It Is Time For Me To Say Goodbye To All My Dear Freinds with these Thoughts

[Traci Elizabeth]

My dear friends, I have so enjoyed being a member here and I have gained so much from all of you. You were there when I was sad, when my hormones were totally out of whack, when I was crying, and there to share my happy moments.

But it is now time for me to move on to live my life as a woman.

I want to take a moment to tell you my story in hopes that any of you who have gone through the same kind of difficult times can hold on to hope that life does get better.

I was born transsexual and was acting like a girl as early as five that I can remember. All through my junior and senior high school years, I was wearing teenage girl clothes everyday as my parents both worked and my father was out of town often.

During my childhood and teenage years, I was mentally and physically severely abused by my parents trying to make me masculine and to act like a boy. It never worked and I suffered for many many years very harshly.

At age 7, I was sexually abused for over a year almost daily. As a young teenager, I was attacked by a violent predator who before punching me so hard that I was knocked unconscious, called me a "faggot."

He then drove me into the woods where he kicked me over and over again. He then violently raped me then kept kicking me until he thought I was dead.

My wife, daughter, granddaughter and our siblings all know Traci and they also know in great detail all the pain and suffering I had to endure. At first, they all assumed that I "became" transsexual BECAUSE of all the bad things that happened to me.

I have suffered from my childhood all these years never really realizing how deep my pains and scars really were or how it had affected me as a person until I started getting treatment.

I have been under psychiatric treatment for two years now. My psychiatrist has been treating transsexuals since 1972 and is considered one of the best in this field.

The easiest part of my therapy was accepting my transsexualism and I have transition full time for over a year now and my doctor as well as my gynecologist working as a team have told me that it is time to leave my transsexual label behind me and to live my life totally as a woman not a "trans-woman."

But one of the first important steps I reached with my psychiatrist was this:

"I did NOT become a Transsexual because I was abused BUT I was abused BECAUSE I was transsexual!"

As simple as that sentence is, it was an epiphany and my first major breakthrough in my recovery.

I am still healing wounds over my abuse and still seeing both my doctors but life is so much happier and I am becoming very strong and loving each and every moment of my life.

My wife and my immediate family are all very supportive and have come to accept and love Traci even more than in the past.

That T-Shirt slogan "Life Is Good" is oh so true and I want each and everyone of you to know that no matter what you have been through or what you must overcome, ALWAYS move forward towards your dream and as my Aviator signature has always stated, "Have the Courage 2 Be You!"

Goodbye my dear friends, I shall always hold each of you dear in my memories and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of your support and love.

My God grant you Peace and may your day come too.

Love,
Traci Elizabeth

[Debglam]

Traci,

I've enjoyed your posts but none more than this one. Enjoy being the woman you always wanted to and were always meant to be!

Peace to you and yours,
Debby

[gretchen2]

Happy trails, and best of luck Traci. It does not have to be an absolute either, you can always come back when times are bad or good.

[pamela_a]

Traci,

I know your new future in no way can erase the events of the past but I sincerely hope you find all of the peace and happiness your life as you, a woman, can bring. I understand where you are in your life and wish you all the best.

Be well and take care. :hugs:

-Pam-

[Michelle.M]

I can barely read this through tears of joy for you. Take care on your journey.

[Christy_M]

I am so happy for you to reach this point with such a positive view. It really speaks volumes to the wonderful person you must be. It is too bad that you cannot maintain the friendships you have cultivated through your journey. Even as a woman I am sure you will continue to find friendship and support here. Good luck and may God continue to shine His love on you.

Christy

[Miranda09]

All the best to you Traci. Don't forget that you'll always have a home and friends here. :)

[Danni Bear]

Traci,

I'm not going to say Good Bye but So Long for now.

come back and see us often and let us know how you are doing.

You have numerous friends here who will miss you.

Fair Weather and Good Fortune smile on you allways

Love
Danni

[mslenak]

All the best for you in the next phase of your life.

[Sharon]

You have my most heartfelt best wishes, Traci, and -- please! -- stop by now and then to say hello. :hugs:

[Shapeshiffter]

Long life and happiness

[JohnH]

We sure would like to hear from you time to time. Please don't forsake the forum altogether.

Take care,

Hugs,

Johanna

[Melody Moore]

Hi Traci....

I am not going to say 'goodbye' to you because that is actually saying 'farewell forever'.

Along with everyone else I am going to miss you because I think you really a great person - I have enjoyed your posts
& believe that you are a valuable member of this community, however you need to do whatever it is you must do in life.

So I wish you all the best and will always be keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.

Good Luck ad I hope everything goes well for you.
Your friend always :hugs: Melody Moore.

[CharleneT]

Traci, I'll put it the only way I can: don't go !!

Charlene

[Teri Jean]

Tracy it is with a heavy heart I say good bye but there comes the time when our paths will separate. I wish you well and please stop in every so often to just peek if you will. Hugs are not enough but will have to do. Teri Jean

[Deborah_UK]

Traci Elizabeth,

Sorry to see you go, but I understand why.

I'd just like to thank you as well for your love and support here as well. I will miss your wise words.

:love: :hugs:

Deborah

[Persephone]

Dear Traci Elizabeth,

Few posts have been as moving as yours. I am sorry for the pain you had in your life, but I am so overjoyed at your prospects to come.

Your therapist is right, there is a time to leave "trans-woman" behind and become whole.

You will continue to be an inspiration to me and to many, many others. If the situation warrants, please do feel free to come back, even if only to visit.

Meanwhile, May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
May the rains fall soft upon your fields,
And, until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.

Hugs and Love,
Persephone.

[noeleena]

Hi .
Traci.

