All I think about is dressing

[Barbara Joanne74]

Last night I couldn't sleep and was thinking, and I realized that thoughts related to crossdressing have taken over my mind. From the time I wake up until I go to sleep, unless I am concentrating on something else. It bothers me that this "hobby" has taken over my mind this way. I have even notice lately that my mind is not as sharp at work, which is not a good thing working in Emergency Services.

Perhaps it is time for Barbara to stay in the closet for a while, until I can clear my mind somewhat.

Has anyone else been in this situation?

[JenniferR771]

What situation?
I mean, all the time.

[dorylinn]

Has anyone else been in this situation?

Absolutely... sounds like a classic case of pink fog. :)

[Salina]

It happens to me more often than I would like. I can totally relate.

[Olivia2]

I've been there and either it reaches the saturation point and just becomes less energizing/arousing/interesting or I purposely choose to step away and focus my energy on other things-people in need, volunteering, other hobbies/interests, engaging with others, etc., support groups, whatever it takes. Good luck.

[charlie]

Hello Barbara!
Yes, it becomes a major problem just to continue working, being a husband and carrying on with the rest of my life. To sleep I go through my fem closet in my mind and put together outfits. In the morning with my paper and coffee I go through the ads featuring women's clothes! I used to be able to separate my fem life and male life better. Not so now.

[Jannis]

Thank goodness someone else has these feelings, too. I am constantly obsessed with dressing, shopping, checking out hairstyles on other women, their clothes,etc. It is 100% a constant thought in my mind. Rarely does it leave me consciousness. But, it also leaves me depressed and sad at the same time, because I want tp present as a woman 24/7. I am a closeted CD with a wife who is OK with my longer hair, getting pedicures and 'softer' ways. But she is very vocal and critical about transgenders, gays and other men who express some female trait. She is from a military family and is very conservative in most things. My problem is I get so upset about this that I often cry myself to sleep. I want to tell her, but that would end up in divorce court, for sure. I am now retired and could not afford to take another hit on my financial stuff, slim as it is. I try to reorder my thoughts to other things, but have not been successful. I know if I were single, I would transition in a heartbeat. At least, I am not alone here and I thank you all for that.

[JohnH]

I don't obsess about such things. Instead I crossdress over half of my waking hours. When I sleep I wear a long nightgown. :)

[audreyinalbany]

Maybe you should think about spending a few days 'en femme,' to kind of get it out of your system for awhile. I don't think repressing the desire is going to be much help, but maybe if you could have a little get away it might

[Alice B]

Sure I do. Especially during the holidays when we have constant company and I can't even dress at home.

[kimdl93]

Do you have a tendency to obsess over things other than dressing up? I was diagnosed as mildly OCD. It was something of a revalation to me at the time...but recognizing the tendency has helped me manage it...not always successfully, but enough so that it hasn't disrupted my life.

[Evildawn]

i used to have a problem with restless nights do to it. i eventually started sleeping in night gowns and other feminine articles. this helped me relax and sleep as i no longer had to think about dressing since i already was dressed.

to me it is very comfortable as well.

[Rachel Morley]

I was thinking things like you are now when I first started dressing and going out on regular basis. Funnily enough, as I dressed more and more and in effect, "saturated my life" with it, it became something that was less of a big deal and it became almost "normal" and I stopped thinking (obsessing?) about it so much. My point is, I do still think about it from time to time during every day, but it no longer distracts me and I'm no longer in the "pink fog".

[Jonelle]

I agree with Rachel, but it can keep me up at night if I try to go to bed without a nightgown or panties... I just don't feel right.

[Joanne Curl]

I'm closeted and my wife doesn't know about my dressing. However, I must say I think about it all of the time. I come to this forum to hear about everyone's experiences and to stay in touch with my femme side. I haven't been able to dress for several months and it's awful. I look at new clothes, I keep all of me shaved and as femme as I can but I just don't have the opportunity to dress. But oh boy do I think about it! Constantly!

[DaniPat]

For me the "Pink Fog":daydreaming: seizes me in it's grasp at about the same time each workday, about 30 minutes before the end of the day. I have to force myself to "not" drive like a maniac on the way home. Once home, actually an apartment, I can get out of the drab clothes and into something feminine, even if only panties or hose. More times than not I slip into my marabou 4" heels and am fine until bedtime. I can sometimes underdress for work but have had that cause the "Pink Fog":daydreaming: to cloud my mind at work. When working on a business' server(s) with all corporate info on it/them I can't be distracted, too much.:heehee: Weekends are either too busy to dress or I become a shut-in and dress all day both days, like today. Vacation day from work so I have been in a camisole top and short robe all day.:o Love days to myself with nothing pressing to do.:D Tomorrow, day off for New Years, I will work on my makeup techniques. TTFN.

