ChloeMartin
03-23-2011, 11:34 AM
OK, I'm probably overstating just to have a good title. But I don't know what else to call it. Recently I've gone out during the day just to get out as my girl self. I've found that going out in everyday girl clothes and makeup makes me feel uncomfortable and conspicuous. Though I feel I can look good, wearing low heals, jeans or simple dress just doesn't do it for me. Even if I could be assured others accepted me, I don't think its what I like to do.
But if I can go out to a club or similar venue in 3-3.5 inch heels, more glamorous makeup, a dress that screams instead of whispers... well that's fun. And the comments and reaction I get from a trans-friendly atmosphere is equally satasifying. To be called honey or sweetie, have someone open a door for me, etc. It brings out a different side of my personality - I feel confident, extremely social, fun. I can have fun talking to new people and feel much differently than I do in a similar venue as a boy.
All of this time, I've assumed that wanting to go out is about acceptance. And I think it still is. But perhaps I need to fine tune that idea/goal. I don't really care to be seen as a real or everyday woman. I like the glamour and the attention that an attractive, fashionable and even brash woman gets.
Anyone else feel this way about dressing?
I know a lot of Drag Queens dress only for entertainment and for the nightlife. Rather than wanting to be a girl all the time. I believe they also don't care to dress "normal" or to pass.
So Am I a Drag Queen (Junior Grade - I don't own any rhinestones and have never lip synced.) :)
But if I can go out to a club or similar venue in 3-3.5 inch heels, more glamorous makeup, a dress that screams instead of whispers... well that's fun. And the comments and reaction I get from a trans-friendly atmosphere is equally satasifying. To be called honey or sweetie, have someone open a door for me, etc. It brings out a different side of my personality - I feel confident, extremely social, fun. I can have fun talking to new people and feel much differently than I do in a similar venue as a boy.
All of this time, I've assumed that wanting to go out is about acceptance. And I think it still is. But perhaps I need to fine tune that idea/goal. I don't really care to be seen as a real or everyday woman. I like the glamour and the attention that an attractive, fashionable and even brash woman gets.
Anyone else feel this way about dressing?
I know a lot of Drag Queens dress only for entertainment and for the nightlife. Rather than wanting to be a girl all the time. I believe they also don't care to dress "normal" or to pass.
So Am I a Drag Queen (Junior Grade - I don't own any rhinestones and have never lip synced.) :)