Im sorry your going to leave us , so should i just say see ya for now , & hope to catch up later on & please let us know how things are going .

i understand how you feel & yes as you move in to your life of liveing as a woman , youll find it like i do very neat & being accepted as a woman .

All the best in your life , .

Hugss xxx

...noeleena...

[Jorja]

Traci Elizabeth,

Sorry to see you go but I know the place you are at now and fully understand. Please do check in from time to time and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs

[Faith_G]

I'll miss you, but you gotta do what you gotta do. :hugs:

Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

[Rianna Humble]

I'm sorry to see you go, but wish you well on your journey

[Jannis]

I am so happy that you have found a happier place of peace and joy with your family and friends. I hope to be there one day, but will continue my journey for now. Love ya Lions!

[Gina X]

Traci, since I've been on this forum you are one of those that has shown most common sense and although we haven't always seen eye to eye I respect you and your opinion. I wish you well in the future but please keep in touch it would be great to see how you get on, Good Luck...............

[Jenny Doolittle]

Traci,

I kind of understand that you no longer associate as a transgendered person, but friends are friends no matter what their sexual orrentation or gender. Friends are always there for friends.

[Jay Cee]

I've gained a bit more knowledge about myself by reading what you have posted in the forum, Traci, and I thank you for that. I wish you a happy and prosperous life. Please do feel free to stop by once in awhile, and let us know how it goes.

Hugs to you

Jay Cee

[Laura_Stephens]

Traci, congrats on moving forward. It is not easy to do. I will miss you and your posts. Perhaps you could stop back from time to time just to say, "Hi!"

[Nicki S]

Traci Elizabeth, I am sad to see that you are going. I have enjoyed reading your posts. I am very happy for you and your positive approach to womanhood. Please stop back in and say hello. God bless you!

Hugs, Nicki

[Aprilrain]

God speed Traci Elizabeth. How fast does God go anyway?

[Veronica_Jean]

Traci,

I wish you well on continuing to find joy in the rest of your life.
I have been in and out of this forum for a bit and I am glad that today was one of those times I stopped in.

:hugs::love:

Veronica

[Kerrie Sifton]

Adios Traci, as as the turks say "Gule, Gule" , go smiling.

[Stephanie Anne]

I will just say goodbye. Not sure why you would leave but I guess to each their own. Just realize you never stop being a trans woman.

[morgan51]

I have enjoyed your insight and experiences and learned much from your posts enjoy the fruits of all your hard work and have a great life. Thankyou!

[Hope]

Good luck. I understand your motivation.

But I have to disagree with your premise for leaving - being here doesn't make you any less of a woman.

[TracyBoy]

I am happy for you in your decision to move on as a woman. But PLEASE don't leave this forum and your friends! ( And I finally got on your friends list too!) This hurts and saddens me.:sad: But a true friend accepts what one's friend decides even if not in agreement, so with that I wish you luck wherever you go! Love, Your friend TracyBoy:love:

[Kathryn Martin]

I think there always comes the day when it is time to move on and submerge yourself in the normalcy of life. You are a great friend and person, and I am sure you will do well as you move forward. Like so many I have looked to you to bring your perspective to this life of ours and am grateful for your wisdom. So take care, sister and be well. I will be looking for you along the way

[Inna]

How joyful occasion, Happy birthday babe!

Fulfill this world in love you have, love so strong, for those who crave.
Each and every day shall shine its wonders before you, fulfill your love, for you "are you"!
But do not step aside from those who love you dear, who love you most,
And peak inside this place at times, Its your familia here, its us
sit down with us and join in feast, just as you remember from long ago,
even when we shout, or cry, or hold, we are made of same stuff within our soul,
You are a woman, babe, you know it, through spilled tears and times of pain
"YOU ARE A WOMAN", true mothers instinct resides within you soul, it does
so come and visit and press your luck, we love you for who you always were
spill your worries and joys again, and embrace your girls like the mother only can

[RachelDee]

That's a very powerful story indeed. I could not believe it as I was reading that a person could go through something like that and survive! It's very inspiring & you're a very courageous person imho.

Not really talked to you as I have not been around here much :) but I do wish you well and hope that you find the happiness you deserve.

Best wishs, Traci Elizabeth :)

[Karen564]

What can I say kido....cept....Live long & prosper...

Best Wishes...:hugs:
Love,
Karen

[MJ]

may you be truly blessed along your journey of life

[Kathi Lake]

Traci, sorry to see you go, but I guess if we're holding you back, . . .

:)

Kathi

[jackielou]

traci sorry to see you go ,i just hope the best in life for you and your family please dont abandon your friends here we still have a long road to travel and some of us may never find the love and piece you have achieved i personally am going through a bad divorce now due to as my wife said walking around in womens underware and clothes she was fine with it for a while then she did a full 180 so please stand by us we still need a lot of support and some one to talk with who understands.

[7sisters]

Lovely lady, thank you for being my friend and for making me smile. I wish all your dreams come true. We will stay connected through the goodwill we send to each other. Wishes to your family. kiss kiss.

[Daenna Paz]

Moving on doesn't have to mean moving away ... ;^)

Be well, my sister :daydreaming:

[LeannL]

Traci,
Good luck. While it can never make up for your pain, may your future be filled with so much joy that your memory of the painful past fades into oblivion.
Leann

[Victoria Anne]

Traci , you will be greatly missed here and by me , thank you for all the support you have given to me and others , may God bless and keep you . Good luck to you and a happy life. Love Viccy

[Cindygirl65]

Congratulations Traci and may God Bless you in your life. Life is worth living and loving God will make it much better. I wish you all the best. Take care. Cindy.

[LisaM]

Good luck in your travels, Traci!

[KarenCDFL]

I wish you the very best on your continued journey of life.