Iskandra
06-19-2011, 07:17 AM
The past few days I have had the chance to think a lot about crossdressing, my limits, my SO's limits and acceptance, things said by her and others..
It's kind of funny how the catalyst to these thoughts is simply a pair of shaved legs.. :heehee:
First off, I like wearing the things that make me a crossdresser, I love the feel of stockings, lace and weaing high heels.. (wanna go back to check out those boots babe! can't stop thinking bout em.. :o )
But shaving my legs and someones post talking about the difference between womanhood and femininity put my mind on a path of no return!
Do I want womanhood, heck no!! SS has that covered in all her glory, I can not and desire not to compete with that!! One woman in our relationship is all I wish for!!
Do I want femininity, well to a degree, yes to the clothes, yes to the serenity that embraces me when dressed, you call it happy babe, but it's more than that, it is someone seeing the real me, no matter how I'm dressed or how much I cry during a movie... And still loving me regardless.. It's as happy a place as one can find on earth, and you my wonderful sweetness helps build that place!
As for femininity, I will never equal you in that.. Yes I know the other night you said you are uncomfortable because you almost felt like the man in the relationship, when I was dressed to the 8's.. (work in progress ok girls, 9 is a fair way away)..
Femininity I'm realising is not about frilly skirts, lace and high heels, or make up or wearing daggy hoodies..
It's definately a case of less is more.. It's a case of how you wear it, not what you wear..
You my love could be wearing a hessian sack, and I would still see you as feminine, The little things, your nails I envy, your natural long hair, the way you move and react.. The need to be held an feel safe in my ams.. (yes I too sometimes need to be held, but there is a subtle difference)
It's not about smooth legs, OMG how they friggen itch! Nor about painted toe nails! Though seeing them as I put my socks on reminds me of you, and your trying to understand!
I am so damn lucky to have you in my life, and this (CD) side of me I can share with you makes me realise it more and more... Ironically It also makes me more aware of my manhood.. I am a man who enjoys wearing nice clothes, womens clothes! The choice of self expression in female clothes is so much greater! Men have blah... or blah... Womens clothes (those I seem to enjoy) are simly moe sensual, but you know I've always been a sensual person..
And babe.. despite the heels and lace, etc, I am and always will be your man! You need me I am so there! woh to anyone that tries to stop me! Should I be in a skirt, well they will have something to not tell their grandkids! (Yes Jimmy a guy dressed as a woman knocked me out cold)
And you will always be more woman than I will ever be or wish to be!! :love:
After all it's in the little things! (the things I failed to appreciate in the past)
Love you always,
It's kind of funny how the catalyst to these thoughts is simply a pair of shaved legs.. :heehee:
First off, I like wearing the things that make me a crossdresser, I love the feel of stockings, lace and weaing high heels.. (wanna go back to check out those boots babe! can't stop thinking bout em.. :o )
But shaving my legs and someones post talking about the difference between womanhood and femininity put my mind on a path of no return!
Do I want womanhood, heck no!! SS has that covered in all her glory, I can not and desire not to compete with that!! One woman in our relationship is all I wish for!!
Do I want femininity, well to a degree, yes to the clothes, yes to the serenity that embraces me when dressed, you call it happy babe, but it's more than that, it is someone seeing the real me, no matter how I'm dressed or how much I cry during a movie... And still loving me regardless.. It's as happy a place as one can find on earth, and you my wonderful sweetness helps build that place!
As for femininity, I will never equal you in that.. Yes I know the other night you said you are uncomfortable because you almost felt like the man in the relationship, when I was dressed to the 8's.. (work in progress ok girls, 9 is a fair way away)..
Femininity I'm realising is not about frilly skirts, lace and high heels, or make up or wearing daggy hoodies..
It's definately a case of less is more.. It's a case of how you wear it, not what you wear..
You my love could be wearing a hessian sack, and I would still see you as feminine, The little things, your nails I envy, your natural long hair, the way you move and react.. The need to be held an feel safe in my ams.. (yes I too sometimes need to be held, but there is a subtle difference)
It's not about smooth legs, OMG how they friggen itch! Nor about painted toe nails! Though seeing them as I put my socks on reminds me of you, and your trying to understand!
I am so damn lucky to have you in my life, and this (CD) side of me I can share with you makes me realise it more and more... Ironically It also makes me more aware of my manhood.. I am a man who enjoys wearing nice clothes, womens clothes! The choice of self expression in female clothes is so much greater! Men have blah... or blah... Womens clothes (those I seem to enjoy) are simly moe sensual, but you know I've always been a sensual person..
And babe.. despite the heels and lace, etc, I am and always will be your man! You need me I am so there! woh to anyone that tries to stop me! Should I be in a skirt, well they will have something to not tell their grandkids! (Yes Jimmy a guy dressed as a woman knocked me out cold)
And you will always be more woman than I will ever be or wish to be!! :love:
After all it's in the little things! (the things I failed to appreciate in the past)
Love you always,