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BreenaDion
04-24-2011, 09:50 PM
Yes , a real cowboy, white hat , black boots with spurs removed, and listening to country music. Like OMG my very best day being a transwoman so far. Just when you thought you knew me LOL, I just dont tell the good things but this is so much better I cant hide it.

Today Easter Sunday had the day off from every thing so its me time to ride the cape cod canal access road and get some exercise with the bike. I park in the lot at the half way point of this 7 mile road. This gives my options in distance and the lot is about 800 ft long. I arrived at 9 am and I saw what my son and I call pretty legs, in his black pick up truck. I got the bike out and it was foggy as hell so I kept my jacket on. Granted I am extremely modest and unsure of the transition stage of 16 month period on how these hormones are working.

I preceded to cycle along and almost 1 mile in I saw pretty legs behind me. No big deal an continued untile I heard him with the music an passed me, what I like to do at this point is use people who pass me for a pace person. Got to the end where the railroad bridge is and turned around. I laid back a bit cause pace was to much to early and when I turned it is now a tailwind and put in high gear an cranked it. He was about 600 ft ahead of me at this time and I couldnt believe it was him , being so foggy hes no that far ahead. I caught up to him an start to follow he looked an stayed in the middle.

Just about half way point I made my move and passed him, hes to slow. About mile later we tied up and he started to talk to me. OMG my voice totally stinks as a woman, havent had the $$$ for many lessons, so I talk in low sweet voice I could. We talked untile got the other end at the Atlantic ocean and turned around. Being a woman I did most of the chat , he was being a true gentleman and listening and they way we was riding together. Just as we hit the half way point he saw a friend and said being polite said goodbye and off to his friend.

I caught up to my SO as she does a little riding, mainly is us time but also exercise. I told her about what happened an she was so happy for me. I dont make many friends being Trans and all. Mainly the bad time I had last year. We continued and met at Duncan Donuts for lunch. We get along alot better after my awakening, she says Im alot nicer person to be around since that happened.

She had enough at 20 miles and whent home to make diner and I kept on petaling.
Well if not out of the blue comes this guy again. I finally introduced myself and his name is David, OMG i said to myself thats my middle name. We talked a little but he was getting closer like a bike snug. I felt it , he was riding close as I mostly ride bent over like the pro's but I got a hybred bike. I got these tingles and was getting horney sendsations. I got to be careful hear this guy is showing hes interested. Complementing on my cycle progress an weight loss.

Hey lets be real I was a man just over 2 years ago. Put it this way, My transsexuality switch got turned off for 50 yrs an 2 yrs ago it got turned back on. Before I would consider this a gay response which I never had in my life. I dont have any working female parts so this totally stinks. I really feal for the TS girls now that havent had SRS, this sucks.
I kinda didnt take his signals and was being as polite as I knew how.

This guy is a lady's man and very friendly, waving to all the woman and he is very popular here. He even plays the guitar. He is like Casanova and I saw he has alot of guy friends. I gots to be really careful. I have only made one friend here but its just to be exercise friends Beverly, my age an she knows Im trans and is very cool about it. I dont know how David is gonna react if he ever talks to Bev. I let that one out I hope he doesnt flip over this but its gonna mess with his ego big time. He even complimented on my looks, somewhat.

I mentioned that I took 2 pain pills and Im good to finish up at 91 miles and he said he would help me. We whent back to our trucks and OMG he parked right next to my van. This parking lot is about 1/4 full. He had to see another friend an would hope I wait , if not he would catch up with me. I called my SO and told her whats going and she was so happy for me. Mostly maken a friend but I cant do any thing he might have on his mind. I drank and refilled a jug and streached an road passed him an continued on.

We met again at5 the railroad bridge an talked a little bit it was obivous I was in serious pain but I got it together an road on, He is totally amazed at how far and fast I ride being a Lady in all. He just didnt look under the umbrellar or does he already know. I know bev an bill know, how many they have talked to who knows but I really dont care about that any more I moved on. We got to the other end, 7 miles down an saw a previous friend an said he would catch up. I struggled to reach the other end but couldnt I ran out of guts an energy an felt nauseous so I turned around and headed for the van, All said an down I did 91 miles my knew high.

AS I left him I kinda figured that he got my signals that it wasnjt going any where, im good with that , must of been the end for him but I had the best time Ever as Transwoman!!!!

Told my SO , son an daughter and they was thrilled for me. My wife is cool an wants me to make friends. We are married and for now its gonna stay that way. She prays that I can get my SRS some day so I can fullfil me life and become a woman! I love you moe.

Breena.

