Finding my type of CD

[CarolineWolf]

Hi everyone,

I just joined this wonderful forum, see my introduction thread here (http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?155394-Hello-I-m-Caroline!)

As I write in my introduction, I feel that I somehow need to bring my CDing to my wife. Before that, however, I need to determine for myself what CDing really means to me. I have read a lot of stories in this forum, and while I share some experiences and feelings, I also feel that maybe I have not so much of a need to go full force into it.

Here is how I feel about my CDing:
- Most important for me is the feeling of the fabrics and materials of female clothing. I just love bodyhugging stretchy materials like pantyhoses, narrow skirts and the like, but also bodyhugging tops. Materials like satin also feel great on the skin.
- High heels is also something that I have a couple of, both pumps and boots. While they look good on pictures to complete and outfit, they feel truly uncomfortable and I rather walk around in the house in my pantyhose.
- Wig and makeup: I have tried wigs and makeup when visiting a makeover salon, see pictures, and I also have a couple of wigs. I have not yet bought any makeup, and I must say that I have no interest in it either. Makeup has been good for pictures, but is does not give me any heigtened FEELING
- Bodyshaping: I have a corset for waist reduction. Again, while it improves curves in photos, it feel rather uncortable and does not give the same positive feeling as regular clothing does

Whenever I dress up, I feel like my male self, and do the same kind of stuff. I do not feel that I change into a feminine side of myself, like many of you describe (I think).

When visiting the local makeover salon last Friday for the second makeover in my life, I was asked what my female name was. It has never crossed my thoght to make up a name, so I quickly decided for Caroline there and then. If nothing else, it make it easier to create online profiles :)

I feel no desire to do stuff outside of my home, like shopping and meeting other people.

In all, I just love the feeling of dressing in female clothes in my home, but without wearing makeup or a wig, and without a desire to go out or meet others.

Does the above make any sense to you on this community? Are there different "degrees" to crossdressing? If so, might I be likely to remain at a low degree, or is this something that might "progress" over the years. I'd like to know both for myself, but even more importantly, before I speak to my wife.

Thanks in advance for perspectives on my situation :)

Below are two pictures to explain the difference. To the left is my picture with "everything", bodyshaping (corset, gaff), high heels, wig, makeup, long nails. To the right is the "comfort fit" that I feel truly most comfortable with - bidyhugging clothing, no bodyshaping, no heels, no nails, no wig and no makeup.

[dianne_1234]

Yes! I feel the same way.
Stretch satin, tight, feminine clothes -- yes!
Wig, makeup, bodyshaping -- sure, okay, nice (rarely) but not all that important
for me.

Over the years (30 or so now?) this hasn't changed much for me.

[Pythos]

The only reason I really got into full on cding was because if I ever felt that I just could not wear that which I love to wear in male or androgynous mode due to some terrible law being passed. Crazy I know.

I have loved the same clothes identified above and regularly am seen in spandex leggings (the shiny kind, very rarely the dull cotton kind). I love skirts and some gowns as well.

I do like the feel of heels too, but could do without them.

Now, when I see myself in full on fem mode, I don't think I look all that bad, but know darned well I don't pass. I went to a new cd friend's house last night all decked out in a non pig tailed version of my abby like get up, just with a pleated skirt instead of my tight spandex one. I liked how I looked and all, but honestly could have done just fine as my male or androgynous look if it was not for the double standard about what men can wear. But it was fun though.

I know exactly as the OP is saying, but I will say to them, to go out in stuff you like to wear, opposed to staying at home is a very fun experience if you don't encounter dummies.

[sissystephanie]

When my wife was still alive I often would go out totally dressed, including wig and makeup, as Stephanie. Some times by myself and often with my wife. She totally supported my love of crossdressing, and always did my makeup and fixed my wig! I was hopeless at both of those things! So when she died what was I to do! I love most of the same things asbout crossdressing that are in the OP. So that is what I do! I dress entirely as Stephanie, but go out looking like the man that I am!! Been doing it for 6 years and haven't had a negative comment yet!!

BTW, I have several skirts that short!

[Cynthia Anne]

Men in skirts! Not me! I must at least try to look like a female!

[CarolineWolf]

Thanks for commenting, keep doing that :)

I guess that bmy key question is whether my urges are likely to remain at this moderate level, or if they are likely to progress over time to include wig and makeup etc.

[Vickie_CDTV]

Thanks for commenting, keep doing that :)
I guess that bmy key question is whether my urges are likely to remain at this moderate level, or if they are likely to progress over time to include wig and makeup etc.

Not necessarily. While there is some groupthink in the TG community that if one dresses to any extent they will inevitably progress until they go FT or go on HRT or such, that really is not necessarily the case. You may just like wearing some items, and may just stick with those, and that is fine. The nice thing is that you don't have to do anything you do not want to do, and if you are happy as it is that is fine; if at some point you want to try dressing more fully you can do that as well and that is also fine.

You mention you do not like wearing a corset but enjoy wearing tight, form fitting clothing. You might want to try a girdle and/or longline bra as an alternative to a corset; they are fairly tight all over and won't reduce your waist like a corset but it will smooth your body nicely and is not restrictive like a corset. (Personally, I like corsets and girdles, I like the feel of them, but everyone is different.)