings, some cute Chuck Taylor converse, my favorite jersey as a dress of sorts, makeup, and wig.

I don't know what's going on but I have to admit that I am definitely enjoying it.

Again, I'm sorry this was so long but I just had to get all of this out!

[Rachel Morley]

No need to apologize. I think you just happened to have hit a spot where for whatever reason you have more confidence, and you're enjoying your dressing more. Dressing desires going is cycles or phases is quite common I think. There were times in my past where I had planned to go out shopping with my wife or go to our TG support group's social but when the time came to go I really didn't feel like dressing at all. Then there were other times when I hadn't planned to go anywhere or dres and I had this overwhelming urge to "feel pretty".

I say, enjoy your new found confidence and just go with the flow and see where it leads. Btw ... wearing girl's jeans and female shirts under a girl's zip-front hoody that makes you look on the androgynous side, is something I like to do too :)

[Sarah Doepner]

What Rachel calls "more confidence" some of us would call "pink fog". Neither one can really be explained but the result is the same. You are having a good time and expanding your resources and there is nothing wrong there. Even if you find this to be an episode rather than new level of self acceptance, I think you will find that your expectations and boundaries have been reset, moved up just a few notches for the next time. Do your best to be the one in control and have it be an increase in confidence instead of being victim to a pink fog attack.

[Tiffany2]

I myself don't have that confidence, you go girl, hope I get there someday.

[carhill2mn]

There are several things "going on". You are experiencing pleasure as the result of presenting yourself in a feminine manner. Some of your previous "fears" are no longer as strong thus, you feel more comfortable with being "yourself" in public. You have (maybe unconsciously) accepted yourself as you are.
Enjoy, but also do not put yourself into dangerous situations; ie.; be aware of your surroundings and proceed at a reasonable pace.