7sisters
04-25-2011, 07:02 AM
A real cowboy. Ok that is amazing. I only see them in old hollywood movies. Glad you are making friends. Cowboys symbolize the best of USA- freedom, initiative, hard work.
My dream is to be on a real ranch with my family especially my dad who has watched EVERY cowboy movie from hollywood.
It's good to see you extra happy Breena!!

Chickhe
04-25-2011, 10:21 AM
It may have been the guy from 'Mam Tracker'.

danielleb
04-25-2011, 03:56 PM
What a wonderfully roamntic story.:)

The part that gets me is he'd out riding in black boots and a white hat.:heehee: (though cowboy boots are actually pretty good shoes to cycle in.:D)

BreenaDion
04-25-2011, 04:34 PM
He said that he loves to cycle with bear feet so he asked if it was ok to change and I was cool with it . He wanted to show his buddy his guitar and asked me to wait. I did for a while but I was time restaint to get the miles in and next day I did 65 miles. That 91 then 65 but I need back to back 100 mile days if I am going to do Pan Mass Challenge.
We was riding and I saw his feet, they are pretty and nice looking for a guy that is, why my son and I called him pretty legs. LOL better than mine, I walked to much in Febuary cuz I wanted to exercise and I walked out of 4 toe nails. Yup new ones grew underneath and the old ones fell off. My feet specially my toes are super ugly and in need of a pedicure real bad.

I saw David again this afternoon as we passed in oposite directions and I waved. He pointed like he always does. Then I guess he left, my wife was a couple miles behind me an said he stoped to talk to people. I am not jealous Hell I can except that one day, so special to me brings me joy and happy tears. Yes I drove to the lot this morning and sat in the van and reflected on that one day. I had these big crocidile tears and my brain let it rip. I cried and cried cuz for the first time I can remember of happiness. Been so long I cant remember. My new life and tears of joy. I still cant cry for bad thoughts I fixed that but good.
So I am happy even if it was a time to help some one get there goal or challenge. He said he did 125 miles and it makes for a very long day. I will always wave and I dont expect any thing from this. Just a memory that I will always cherish and keep. I have very limited amount of those .
Breena.

Sejd
04-25-2011, 08:04 PM
I don't know, but your story sounds a bit like a teenager telling her OMG story. I am trying to figure how I would react if my wife was a trans man and was flirting with a cowgirl!!!!!!! but hey, everyone is different :0)

BreenaDion
04-25-2011, 08:22 PM
Excatly, dont even try an figure me out, you'll get so confused but ur on the right track. 2 years ago after the awakening I started out as an 8 year old girls mentality. Yup 8 yrs old, my Psychologist was well aware of this. It took months to become a late stage teenager. Mainly where I am today for some things, others just young adult. When you rule in transgendered I am no way a 56 yr old woman, an hell dont even care if I ever reach that stage. Best not to fugure me out, thats for the Pro's if I need help. Im not afraird to ask if I have a problem.
I try an tell situation as simple as I can because you never know who is reading this so best to keep it simple and less confusion for every one. Get to much into intelligence, you lose an audience.
My wife of 23 yrs is going throught the greif stages because she lost her husband 2 yrs ago. I said to her not to long ago, I am not dead I am still here, made her pain feal some what better but she has to adjust to a new spouce and a new life as well.
I love You Moe.
Breena.

ReineD
04-25-2011, 08:50 PM
I'm so happy you are making friends and are finally finding acceptance for who you are. :)

But, are you also saying that if you had had SRS already, you might be interested in David romantically?


We talked a little but he was getting closer like a bike snug. I felt it , he was riding close as I mostly ride bent over like the pro's but I got a hybred bike. I got these tingles and was getting horney sendsations. I got to be careful hear this guy is showing hes interested. Complementing on my cycle progress an weight loss.

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I dont have any working female parts so this totally stinks. I really feal for the TS girls now that havent had SRS, this sucks.Would this be OK with your wife, or is she just OK with you making friends platonically with David?

My apologies if my question is too personal. But I do wonder sometimes about the future of marriages (with a supportive wife) after the TS partner transitions.

Maybe it's different for everyone.

Persephone
04-25-2011, 09:06 PM
Hi Breena!

I've been following this thread since you began. I think this is all very exciting, so long as your wife is comfortable with it.

I just couldn't resist the following picture comment.

Hugs,
Persephone.


He said that he loves to cycle with bear feet

http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y53/sandylewiscares/bear-feet.jpg

BreenaDion
04-25-2011, 10:10 PM
LOL thats funny Persephone.
To Reine That will be dealt with in the future if I have SRS. We talked about this in depth and I did keep my word in the beginning, meaning when Maureen and I first met an I proposed to her 10 days after we met. She wanted a house an 2 kids, I was fine with that.. All I wanted to have out of this relationship was to be HAPPY.. Nothing more nothing less whatever she wanted was fine I just want to be happy.
So many yrs of depression and then a life changing,mind alering Awakening and now this.

