hot and bothered

[Aprilrain]

OMG i don't know wether i'm coming or going! Lately. I have been not only horny (thats not really all that unusual) but BOY CRAZY. I totally get the phrase "hot and bothered" now, that describes it pretty well. I might add distracted to the list. lol.
And to think I was worried that hormones would make me asexual!
The weird part is I really don't have any drive to masturbate, especially since i have started talking to some guys on line. Now I just want their attention. I keep playing out all of these cheesy romantic scenarios in my head. It's really PATHETIC!!!! but I cant help it. Is this what 13 year old girls feel like?
Before when I had testosterone floating around my brain I would have just masturbated and gotten it over with, of course I would have had a whole host of regrets, remorse, shame, self hatred etc. after the act but I would found something to distract my self with and been fine for a little while anyway. The good news is thats all gone and has been replaced by a come and go all day long electricy, buzzy sort of feeling that rolls around my body, its especially pleasing when it is in the area where, if I had one, my uterus would be.
I just keep thinking about all the girls I know who say their libido is gone or seriously diminished and wonder if there is something wrong with me. I wouldn't want to give this up but it just really surprises me. perhaps what I'm feeling isn't libido at all but something entirely different something distinctly female. I know I did not have access to this before I started hormones.
Anyone else felt/feel this way?

[Melody Moore]

April

Yes I have felt something like that here late November early December last year when I met a couple
of really nice guys when I was in hospital who were really nice to me & made me feel very special by
how they treated & respected me. For days I couldn't get them out of my head & I remember feeling
very different, not what I would have described what would have been a sexual way, but at the same
time I think I could have easily become playful & affectionate with these 2 guys from the way they
made me feel. I felt passionate, but at the same time I was unsettled in my emotions after they were
stirred up. I felt the need to try & ground myself because I was a little concerned that I might end up
doing or saying something I might regret.

But the interesting thing for me was the fact that up until this point, I was pretty much convinced that
I would never feel like being with a guy because I only have really been with girls apart from being raped
& sexually abused. But these two guys were different & there was some type of chemistry there that made
me realise that you can really feel a very powerful attraction to someone you are not even really thinking
sexually about, but the feeling is so nice that it makes you feel like you just want to give them everything.
I too had a few of those crazy romance scenarios running through my head with these two guys, so I think
this might be a similar thing we both experienced. I think they refer to this as getting the 'hots' or much like
being on heat. LOL

[arbon]

Anyone else felt/feel this way?

Not nearly as much as you describe ---- hmm unless I am thinking of Brian Molko of Placebo. For some reason he really turns me on :daydreaming: . Which is weird in a way because he is such a feminine guy. Very androgynous. But he does get that warm and fuzzy feeling stirring in me.

Before I could be attracted to women or men but now the attraction is much more towards men. I have come to realize I am definitely not a lesbian. :straightface:

Last month I did have a guy flirt with me. My wife and a friend were quick to intervene. Ran into the guy again and he flirted with me again. wow. Though I am not really attracted to him I loved the feeling. But about drove myself crazy trying to figure out if he was seeing me as a trans woman or just woman.

[Bree-asaurus]

Ohhh yes.... I totally know what you're talking about. I am so glad the days of "ugg... I'm horny... must fix... all done... damnit it's back!!!" are OVER! For the first couple months on hormones my sex drive disappeared, which I was totally cool with.

After a while my sex drive came back, but it was different from before. It was no longer a "omg I need to get off" feeling, but more of a "I want a man to hold me and touch me" feeling. Being turned on was no longer localized to a particular physical region, but became far more of a mental process that became a lot harder to satisfy, especially when I was single.

I think it's just the difference between how men and women get turned on. Now when I'm with my boyfriend and I get all hot and bothered, he can totally satisfy me and it just feels right.

I used to just jerk off or watch porn to get off prior to HRT. Even when I was with someone, it never felt right. I rarely watch porn anymore and when I am turned on... I'm just dying for my BF to come home from work so I can have HIM... not an orgasm.

[Sophora]

Not nearly as much as you describe ---- hmm unless I am thinking of Brian Molko of Placebo. For some reason he really turns me on :daydreaming: . Which is weird in a way because he is such a feminine guy. Very androgynous. But he does get that warm and fuzzy feeling stirring in me.


I feel the same way about Ewan McGregor. He turns on and I get the warm fuzzy feeling stirring inside of me as well. ok him and Johnny Depp does it for me. I just melt when I see either of them without a top on(or even with a top on).

Now this is very interesting because I have just started to look at guys and have been get the warm fuzzy feeling. I do believe when these times I will be driving and see one of the cute college boys and crash. *sigh*

[Aprilrain]

Ohhh yes.... I totally know what you're talking about. I am so glad the days of "ugg... I'm horny... must fix... all done... damnit it's back!!!" are OVER! For the first couple months on hormones my sex drive disappeared, which I was totally cool with.

After a while my sex drive came back, but it was different from before. It was no longer a "omg I need to get off" feeling, but more of a "I want a man to hold me and touch me" feeling. Being turned on was no longer localized to a particular physical region, but became far more of a mental process that became a lot harder to satisfy, especially when I was single.

I think it's just the difference between how men and women get turned on. Now when I'm with my boyfriend and I get all hot and bothered, he can totally satisfy me and it just feels right.

I used to just jerk off or watch porn to get off prior to HRT. Even when I was with someone, it never felt right. I rarely watch porn anymore and when I am turned on... I'm just dying for my BF to come home from work so I can have HIM... not an orgasm.

OMG YES!!!!! this is exactly how i feel!!

[CharleneT]

Yuppers ... didn't lose libido, it just changed a lot ;-)

[Kittykitty]

Now I long for intimacy. Candle light, cuddling and time together.

[Maryanne_sa]

I find this thread very interesting. I never really had much of a sex drive at all, so was not in the least concerned at the thought of losing it when I starting hormones. My sexual oriention has always been to woman though. I have been on a half dose of estogen for three months now, and just had all the blood tests etc done to check whether there were any negative effects from the hormones. Everthing was absolutely fine, so now I have today started on a full dose. Yeah!!!

I can't wait to see what happens to my libido & orientation going forward, if anything at all. All I can say for now is that I get ridiculously pleased when a man stands back to let me get on the bus first, or walk through a door.
On one occassion when I man looked at me and said 'Mmmmm, very nice', I had a stupid smile on my face all day. It made me feel really good.

I am glad that those of you are feeling this new type of libido, are enjoying it so.