I Was Devastated Today - I Spilt a Cup of Tea!

[Traci Elizabeth]

For many many months on HRT, I was on an emotional roller-coaster. But for the last two months it seemed like the emotional outburst and crying spells had past.

That was until TODAY 01.01.11! I was watching the Penn State/Florida game cheering for "Smokin Joe" when during a commercial I ran into the kitchen and made a cup of hot tea. When I returned and went to sit the cup of tea on the coffee table, it slipped out of my hands and the full cup of flipped over and went tumbling.

At that moment, I really lost it, I began crying uncontrollably and could not stop for at least 20 minutes. My wife could not figure out what was wrong and wanted to know if I hurt myself or scalded myself but I was crying so hard, I could not even talk and everytime I tried to talk, I just cried harder.

Happy New Year - it has come in with a BANG!

[MJ]

yup is sucks. your not alone sis. whats worse is it's totally random i never know when there going to hit or how hard

[Debglam]

Hi Traci,

While I can only imagine what the HRT emotional rollercoaster is like, I can sympathise with watching the Nittany Lions play - usually makes me cry too! :sad:

Cheer up and I hope that this is only a hiccup in what will turn out to be a great new year!

:hugs:
Debby

[Steph.TS]

one thing I'm afraid of when it comes to HRT is what happens if I were to go on HRT, and had a crying sessions like that at work, has that ever happened to anyone?

[Faith_G]

I think it had been too long since your last little cry, that's what happens to me. If I repress stuff it builds up and then who knows what is going to trigger a major crying episode like you had. I was holed up in the bathroom at work for 15 minutes one day last week trying to recover just because my fingers were cold and I pinched one under something and it hurt a little. It wasn't that it hurt so bad, it was because things had been building and that little bit of pain was enough to push me over the edge. I try to just let go and do what comes naturally, but sometimes it seems so silly to get weepy over minor stuff. And then I'll freak out over essentially nothing and it's totally uncontrollable.

[Melody Moore]

I don't think us girls like to make a mess, so when something like this happens it can be a little upsetting.

The same thing seems to be now happening to me - I got upset the other day with myself for spilling a bit of coffee.

[Rianna Humble]

one thing I'm afraid of when it comes to HRT is what happens if I were to go on HRT, and had a crying sessions like that at work, has that ever happened to anyone?

It's one of the questions that HR have asked me to consider so that we can have a fall-back plan if it happens. Any advice greatfully received.

[Traci Elizabeth]

Well, I finally got control of my emotions and cleaned up the mess and made another cup of hot tea ONLY to start crying again when Penn State LOST to Florida....WHAT a New Year!

BUT I would NOT change being a woman for ANYTHING! Crying is cleansing the soul and something I did too little of in my past life. There is such peace of heart after a good cry!

[Jannis]

I am not on HRT, but I also cry a little when the Nittany Lions don't play well. (Lifetime alumna). Not an unusual reaction, but I understand the emotion. (Sigh) Hang in there, it will get better. Just think about our woman's volleyball team and their success. Bless you.

[Stephanie Anne]

I hate to cry because it physically hurts every time I do. this means I do everything I can to not cry so it gets all bottled up until I am a sobbing mess. See I'm trying not to cry right now for feeling sad because I never cry. I am blaming you Traci!

[Aprilrain]

Being able to cry is actually something I'm looking forward to. Right now I simply don't cry. I think I've cryed twice in the last ten years. I get right up to the point where I feel like weeping and then I just go numb or I get pissed. It's very frustrating because I use to cry a lot up through high school and I remember how cathartic it can be.

[Jorja]

Get used to it now cause there is much more to come. Ahhhh the wonder of modern science ;)

[Faith_G]

It's one of the questions that HR have asked me to consider so that we can have a fall-back plan if it happens. Any advice greatfully received.I lock myself in the bathroom and sob until it's over. Works OK so far. Is there a private bathroom where you could go if you have a meltdown?

[Rianna Humble]

No private bathroom, but the ladies is just outside my office.My problem would be the time spent off the phones to do this.

[Kathryn Martin]

I must say that after being on hormones for 2 full month now, I am more fluid in my emotions and I tear up more often but I have not had a dissolving puddle event so far. I have found that instead of crying over things like commercials etc I not cry in much more appropriate situations. I am slated for an increase in estrogen in about 4 weeks at the three months mark.

[RachelDee]

I'll be curious as to how HRT would affect myself, as I already seem to be quite emotional.

I can't watch films anymore without welling up with tears in both the sad parts AND happy parts. I have to leave the room sometimes and go be alone lol. Songs can make me weepy too. Mostly when I'm alone, but it's happened spontaneously while not alone too! I had to choke back the tears lol.

I always used to try and activly distance myself from those emotions though. Perhaps that's what HRT helps you do, let them out? Or puts you more in touch with them?

They make more sense to me now that I am not trying to be what I think I am expected to be. I'm just letting myself be whatever and no more avoiding :] and if HRT makes it worse (crying lol) then I'll just have to buy lots of pocket tissues ;) hehe

Can understand why this would be quite problamatic though at work or with friends if u can't hold it back. Crying for 20mins like that uncontrolably is not something that's ever happened to me, so um something to look forward too then I guess XD

[Kerrylee61]

This is going to sound stupid but I'd love to have a good cry. Due to a chronic case of clinical depression, that is well controlled with anti depressants, I haven't been able to "feel" much emotion for 15 years. One of the side effects of the darn drug. It unfortunately leaves one with little emotions good or bad. No tears of Joy or Sadness. I would love to have those tears and feelings again but knowing the alternative it's not going to happen.

Just a little different prospective from the other side of the fence so to speak Traci Elizabeth. Hang in there, as with all things in life, there are always the good and the bad.

Kerry

[Jay Cee]

Cripes, I'm not even on hormones, and I find myself crying a lot more these days. I read about someone's cat dying - I cried. See a sappy movie - I shed tears. See a happy part in a "chick flick", and I get misty eyed.

Maybe this is a good thing? Warmup for my future?

Sorry about the tea and the team, Traci. :hugs:

[SherriePall]

Just want you to know that I am not on HRT and I did not spill my tea, but I did cry towards the end of the game, too. I was going to say something more, but I don't know who is really on this forum.

[noeleena]

Hi,

It depends on your make up . & to how emotional you are. the type of meds & the dose rate. age as well those of us who are over 50 we take a lot less health reasons as well. & other concerns.
one reason why we have blood tests evey 3 months to start with for at least the first year.

All ways have some one close to you who can watch out for signs of your mental state ,Be honest with your self & & if & when you do lose the plot addmit to it & have a check up & if needed reduse your meds . check in with your endo.
Other than that just live your life as normal...... i try to .

...noeleena...