At first she said she wasnt a leasbion but would settle just living as friends. As the difficult months carried on for me she stuck by me and noticed I was no quiter but this did ruin that other part of me. Then it transposed into me becoming a woman and completing my journey with a man. I offered to have a three some an she didnt reject that idea but wasnt upfront willing either. After all she did lose a husband in that way but I help her out much I can. We are a commited couple that will stay together and I honor the vows of marriage and in all my adult life have never cheated but this Awakening puts that all in vortex that I cant attest to.

Would it be cheating if I laid down for David as I would have if I had SRS. That situation in some reguards would be fine with Maureen. Under these sircumstances I feal free to untertake an act but I cant in my conscience ever commite to a relationship. Twisted as I was married under the true concept of being a male, but that is no longer the case. In some respect I intellectually find my vows null and void. My wife understands my position an we are open on this subject but by no means have closed any doors. I am not going to persue David or any Man or Woman for that matter.
This delemma does pose alot of communication between us, and have evolved into a relationship that has the tendency to become adulterous on my part.
This means that the marriage might become just a friendship like two women? possibily as we still are emerging into different venues.
Breena.

cara
04-25-2011, 11:36 PM
A 125 miles of bicycling riding in black cowboy boots/barefoot in one day? 91 miles on a 7 mile road, what's that 13 round trips?
Cara

ReineD
04-26-2011, 01:33 AM
Thanks for you very candid response, Breena. I hope you will each find your paths to future happiness. :hugs:

BreenaDion
04-26-2011, 07:50 AM
Thanks Reine.

To Cara: The Cape Cod Canal Access Road on the north side is 7 miles long, 14 in a round trip. That is short in comparison to others on the cape and at State Parks. What makes this place unique in a sense is its location , scenery, atmosphere. This canal often has tug boats pull or push big barges through it , also many different kinds of boats pass , same as the Mayflower was under tow a few yrs ago, also I believe the USS Consitition. Scenary, which to some is very beauiful at any time of the yr. Also the wildlife, mainly birds an fish. Just last Thursday I saw my very first live seal, about 5 ft , I then called tim, my son who was at home enjoying his school vaction, Guess what you missed! LOL.

This is a very flat road to cycle for beginners, roller blades, joggers and walkers. I havent seen much for skate boarders but the people here are mostly kind and very friendly. Being on a cycle you must watch out for mindless pedestrians LOL. It is also state property so what my last support group told me still is protected under the new hate crimes bill against trangendered. I am no means looking to get myself killed but at least there are funds to prosecute in that event.

Last yr was a total mess for me psychologically and since mid dec. I have turned that ugly corner , as I journey on I am finding more woman smilling at me as I pass by and even men give me a polite head nod. I am still a beginner at cycling but im making stides that amaze people. We are planning trips to other bike pathways as my spouce loves to travel an would be a great family time to see our country or at least our own back yard.

I bought a 500$ hybred bike a yr ago an wore out one set of tires already, as we speak I striped down my bike to have it painted to look more like a womans color not a mans, as it is a mans bike. This bike fits me but I am also haven the sprockets change to increase the top end speed, like a 35 gear bike but missing the first 2 low range gears. This mean I will have greater top end speed but lose some trail riding abilities. My challenge is the Pan Mass next yr so im making changes. I should reach speeds of 30+ mph with larger sprockets, hopefully and make the distance I need alot faster to achieve.
Breena.

Sejd
04-26-2011, 03:57 PM
WOW, sounds from your honest response that you are 56 and you have only known your wife for two years? She's had quite a loss already. How is she dealing with the man she thought she found is now a woman? Sounds like a double punch to me. However, from your story it sounds like it's all peachy so I'm happy for you. Reading your first post it does sound like you had the hots for that cowboy dude and that raises some flags of danger I would say, at least for your wife.
Stay in touch :0)
Sejd

BreenaDion
04-26-2011, 04:58 PM
LOL no Sejd I am married 23 years to my now snd wife. I told her 1 week after I proposed to her I that I am a CD. If you have followed my posts last couple yrs LOL like who would btw you would have come to know me. As I have stated in many forums I was a Man just over 2 yrs ago. My gender specialist as some call her knows this. 2 yrs ago I had a True Life, mind altering Awakening. Not an awareness, I am by any means NOT a late stage onset TS as some call it. NOPE im the real deal but I was trangendered that I cant ever deny.
2 yrs ago I for all tense an purpose became BREENA. I had another chosen name but it was after my sister and that was a mistake.
Breena.