Allyson Michelle
01-24-2011, 01:41 AM
Hello again everybody. I surely do apologize for my abrupt departure and extended hiatus, but I'm finally back. One reason is that I no longer have an everyday internet connection available to me. Another reason is that I needed to do some soul searching. I needed to truly find myself. I'm having new revelations every day about my true identity.
First off, I fell in love! She doesn't know about me yet, but she is a very kind and open minded person and I'm 99% sure she'll understand and be ok with it (she likes girls too anyway). With that being said, I'm not going to tell her until we get serious, If we get serious. We'll see where it goes.
Also, I am still not on HRT due to multiple reasons. Financially, I simply cannot afford it (which seems to be many-a-lady's problems these days). I dont even have health insurance. I do however have a promising future as a music producer (my dream!) which is great because its mostly behind the scenes, meaning a slightly easier transition. So that's some good news. Another reason is that there are still some people in my life that I would rather keep on the hush for now. On a lighter note, I have told some people in my family with surprisingly positive feedback. Growing up I was rather masculine(physically), but they all say they kinda had a feeling I was gay or something... lol! due to some of my mannerisms and generally caring personality and such. I've told all of my siblings and my grandmother. I don't think My grandma completely understands, but she is non judgmental, and my grandad would surely disown me if he knew so we shall tackle that later. also my brothers aren't quite sure what it is but say they will support and love me no matter who i am physically. My sister seems to be the only one who really understands it. She is a "health freak" and saw those Sex-Change Specials on TLC and Discovery Health and such. So she has a very good idea of what and who i am. I love her so much!
I understand that having such caring and understanding family members is truly a blessing and I WILL NOT take it for granted. To all my fellow ladies (and gentlemen for that matter) weather you do or do not have the same luck as i when it comes to family support, I will be here to lend a hand and as Eminem said "we'll walk this road together, through the storm, whatever weather, cold or warm!"
If you made it to this point in my post, I thank you for having an interest in my update and taking time to read my post. Unfortunately, I do not have the means to constantly update, but I definitely will as much as i can. At least once a week.
Caio!
Ally
First off, I fell in love! She doesn't know about me yet, but she is a very kind and open minded person and I'm 99% sure she'll understand and be ok with it (she likes girls too anyway). With that being said, I'm not going to tell her until we get serious, If we get serious. We'll see where it goes.
Also, I am still not on HRT due to multiple reasons. Financially, I simply cannot afford it (which seems to be many-a-lady's problems these days). I dont even have health insurance. I do however have a promising future as a music producer (my dream!) which is great because its mostly behind the scenes, meaning a slightly easier transition. So that's some good news. Another reason is that there are still some people in my life that I would rather keep on the hush for now. On a lighter note, I have told some people in my family with surprisingly positive feedback. Growing up I was rather masculine(physically), but they all say they kinda had a feeling I was gay or something... lol! due to some of my mannerisms and generally caring personality and such. I've told all of my siblings and my grandmother. I don't think My grandma completely understands, but she is non judgmental, and my grandad would surely disown me if he knew so we shall tackle that later. also my brothers aren't quite sure what it is but say they will support and love me no matter who i am physically. My sister seems to be the only one who really understands it. She is a "health freak" and saw those Sex-Change Specials on TLC and Discovery Health and such. So she has a very good idea of what and who i am. I love her so much!
I understand that having such caring and understanding family members is truly a blessing and I WILL NOT take it for granted. To all my fellow ladies (and gentlemen for that matter) weather you do or do not have the same luck as i when it comes to family support, I will be here to lend a hand and as Eminem said "we'll walk this road together, through the storm, whatever weather, cold or warm!"
If you made it to this point in my post, I thank you for having an interest in my update and taking time to read my post. Unfortunately, I do not have the means to constantly update, but I definitely will as much as i can. At least once a week.
Caio!
Ally