patti1569
04-12-2011, 08:08 AM
This post is kindda like a stream of conscious brain dump of how I am feeling, and I really needed to just put it out there! Thanks for letting me ramble a bit.
I’ve been really trying to move further with my dressing to be able to gain the confidence to go out someday soon. I really thought that I would have by this point, but have run into many roadblocks and obstacles mostly unrelated to dressing or my desire to go out. I’m hoping that I’m beyond those now and can move on. So a few of the things that I have been doing that have made me so happy and feeling more and more like my true self are that I shave my legs now and my toes have been painted continuously for many months. I just love how this makes me feel, and interestingly, I love the look of it but that is not my primary goal anymore. It’s more about how it makes me feel, more feminine, happier about myself. I stopped biting my nails now too, and they are just a little bit longer that a man would normally keep them. I love them this way and am lucky that I have great nails! They will look great painted when I do go out.
An interesting thing happened last night. My wife and I were discussing me shaving my legs all of the time now, even in the summer. She said that she was 100% fine with it and was giving me tips on shaving and maintaining a nice smooth legs. It makes me feel so great when we can discuss anything related to dressing. She had bought me a few pairs of the cutest panties last week and I had yet to try them on. So when we were going to bed I asked if she would mind if I wore a pair to sleep in. This is something that I have never done before. She responded as if it was a silly request and basically said why would I care if you wear them to bed. So I did, and I dreamt about being dressed all night long! Not the usually panicky dreams of getting caught, but great dreams about being out and feeling amazing and confident walking around in my heels and cute dresses!
There have been so many little events like this lately that I’m really feeling so amazing. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring in my journey! Thanks to you all for letting me express a few things here that I have no other place to express. This site is one of those great things that I have discovered and it helps me in many ways!
XX Patti
I’ve been really trying to move further with my dressing to be able to gain the confidence to go out someday soon. I really thought that I would have by this point, but have run into many roadblocks and obstacles mostly unrelated to dressing or my desire to go out. I’m hoping that I’m beyond those now and can move on. So a few of the things that I have been doing that have made me so happy and feeling more and more like my true self are that I shave my legs now and my toes have been painted continuously for many months. I just love how this makes me feel, and interestingly, I love the look of it but that is not my primary goal anymore. It’s more about how it makes me feel, more feminine, happier about myself. I stopped biting my nails now too, and they are just a little bit longer that a man would normally keep them. I love them this way and am lucky that I have great nails! They will look great painted when I do go out.
An interesting thing happened last night. My wife and I were discussing me shaving my legs all of the time now, even in the summer. She said that she was 100% fine with it and was giving me tips on shaving and maintaining a nice smooth legs. It makes me feel so great when we can discuss anything related to dressing. She had bought me a few pairs of the cutest panties last week and I had yet to try them on. So when we were going to bed I asked if she would mind if I wore a pair to sleep in. This is something that I have never done before. She responded as if it was a silly request and basically said why would I care if you wear them to bed. So I did, and I dreamt about being dressed all night long! Not the usually panicky dreams of getting caught, but great dreams about being out and feeling amazing and confident walking around in my heels and cute dresses!
There have been so many little events like this lately that I’m really feeling so amazing. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring in my journey! Thanks to you all for letting me express a few things here that I have no other place to express. This site is one of those great things that I have discovered and it helps me in many ways!
XX Patti