My Desire to CD is getting more intense

[Writeroflove]

I have lived a secret life as a female writer of lesbian of love for over three years. I have even sold some of the stories on-line. I have chatted and cybered as a lesbian, which is what i feel that i am, even though i have a mans body. I achive great pleasure from bringing pleasure to another woman.
I am so close to starting my own wardrobe, but i am married and have know idea what to expect form my wife.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.
:confused: :o

[Lady Katherine]

How interesting! I too have posed as a lesbian, not to fool anyone, but because I feel I AM a woman ... even though I live as a male, am married and have children. I wish not to deceive other girls, but of course, I do! I feel dishonest about it, but I must sound real. I am accepted as a woman and lesbian. Also, my pictures make me look quite feminine. I find so many lesbians find me interesting and attractive. I try to let them know very soon in any conversation that I'm male.

I also write both romance stories from a woman's point of view and TG fiction.

When our feelings of being female is so strong, and we have a basically decent family life ... with spouses and children we do not wish to hurt, we're in a tough spot. My best advice is to try to be honest with you wife, and hope for the best. If not, you'll have to keeping hiding your desires.

Love, Katherine

[StephanieH]

:eek: Wow, I was going to start a very similar post here. Just found the board and am quite excited about it. So how about it? How do we get wives to realize we're serious about this and not think that wanting to dress en-femme on occasion is grounds for having us locked up in a loony bin? My wife's very open minded, but when I first hit her with this issue, after twelve years of marraige and one child, she's not taking me seriously about this. Writeroflove, this is really freaky for me because I too am a writer and have made my living at it for two decades now. I know your frustration! Wish I had answers, but hopefully someone on this board can help both of us! Good luck and best wishes. Hope it all has a happy ending. :)

[Missy]

I have dreams of me as a woman makeing love with other weman I like to please the other woman as much as I am able to. I have been with both during my life and find it more inkoyable with weman as my mind sees me as a woman. my crossdressing can and at times getts out of hand and takes controll of me.
my wife know about my wearing womans cloths way before we got married and she keeps telling me that she loves me for me not what I wear guy cloths or womans cloths.
as long as I do not push her but just let her be herself she is ok with me in a dress at home.
I feel that she has the best of both a strong man that is emtionaly avilable at the time she needs it. along with maid service.

Missy

[Star]

If its is really going to wreck your family scene, telling her may not be a good idea. Putting up with the inconvienence of your secret may be easier.....if you feel you have to live as a woman its another matter...if its just that the cding is outta control....take a break from it.....

[JoAnnDallas]

Here's a thought, does she know about your writing. If it will help in your writing tell her you wish to dress up to get in mood and feel for ideas. Mabey she will even let you do some role-playing with her to get ideas.
I had a co-worker once that was into plays. I would help him with his lines at lunch time. Kinda like a mini-play. After a while someone new who ask and others would say "Oh that's so and so rehearsing a play that one of them is in". Sometimes we would have props too.

JoAnn

[StephanieH]

Thanks for the advice JoAnn, role playing is mostly what I'm after here. She's well versed with my writing and unfortunately there's little I could convince her of as a "need" to be en-femme on occasion. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk about this, but after all we've been through and continue to go through, I really expected this not to be an issue with her and she's just not wanting to talk about it, let alone do anything else about it. Like I said, my first wife was more than supportive, so I guess maybe I expected too much. She's a great lady, maybe it'll just take a while to sink in and she'll come around. Once again, this is a cool website, it's nice to see others out there who are just as "weird" as I am! ;)

[JoAnnDallas]

BTW, did you know that some of the more popular romanic novel writers are MEN.

[Writeroflove]

Hi to everyone and Thank you for all of your sage advice. I like the idea of using it as a prop for my writing.

PS I just bought my first pair of pantyhoes. Oh they feel so wonderful on me. So Sheer and smooth

:D

[Katie Lynn]

I have lived a secret life as a female writer of lesbian of love for over three years. I have even sold some of the stories on-line. I have chatted and cybered as a lesbian, which is what i feel that i am, even though i have a mans body. I achive great pleasure from bringing pleasure to another woman.
I am so close to starting my own wardrobe, but i am married and have know idea what to expect form my wife.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.
:confused: :o

I feel the same way. Al I can say about your wife, is explain to her the best you can why you feel the way you do.

I know my g/f (will be wife this month!!!), is extremely turned on by me, whether I am dressed as a man or a woman. Lesbian books must be fun to write, but i will tell ya, movies are even more fun to make! ;)

[Star]

mine too...every now and then i have to force myself to quit ...but that's getting harder to do.....

[Writeroflove]

I just added a pic of my new stockings to my profile. I need to find someone in WNY to dress me.

[gennee]

My desire to crossdress was pretty intense when I started in June. You should CD to satisfy that urge. You will feel better about it and about yourself. It cooled down in september but I have a better understanding of crossdressing.


Gennee:)

[Writeroflove]

Thanks for your reply Gennee. I intend to crossdress. I wish i had someone that could help me learn how to dress right. I want to look and feel very feminine. I truly want to be a woman. :)