Teri Jean
03-26-2011, 03:26 PM
We all want to "pass" or blend into the fabric of society and when one is 6'-4" as I am there is that realization the best we are going to hope for is acceptance. That was until yesterday and this morning. Yesterday I had the afternoon off and decided to have the car serviced before a 200 mile drive for a spring clothing showing at a friend's home.
As I dropped off the car I ran into a gf who was leaving for lunch and she invited me to go along. Over pasta we got caught up as we don't see each other as often as we would like. During luch she drops the announcement, "Teri you really do look great". Now I said thank you but also said she looks quite attractive also. We do at time get the polite recognition and although we like to hear that there is a sense of realization they were just being polite.
Then later in the day, a hundred miles away I'm at another friend's home and about ten women I have never met has come together for a showing of spring fashions. I had over dressed as part of my stay there was to have some head shots for business cards so I was in a full length navy blue velour sheath dress and heels. Then I realize this isn't just a peek but a sale which requires trying on different items. During this time of different levels of undress and handing off to others there was not an effort to be bashful or discrete by some.
The next day I am answering e-mails and got a call from the hostess asking me about one of the ladies there and why I seemed shocked when she introduced her to me. I had said she reminded me of a girl I knew 45 yrs ago and she caught me off guard. Then Rachael said there was another lady there that asked her who the tall striking woman was that had been there. Now I was the only tall lady there as I stood about 6 inches above the rest. Now this made me feel so great and my eyes filled up as this lady she was talking about was quite striking herself.
We all want to blend in or be accepted and these two moments really drove home the fact we can be our worst critics. Accept yourself and relax, the rest of the world probably don't even realize we have lived another life in another gender.
As I dropped off the car I ran into a gf who was leaving for lunch and she invited me to go along. Over pasta we got caught up as we don't see each other as often as we would like. During luch she drops the announcement, "Teri you really do look great". Now I said thank you but also said she looks quite attractive also. We do at time get the polite recognition and although we like to hear that there is a sense of realization they were just being polite.
Then later in the day, a hundred miles away I'm at another friend's home and about ten women I have never met has come together for a showing of spring fashions. I had over dressed as part of my stay there was to have some head shots for business cards so I was in a full length navy blue velour sheath dress and heels. Then I realize this isn't just a peek but a sale which requires trying on different items. During this time of different levels of undress and handing off to others there was not an effort to be bashful or discrete by some.
The next day I am answering e-mails and got a call from the hostess asking me about one of the ladies there and why I seemed shocked when she introduced her to me. I had said she reminded me of a girl I knew 45 yrs ago and she caught me off guard. Then Rachael said there was another lady there that asked her who the tall striking woman was that had been there. Now I was the only tall lady there as I stood about 6 inches above the rest. Now this made me feel so great and my eyes filled up as this lady she was talking about was quite striking herself.
We all want to blend in or be accepted and these two moments really drove home the fact we can be our worst critics. Accept yourself and relax, the rest of the world probably don't even realize we have lived another life in another gender.