DaniPat

[kristinacd55]

hmmm.....pink fog for sure. Hey, don't call me Shirley! Leslie Nielsen rip!!

[Jonianne]

I was thinking things like you are now when I first started dressing and going out on regular basis. Funnily enough, as I dressed more and more and in effect, "saturated my life" with it, it became something that was less of a big deal and it became almost "normal" and I stopped thinking (obsessing?) about it so much. My point is, I do still think about it from time to time during every day, but it no longer distracts me and I'm no longer in the "pink fog".

I think what Rachel says is very true. For me, I did saturate myself after I first realized self acceptance, but in time the novelity wore off and although I do think about it each day, it's not something that consumes my thoughts 24/7. I have my family, my job, my other hobbies that fill my life.

I would say, set aside special time for cd'ing, but then strive to focus your mind on what's most important at other times. It's what we all have to work on in our lives, called self-disicipline.

[Kaz]

For me everything changed when I accepted the CD side. I then got a bit obsessed by things, but tried to find a trade-off.

My trade-off the last couple of years has been having quite a few times when I am away from home and then can "be Kaz", who cross-dressers as a guy to go to work! Hell, she even wears guy's underwear!

That sure helped my focus, but the downside is that is very painful after a couple of days away to go back to "normal". It has also now been long enough and I want to do it again...

There is no easy answer...

[Barbara Joanne74]

Thank you to everyone that replied. It does comfort me some to know that others have/do face this issue as well.

As someone said, perhaps it is some OCD on my part. What bothers me is I am having difficulty seperating this part of my life from others that are more important to me (my family, work, friends) as I'm in the closet, and as long as I want to stay married, will stay that way.

As for the suggestion of spending a few days enfem, that would be wonderful but impossible at this time.

I think for now, I am going to have to work harder at my OCD being directed elsewhere, and Barbara may have to take a break.

Thank you to everyone that offered their thoughts

Barbara

[katrinakat]

I know what u mean Barbara! I feel totally consumed in "pink fog"

[Christy_M]

I am deep in the pink fog most of the time. When I take on a project or am playing with my kids or having a engaging conversation with my wife, I am able to focus but all other times, including work, I am thinking about either dressing, shopping, or getting ready for either or both. It sucks that it is so consuming but I can't control it just yet. It has been about six solid months with no reprieve. Even the therapist can't figure out why it is on my mind so much. I have been here before and the other times I have repressed and fought it off. This time I am just going with the flow

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Barb, Do You mean to tell me that it's not normal??
I wake up around 03: or 04: hundred thinking what combinations
of clothes , shoes & wig will work together then get up 06:30
or 07:00 and put it together.
then all day think about what to wear to nite.

Orchid

[Patty B.]

It does become consuming, thinking about cd'ing as much as I do. There are times when it's on the back burner, but then it's right there again. Kind of hard to separate both sides of my personality.

[Kate Simmons]

Yep, sounds like it's time to get off the roller coaster and serioisly address the feelings Hon.:)

[Sharon B.]

I have been down a road similar to the one you are on, what I did to help myself through the fog was to take a evening or day or both and just to dressed to get it out of my system until I have more time to devote to my dressing.

[Deanna B]

:love:hi the girl call it pink fog . i love being in pink fog . i know my job back to front so when i am working .i think of pink fog all the time . i am sorry this is no help but i dont think
you can forget cding . i hope it work out for you. love deanna

[Jamiegirl1]

I feel the same as you,I think about dressing or shopping for new clothes or a new wig almost all the time,It's because we get so much pleasure from it,and for me I wish I could dress 24/7.....but I am married and wife doesn't know......

[suchacutie]

It sounds like you are on overload at the moment. It will take some time but as the newness of each individual detail becomes assimilated into your life you'll be able to commit time to the activities that you need to carry out your life. It does get more controllable :)

tina

[Marcie R.]

I have been unable to dress in all my pretty things for the past few months, mainly because my wife found out that I had been browsing this web site. She really raked me over the coals asking me if I was a crossdresser. I told her no and I was just curious about people that were CD's. I generally dressed when she was out shopping for a couple of hours but I could no longer chance when she would be coming home. The past few months have been very hard to handle with the "PINK FOG" entering my mind during both my sleeping and awake hours. This past week has been wonderful because my wife has been away looking after grandchildren. I have had the house to myself and I have dressed every day of this week. I know it will once again be over for a long while, but I certainly hope my mind will be satisfied for a short time.

[crusadergirl]

that happens to me too i think about it way to much at times

[NicoleScott]

I use those pink fog times to prepare for the next time I am able to dress.

[Jenniferathome]

I think you have the opposite problem. You probably are dressing up enough so that it is occupying your mind. Let yourself go.

[Angiemead12]

Yes a case of Pink fog

[Billie1]

Has anyone else been in this situation?

Yes, and that's when I tend to do a lot of shopping. It can get quite expensive.