One Day, I just wanna...

[WillowWriter]

One day, I just wanna share my story to someone, someone who would listen, understand and wanna help. Crossdressing, writing, and all my other stuff. I've never had the chance to tell my story, just in parts, and truly, I'm just kinda depressed that I can't. My two closest friends aren't the kinda people that listen to long stories, or understand big words and stuff. I'm not sure what to do, my crossdressing is a big part of me and I just feel really lonely at home. My best friend, Ben, he doesn't say anything anymore. I can be kinda nosy, but if ask "What's up?" or "Anything new?" he says "Nothing" Always nothing, and he never wants to talk because, he doesn't wanna be less masculine. It's kinda frustrating me, but he's really my only friend, so I'm lost. So, I'm not sure what to do, but crossdressing has calmed me down a bit. What should I do?

[Amanda22]

My recommendation is to find like-minded people. Most of the time, that isn't going to be family. You can choose your friends, and perhaps there's a TG support group nearby, or at least you could drive to once a month. This forum has been valuable to me, and I think you're taking a great step to ask for suggestions here. If you're seriously concerned about depression, find a therapist. I did that, and it changed my life. Good luck to you and keep us updated, OK?

[Karren H]

I noticed that not many people have the staying will power to do long conversations any more.. Guess these times of instant youtube short clip gratification has got us all running off to the next video clip.. I'm guilty as hell.. If a thread is too long. I don't even go there (its hard on my blackberry).. I don't know but a counselor or a priest? They are good listeners... Or how about starting a blog somewhere?

[WillowWriter]

I do see a therapist, it has helped my a lot. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 10 years old, something I should have included in the first post.

[Amanda22]

I think Karren's idea of a starting a blog is excellent. It would be a way to journal your thoughts/life. I have very few friends myself, but they do know about the real me. If you can establish just one friendship in the TG community, I expect you'll begin to experience some relief. We're rooting for you!

[gwenbeth]

I think it is a good idea to start writing your thoughts down. I have been doing this for a couple of months. I don't post it anywhere, but it is good just to get it out of my system. I view it as something that goes along with my therapy.

And as Amanda suggested, reach out to a group in the community. A few months ago I had no one to talk to about how I feel (other than my therapist), and now I have four phone numbers in my phone of people I can call and talk to. Only two of them are CD'ers but they are all willing to lend a sympathetic ear.