Anne2345
03-16-2011, 01:15 PM
Hi All! I just wanted to share a few thoughts with everyone on Anne's evolution over the few short weeks I have been here.
For those of you that have read my previous posts, you know that I finally acknowledged and succumbed to my need to join this forum, make new friends, and participate with others in our mutual journey. Although I came to the realization that I needed to join and participate, past what I have stated in my other posts, I was not clear within my own head as to why.
After participating and getting involved with this forum in the manner in which I have, I have discovered why I needed to join. This discovery was made possible by soaking up and digesting as many threads and posts as I have had time to review. There are some remarkable and quite insightful threads and posts here! This forum is really an amazing resource, among all of its other great qualities.
Even moreso, and before I detail my discovery, it was made possible by the new friends I have made. You all know who you are, and you all are fantastic! I would be remiss, however, if I did not specifically acknowledge my new sweetie-pie girl friend Marissa. She has been particularly helpful in my journey of self-discovery here, and I appreciate her, and everyone else, greatly! :)
As I have explained in earlier posts, my wife is fantastic and wonderfully accepting of Anne. I could not be more appreciative of my wife, and could not love her any more. :o But until now, Anne has been behind closed doors her entire life, and unknown to the rest of the world. In this forum, I have discovered that Anne, naturally enough, has her own personality. She is her own woman! Again, my wife is fantastic, but when dressed when she is around, I am still her husband. Given that all my wife has given me and accepted me for, this is a boundary that I accept and would never complain about. If she one day accepts this part of Anne, that is fantastic! But until that day arrives, I cannot and will not complain or push it. That simply would not be fair to my wife.
But what I have learned is that Anne and her feminine personality (what my personality when I am dressed should be, and a side of me that is otherwise integral to who I am), has not had the opportunity to grow, mature, and evolve. In a way, she has been under lock and key. It is now so OBVIOUS to me that this I why I needed to join and participate, that I cannot believe I did not recognize it before! When I am here, I am now free to participate and interact as Anne, and to really be Anne, in all of her feminine glory!
For me, I would not trade my masculine side for anything. I love my masculine side. I love my feminine side, too, and would not trade it, either. Back long ago when I was deeply struggling with who and what I am, if someone had offered me a magical pill that would have wiped Anne away, I would have jumped at the chance. Now, after my wife's acceptance long ago, which was instrumental in allowing me to ultimately come to terms with and accept myself, if someone offered me that same pill - I would not take it. I would not even consider it! I love Anne! And after learning more about her these past couple of weeks, I love her more than ever!
So again, I want to thank everyone and the forum for helping to make this revelation possible for me. You girls are all fantastic, and we are all beautiful! Thanks for listening!
Love,
Anne
For those of you that have read my previous posts, you know that I finally acknowledged and succumbed to my need to join this forum, make new friends, and participate with others in our mutual journey. Although I came to the realization that I needed to join and participate, past what I have stated in my other posts, I was not clear within my own head as to why.
After participating and getting involved with this forum in the manner in which I have, I have discovered why I needed to join. This discovery was made possible by soaking up and digesting as many threads and posts as I have had time to review. There are some remarkable and quite insightful threads and posts here! This forum is really an amazing resource, among all of its other great qualities.
Even moreso, and before I detail my discovery, it was made possible by the new friends I have made. You all know who you are, and you all are fantastic! I would be remiss, however, if I did not specifically acknowledge my new sweetie-pie girl friend Marissa. She has been particularly helpful in my journey of self-discovery here, and I appreciate her, and everyone else, greatly! :)
As I have explained in earlier posts, my wife is fantastic and wonderfully accepting of Anne. I could not be more appreciative of my wife, and could not love her any more. :o But until now, Anne has been behind closed doors her entire life, and unknown to the rest of the world. In this forum, I have discovered that Anne, naturally enough, has her own personality. She is her own woman! Again, my wife is fantastic, but when dressed when she is around, I am still her husband. Given that all my wife has given me and accepted me for, this is a boundary that I accept and would never complain about. If she one day accepts this part of Anne, that is fantastic! But until that day arrives, I cannot and will not complain or push it. That simply would not be fair to my wife.
But what I have learned is that Anne and her feminine personality (what my personality when I am dressed should be, and a side of me that is otherwise integral to who I am), has not had the opportunity to grow, mature, and evolve. In a way, she has been under lock and key. It is now so OBVIOUS to me that this I why I needed to join and participate, that I cannot believe I did not recognize it before! When I am here, I am now free to participate and interact as Anne, and to really be Anne, in all of her feminine glory!
For me, I would not trade my masculine side for anything. I love my masculine side. I love my feminine side, too, and would not trade it, either. Back long ago when I was deeply struggling with who and what I am, if someone had offered me a magical pill that would have wiped Anne away, I would have jumped at the chance. Now, after my wife's acceptance long ago, which was instrumental in allowing me to ultimately come to terms with and accept myself, if someone offered me that same pill - I would not take it. I would not even consider it! I love Anne! And after learning more about her these past couple of weeks, I love her more than ever!
So again, I want to thank everyone and the forum for helping to make this revelation possible for me. You girls are all fantastic, and we are all beautiful! Thanks for listening!
Love,
Anne