New Year's Eve; didn't dressed and so jealous!! In a Jail of Gender Regulations!!!

[katrinakat]

So I dressed for two nights in a row before New Years, which was so wonderful. I never wanted it to end but, of course. My girl-friend room mate, convinces me to go to a mutual friends party.......and to get back to male mode so we could go. Yes of course I said. (not the type of party I'd feel comfortable in femme) (even though more than a handful already know about my femme tendencies)

So, I took off my GIRL clothes other than my tights and thong; which I wore under my jeans, which was nice but not totally. I put on a nice collared shirt and jacket and went to the party.

Upon arriving,.....OF COURSE! I was immediately filled with jealousy! Watching all the women sasche around the party wearing such exsquiste outfits, shoes, jewelry, make-up, etc. made me so JEALOUS.

I wish I could have dressed like myself! Sometimes I feel like I'm in a Jail of gender expectations! What do you do when you feel like this?

[bridgetta]

just who is it that you are protecting from this?

[JackieInPA]

Cry

[JulieC]

Sob.

[Kelly DeWinter]

Let's see two days as YOU want and ONE day as your girlfriend wants, I'm not too good with math, but I think you've come out ahead and had a chance to make her happy . What ever happened to compromise and pleasing your mate ? Why not pick another night , get dressed up and go to a club with friends or have the friends over for a small party ?

[insearchofme]

You made your girl friend happy didn't you? I have never made a mistake when I've made my wife happy.

[katrinakat]

I'm sorry, She's a friend (a girl) that happens to be my roommate. We are not boyfriend and girlfriend.

Let me clarify.

It wasn't a compromise at all, I had a blast I knew I would!!!
I guess it was a decision.
A decision that came down to this..........

Hang out with friends and go to a party!
OR
Stay home and DRESS!!!


Shockingly I wasn't sure. Which isn't like me! I almost chose to stay at home and do my drag thing rather than put on m clothes and go to a party.

And I did, and had a blast, but part of me hurt inside.

[AKAMichelle]

I have to agree that hiding yourself even just a little is like being in jail. You have no freedom in jail or the self imposed boundaries . Hopefully you won't have to do that often.

[NV Susan]

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a Jail of gender expectations! What do you do when you feel like this?
OMG, great line. I also feel this way at times, don't you just hate it.....

[dontknowyet]

I'm sorry, She's a friend (a girl) that happens to be my roommate. We are not boyfriend and girlfriend.

Let me clarify.

It wasn't a compromise at all, I had a blast I knew I would!!!
I guess it was a decision.
A decision that came down to this..........

Hang out with friends and go to a party!
OR
Stay home and DRESS!!!


Shockingly I wasn't sure. Which isn't like me! I almost chose to stay at home and do my drag thing rather than put on m clothes and go to a party.

And I did, and had a blast, but part of me hurt inside.

it was a good thing that you went out. you can stay at home and dress any day but how often can you go have fun at a party?

[Nicole Erin]

Better than how I spent new year's - sitting at home doing nothing.
If I had been asked to go somewhere I probably would not have but it would be nice to be invited.

[Kim_Bitzflick]

Better than how I spent new year's - sitting at home doing nothing.
If I had been asked to go somewhere I probably would not have but it would be nice to be invited.

Yep that was my night too. but I'm not a party type person (in either mode).

[kimdl93]

Not a party animal anymore, either. But I did feel a bit deprived because we spent NYE with one of our daughters and her bf. They aren't aware of my dressing preferences ;)

[Kitty Sue]

Try being in the military sweetie.