Mackenzie
12-30-2010, 02:59 PM
I went to Chesterfield Mall, west county St. Louis, today. I had three returns to Dillards and two to Macy's. I had to go to four departments in all.
This was a rather big deal for me, considering the only times I have been out was to go to the 24-hour Wal Mart or to the gas station, both early in the morning so as to minimize any embarrassments.
The stores didn't open until 10:00 but I was there at about 9:15 a.m. I walked around the three levels, looking in windows, enjoying the time. Several people looked at me, some smiled some just went their way. I smiled at everyone.
When I went to return things, I had to sign the little device with the window where you put your signature. My hand was shaking and there was no way that the signature was anything more than chicken scratch.
All of the interactions with the sales ladies went very well. I have been working on my voice, facial and hand movements, tone and inflection. I was quite comfortable.
I also stopped in two other shops looking for wig hair spray. The gals in both shops were probably in their 20's and I had no problems at all.
But the really neat thing was a very kind comment. I was going up an escalator at Macy's and a lady, probably in her late-50's or early 60's was coming down, just about 10 feet from me. She got my attention and said, "Your outfit is so beautiful. You should be a model." I smiled and thanked her and couldn't believe what I was hearing. I thought to myself, "ma'am, if you only knew...!!"
As soon as possible, I got out my cell phone and called my wife to let her know what the lady said. That was a real boost.
After the mall, I went to Merle Norman's to get some wig hair spray and then to Cosco to do some shopping that my wife asked me to do.
All in all, it was really fun and I had a great time. I am including a picture of what I wore. I don't have many clothes anymore since I purged last summer and am slowing able to buy something here and there. My selection for going out is a total of about 3 outfits.
Oh, one other thing. For those of you who are concerned about your height, weight, or other features, go sit at a mall or an airport. Every size and shape of woman imaginable is out there. Do your best to blend in. Get your makeup down, a nice wig, appropriate clothing, walk erect and think about feminine motions. Keep your elbows at your side, shorter strides when walking, gentle movements, not erratice motions. Soft and gentle ways and kind smiles. I say that to encourage you all!
Mackenzie
This was a rather big deal for me, considering the only times I have been out was to go to the 24-hour Wal Mart or to the gas station, both early in the morning so as to minimize any embarrassments.
The stores didn't open until 10:00 but I was there at about 9:15 a.m. I walked around the three levels, looking in windows, enjoying the time. Several people looked at me, some smiled some just went their way. I smiled at everyone.
When I went to return things, I had to sign the little device with the window where you put your signature. My hand was shaking and there was no way that the signature was anything more than chicken scratch.
All of the interactions with the sales ladies went very well. I have been working on my voice, facial and hand movements, tone and inflection. I was quite comfortable.
I also stopped in two other shops looking for wig hair spray. The gals in both shops were probably in their 20's and I had no problems at all.
But the really neat thing was a very kind comment. I was going up an escalator at Macy's and a lady, probably in her late-50's or early 60's was coming down, just about 10 feet from me. She got my attention and said, "Your outfit is so beautiful. You should be a model." I smiled and thanked her and couldn't believe what I was hearing. I thought to myself, "ma'am, if you only knew...!!"
As soon as possible, I got out my cell phone and called my wife to let her know what the lady said. That was a real boost.
After the mall, I went to Merle Norman's to get some wig hair spray and then to Cosco to do some shopping that my wife asked me to do.
All in all, it was really fun and I had a great time. I am including a picture of what I wore. I don't have many clothes anymore since I purged last summer and am slowing able to buy something here and there. My selection for going out is a total of about 3 outfits.
Oh, one other thing. For those of you who are concerned about your height, weight, or other features, go sit at a mall or an airport. Every size and shape of woman imaginable is out there. Do your best to blend in. Get your makeup down, a nice wig, appropriate clothing, walk erect and think about feminine motions. Keep your elbows at your side, shorter strides when walking, gentle movements, not erratice motions. Soft and gentle ways and kind smiles. I say that to encourage you all!
Mackenzie