An affirmation in the park

[Sophora]

I decided to spend most of today(after I was done at work that is)in the park. I got dressed in all female clothes and my had my flip-flops on. I took my Ipod and my book with me and brought along some soda.

I sat in a bench near the water(A River). I read my book and listened to my Ipod. I took a break from reading and just stared out at the water(It is one of my favorite things to do). As I sat there in full make-up and with female clothes, I pondered the last couple months.

I felt so at peace with the whole thing. I have done this so many times wearing guys clothes and would leave after a few minutes as I had been so uncomfortable, however sitting there as a female I felt so calm and could have stayed there forever(as it felt so natural being there as a female). I then got hungry and had to go to the bathroom so I walked back home.

This to me is affirmation that I am following the correct path. All of my fears and worries and missteps, They seem so small and trivial, but at the same time that I have to go through this fire.

I am blown away by this. I never thought that I would be at ease with anything in my life. While I know that I shouldn't think this however it makes me wish I would have done this earlier.

I just wanted to share this with everyone.

[arbon]

Thank you for sharing it :-)

[Persephone]

What an awesome way to spend the day! Great!

Hugs,
Persephone.

[Eileen]

Good story Sophora! Most things are just more enjoyable when we do them being the person we truly are!

Eileen

[Longing2be-Trisha]

Sounds like you had an awesome time in the park!

Hugs

[Sophora]

Sounds like you had an awesome time in the park!

Hugs

I had an awesome time at the park. I am already planning to do it again. Hopefully in a skirt next time. The coolest part was when a father and 2 daughters came up to me and asked me for directions. I answered him and nothing was said about what I was wearing or anything.

For me, It is all of the little things(stuff I never would have paid attention to) that is making me happy. I can't wait for my work shoes(women's hehe) come in(I ordered them through the company). I will be wearing 100% female clothing at work as well(the shirts we have to wear is unisex).



Good story Sophora! Most things are just more enjoyable when we do them being the person we truly are!

Eileen

This is so very true. I never would have thought that either if I hadn't experienced that today.

[Kaitlyn Michele]

i'm glad you enjoyed your day! sounds like it was wonderful

[Beth-Lock]

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I felt so at peace with the whole thing. I have done this so many times wearing guys clothes and would leave after a few minutes as I had been so uncomfortable, however sitting there as a female I felt so calm and could have stayed there forever(as it felt so natural being there as a female). ....

This to me is affirmation that I am following the correct path. All of my fears and worries and missteps, They seem so small and trivial, but at the same time that I have to go through this fire.

I am blown away by this. I never thought that I would be at ease with anything in my life. While I know that I shouldn't think this however it makes me wish I would have done this earlier.

It is such a sweet time when you get these little intimations that you are more comfortable as a woman. Good for you and for being sensiive enough to feel that good feeling.

[AnnaCalliope]

For me, It is all of the little things(stuff I never would have paid attention to) that is making me happy. I can't wait for my work shoes(women's hehe) come in(I ordered them through the company). I will be wearing 100% female clothing at work as well(the shirts we have to wear is unisex).

I started doing this about 6 months ago, when I finally came to the realization that living a double life was going to be the end of me, and decided to get on the path to transition, and becoming Anna full-time.

It still bugs me that I was born with this body that doesn't fit, but now that I don't have to match it with a male wardrobe, life has become much easier to deal with.

[Sophora]

I started doing this about 6 months ago, when I finally came to the realization that living a double life was going to be the end of me, and decided to get on the path to transition, and becoming Anna full-time.

It still bugs me that I was born with this body that doesn't fit, but now that I don't have to match it with a male wardrobe, life has become much easier to deal with.

Exactly how I feel. I wish I had the money to start therapy(especially HRT). Right now, I am matching my clothes with my female side, an finding out that the stuff that I obsessed over and even would have me stressing out(ie not having employers call me back) is really not effecting me anymore. I am much more happier.

[Melody Moore]

It is really great news that you had such a lovely time reflecting on your decisions & where you are now at in
life after overcoming the issues you had about working & your employer. However this is just the first of many
affirmations you will make between now and if & when you take your final affirmation steps with SRS/GRS.

The day I went through my wardrobe & threw out all my male clothing was another step of affirmation for me,
and so to was the day I started hormones & the day got my Gender Identity Certificate was the same day got
my new birth certificate & also changed all my legal ID, including my drivers licence to show my new identity &
gender markers. This was one of the most significant days for me because there was an affirmation for each of
my ID documents. At the end of the day I celebrated it by burning my former ID & documentation to say goodbye
to that old part of me. It was tearful & emotional experience, but I had to do it. I felt extremely happy & really
empowered in my decision to transition & it was a nice way to end a wonderful day of multiple affirmations.

And what a huge weight off the shoulders it is not having to carry a man
around in my purse anymore. So life just keeps on getting better & better.
So I hope that you have some more wonderful experiences like this soon. :hugs:

[Stephanie Clarke]

That sounds like an absolutely wonderfull day. I am so happy for you. I hope that you have many more days like that..
Hugs Stephanie