Changes / being a "pretty" guy

[Debb]

A new experiment.

I have come to realize, little by little, that I no longer derive as much satisfaction from my crossdressing as I used to.
I think it's mostly due to my dis-satisfaction with ... for lack of a better way to put it, ugliness. I do not make a good-looking woman, not at all, and although it's incredibly shallow, I gotta admit it's bugging me. A lot.

As long as I don't look in a mirror, or take photos of myself, the fantasy is intact; however, when I look in the mirror, I see a guy trying to look like a woman -- not a guy succeeding, however.

So, I've decided to try something slightly different.

I'm still gonna crossdress, and I'm still gonna call it that. The major difference? I've been growing my beard (a goatee, really) back, and I'm gonna leave it. I like how I look better with a goatee, and so does my loving, forgiving wife.

I've faced a primary fact: I am lazy. I hate trying to cover up my beard shadow area. I also don't like wearing a wig, but I've been working on growing my hair out anyway, so that'll stop too.
I'll still wear other makeup, like lipstick and eyeshadow, which I enjoy. I'll just really be a guy in a dress, instead of a guy trying to
look like a girl.

I think that I'll have a better chance at feeling like "myself", too, not so disguised, just dressing up "pretty". Maybe it'll help with my gender dysphoria... we'll see if this works out when I go to my little group's Christmas party, coming up soon.

Practicing tomorrow to see whether it works for me or not, wish me luck!

[docrobbysherry]

It's funny, isn't it, Bethany? How EACH CD must find his/her own way and come to terms with dressing themselves?

I was where u r now, 12+ years ago. Hated my mirror and don't have EVEN ONE picture from back in the day! But then, I decided to CHEAT in order to resemble an attractive female! And, I've kept my facial shrubbery, too!

Now, I'm a PRETTY HAPPY CD and have 1000's of pics of Sherry to prove it!

[nicole12]

A new experiment.

I have come to realize, little by little, that I no longer derive as much satisfaction from my crossdressing as I used to.
I think it's mostly due to my dis-satisfaction with ... for lack of a better way to put it, ugliness. I do not make a good-looking woman, not at all, and although it's incredibly shallow, I gotta admit it's bugging me. A lot.

As long as I don't look in a mirror, or take photos of myself, the fantasy is intact; however, when I look in the mirror, I see a guy trying to look like a woman -- not a guy succeeding, however.

So, I've decided to try something slightly different.

I'm still gonna crossdress, and I'm still gonna call it that. The major difference? I've been growing my beard (a goatee, really) back, and I'm gonna leave it. I like how I look better with a goatee, and so does my loving, forgiving wife.

I've faced a primary fact: I am lazy. I hate trying to cover up my beard shadow area. I also don't like wearing a wig, but I've been working on growing my hair out anyway, so that'll stop too.
I'll still wear other makeup, like lipstick and eyeshadow, which I enjoy. I'll just really be a guy in a dress, instead of a guy trying to
look like a girl.

I think that I'll have a better chance at feeling like "myself", too, not so disguised, just dressing up "pretty". Maybe it'll help with my gender dysphoria... we'll see if this works out when I go to my little group's Christmas party, coming up soon.

Practicing tomorrow to see whether it works for me or not, wish me luck!

hi bethany, yes i felt the same as you at times and a while back say a year ago and it that thought actually stopped me cross dressing because i felt kinda silly.

but as per usual the urges is back but what i am going to do is do the things i haveto do to me more fem.