Aprilrain
01-02-2011, 11:44 PM
I walked in to my room yesterday and thought "oh my god it looks like a teenage girl lives here" it was a mess. I straightened up, vacuumed, washed all my dirty clothes and rearranged my drawers. There that's better now it looks like a woman in her thirties lives here but why does she have all theses male clothes?
I pretty much have the full support of my wife, though it's not her favorite thing in the world. She recently said seeing April doesn't bother her like she thought it would. We've been to the very crowded mall. She called me by my male name in one of the stores we went to but caught herself, we both laughed. She also said I sound like a valley girl. Hey at least I'm trying and no I don't say "gag me with a spoon"! I don't even say the word 'like' that much. She has asked me to do her nails because she said mine always look so good. It's much harder to do someone else's nails BTW. Everything she bought me for Xmas and my Bday was for April.
My four year old doesn't say anything about nail polish anymore and he seems to not have noticed that I come into the house with a purse. Even if I'm not "en femme" I wear almost all female clothes. I pretty much wear jeans even if I am "en femme" unless i'm going to a party then I might wear a dress or skirt.
I'm spending about 30% of my time en femme and will be adding another venue here soon. I really want to go full time but am trying to contain myself and take it slow and let people know before I just show up as the opposite gender of what they are used to.
Being TG has forced me to let go of a lot of life long assumptions, preconceived notions, and prejudices. I have not had a negative reaction yet and have had to get out of my car while traveling to buy gas, food, hotel rooms, and pee in 13 different states from coast to coast. Some of those were bible belt too.
I've made new friends in the gay community. I used to be homophobic not because I had anything against you being gay I was just afraid I was gay. Now I don't care, I am what I am and I'm still not sure what that is. Lol. They have embraced me warmly and are on average much better dancers than any of my heterosexual friends.
The best thing to come out of coming out is all the help I've gotten from my wife, sisters, and GG friends on clothes and makeup. Now I look presentable before not so much but I guess it didn't matter since I was in the closet. Oh yeah and I take much better care of my skin, hair and nails.
I pretty much have the full support of my wife, though it's not her favorite thing in the world. She recently said seeing April doesn't bother her like she thought it would. We've been to the very crowded mall. She called me by my male name in one of the stores we went to but caught herself, we both laughed. She also said I sound like a valley girl. Hey at least I'm trying and no I don't say "gag me with a spoon"! I don't even say the word 'like' that much. She has asked me to do her nails because she said mine always look so good. It's much harder to do someone else's nails BTW. Everything she bought me for Xmas and my Bday was for April.
My four year old doesn't say anything about nail polish anymore and he seems to not have noticed that I come into the house with a purse. Even if I'm not "en femme" I wear almost all female clothes. I pretty much wear jeans even if I am "en femme" unless i'm going to a party then I might wear a dress or skirt.
I'm spending about 30% of my time en femme and will be adding another venue here soon. I really want to go full time but am trying to contain myself and take it slow and let people know before I just show up as the opposite gender of what they are used to.
Being TG has forced me to let go of a lot of life long assumptions, preconceived notions, and prejudices. I have not had a negative reaction yet and have had to get out of my car while traveling to buy gas, food, hotel rooms, and pee in 13 different states from coast to coast. Some of those were bible belt too.
I've made new friends in the gay community. I used to be homophobic not because I had anything against you being gay I was just afraid I was gay. Now I don't care, I am what I am and I'm still not sure what that is. Lol. They have embraced me warmly and are on average much better dancers than any of my heterosexual friends.
The best thing to come out of coming out is all the help I've gotten from my wife, sisters, and GG friends on clothes and makeup. Now I look presentable before not so much but I guess it didn't matter since I was in the closet. Oh yeah and I take much better care of my skin, hair and nails.