Me Dealing with Me

[Trinity]

I have been dressing off and on for about 10 years probably. I haven't had the opportunity to meet others that dress and feel the same way about it that I do. So I thought I would share and see if anyone else is like me. Hopefully so. :)

I don't dress because I have a desire to be a woman. Not in the "trapped in a man's body" sense anyway. I dress because I think women are the most beautiful creatures on earth. So much so that I want to feel the way they feel. I love how I can put on a bra and panties and feel so sexy but still be a man. It's kind of like I dress up and I can be me and trinity all at one time. I can touch Trinity and she can touch me back. Trust me, it's not a split personallity. I know that I am one person. :)

However, I do have bi tendencies and have had 1 experience (that didn't go so well btw). I don't think I could ever be with a man that didn't dress. The ultimate would be to be with a girl like me. But I am not activily seeking this.

What I really want right now is some friends, hopefully a few local friends, that I can get with and talk to and be able to be open about who I am since it would be impossible to do so with anyone I know right now.

I hope that anything I said didn't offend anyone and I hope that we can be this open on this forum without upsetting anyone. But more importantly, I just hope that I am not alone in the way I think and how I feel. Just looking for some support I guess.

Thanks for letting me share.

Trin...

[joannablake]

Hey Trinity

Let me be the first one to welcome you to the site. As for offending anyone one on this site dont worry about it. All the girls on this site are very open minded and well gladly help you out in any situation that you are in. Look no further for support because you will have all the support you will ever need right here on this page. If you ever want to talk just email me my yahoo addie is joanablake_2001.

Love always
Joanna

[NewShy21NJmtf]

Dear Trinity,

I totally agree with your reasons for dressing and identify with them completely. I'm so jealous of how beautiful girls are, and dressing helps me feel just a little bit like them, if even for a short while. Welcome.

Stephanie

[Dana]

I don't think that you're too far off the beaten path. I've gone through extradinary lengths to deny my femininiyt, to include getting married, living with another GG for seven years, and taking a masculine career to the extreme. I've come to understand that my living with a GG is like letting a bunch of kids loose in a candy store. I am absolutely drawn to any and all things feminine. Jealous. Envious. I''ve come to know and understand that there is fantasy, and then there is reality and that fantasy very seldom matches up to reality. Fantasy, is being able to dress, and look like and act, and play the role of a woman. Reality, I'm not attracted to guys. Just not! Femininity, I'm definately attracted to, from beginning to end, top to botttom. Thing is the majority, of women, aren't attracted to men who are attracted to femininity to the degree that I am, in so much, as I'm not satisfied in THEIR being femininie, I want to experience that as well. After a failed marriage and another failed long term relationship, I've come to the point in my life that I have come to reconcile with the following: 1. I'm never - ever going to find a GG who can and will willingly "tote the note" on my being TG! 2. I'm going to be single and alone the rest of my life, 3. On those occassions when I do find myself involved with a woman, my being TG need not be brought up as it will result in the end of the relationship. Who needs all that heartache, heartbreak? Shame! In that I've really have alot to give and alot to offer.

[AnnaMaria]

Trinity,

First let me say that everyone here has their own reasons for being who they are. No one is looked down upon for their reasons.
Personally my reasons are a bit more complex than yours, but never the less have the same outcome. For me to become anna on the outside is like becoming the person that my mind tells me I should be. Maybe there is more to what I feel but that is the reason that I can put my finger on first.
I am sure that their are others who feel the same way that you feel or have similar feelings and that is fine to. We all come here for friendship and support from others like ourselves and that in and of it's self is the most important reason that this is such a great site.
I hope that you find the friendship and support that you seek and if you ever want someone to talk to just drop me a line. I spend a couple hours a night at least on my computer and would enjoy the chance to chat or trade email with anyone who is willing.
You can reach me at: [email protected]
feel free to use it anytime you like

anna

[Dana]

Personally, I've beaten myself up so badly over being a CD, its un-real. And, I've been wanting, looking for someone to talk to, to relate to for so long, again, its just un-real. I was married for 13 years, had kids, got them raised and grown. Went through H*ll by getting involved with another GG for 8 years. Moved in and lived with her. Did 20 years in the military, and went the macho and drinking route, big time. I haven't been in a relationship for going on 7 years. For the last nine years, its been go to work and come home. I tried living down Dana, and I 've somewhat have tried to lived down CD'ing. Still, sometimes, I find myself driving to a town fifty miles away, and walking into a department store, buying a nylon night gown, and panties. Last Christmas, I was in WalMart buying "Christmas Presents" in the form of makeup brushes and kits, (that I still haven't used). I've been searching the internet, and looking at different sites. I live alone, and as I said I'm not in a relationship. I want to shave my legs, my body hair, paint my toe nails, wear women's clothes and makeup and jewelry. I'm not interested in men, per say. But, I will admitt to having my fantasy moments. but they're more about
MY being feminiine than being attracted to men, if that makes any sense!

[Sonya Love]

Hi Trin,

Your motivations and inclinations sound a lot like mine. I like women, definitely, and am not attracted to men who don't dress ... or women who look like men, for that matter. I don't know, it's all so confusing, lol :)

~sonya

[Sara Kat]

Welcome to the forums Trinity! :)

I'm from Wichita too. Check your PMs. :D

[jeanette]

Dana dont beat yourself up for what you are, accept it we are the lucky people be who yo0u really want to be and life can be really great

take care
Jeanette

[Trinity]

Thanks for all the support. Sorry I haven't gotten on here sooner to chat but things have been hectic on the home front. Hopefully on be here more often the next few evenings. :)

[kristi cd]

A lil late, but welcome Trin! I know exactly how you feel about why you dress too. ;) :D


I dress because I think women are the most beautiful creatures on earth. So much so that I want to feel the way they feel. I love how I can put on a bra and panties and feel so sexy but still be a man.