Frédérique
07-21-2011, 07:27 AM
As of today, I’ve been active on this site for exactly two years. Big deal, right? I know, it seems longer, but bear with me. Yep – on July 21, 2009, I introduced myself as Freddy, ending a three-year lurking period. In my first post ever, I wrote, and I quote:
“I find it challenging to think of things to add to the posts on this site, but I’ll keep trying.”
Since that unenlightened moment of understatement, I’ve written about nearly everything under the Sun and Moon (as it relates to crossdressing, of course). Almost all of the time, I have no idea what I’m going to write about, or why I’m going to take the time to do so. Needless to say, all of this rambling prose, masquerading as meaningful topics for discussion, has been a highly personal yet beneficial catharsis for me. I write purely to relax, and MtF crossdressing is my favorite subject – the roads of thought branch off in all directions, and the possibilities are seemingly endless...
I’ve set in motion, often on a whim, threads about civility, deviancy, virility, perversions, premature birth, burning bridges, facial hair, shaking hands, hands on hips, transvestophilia, and phallocentrism. I’ve asked you if it hurts much, who do you think you are, where are you coming from, do you identify with your mother, and do you think you’re special (?). I’ve even offered discussion itself as a topic for discussion! Also, certain misunderstood words or terms, like conformity, non-conformity, crossdresser, transvestite, transgendered, masculinity, femininity (as we understand it), tolerance, and GAY have been endlessly debated on these premises. BTW, I AM a transvestite, so there will be no further discussion about that!
Sometimes I have something I would like to write about, in a peripheral sense, so I look for a thread where I can “place” it. This must bewilder a few members, since I post in unexpected paragraphs or essay-length dollops of verbosity. I apologize for my wordiness, but please don’t take me too seriously - I often “riff” off of someone’s words and hope for the best. My motto is, “why write and submit three words, when I can write three paragraphs that say exactly the same thing?” Like everyone else, I write to find out who I am, WHY I am, what I wish to be, and what I do not wish to become. Since I am a chronic work-in-progress, these pithy discussions and their attendant "conversations" are reassuringly invaluable to me...
I’ve often told relatively new members that this is the best place to get genuine information about crossdressing, no matter what form it may take. Simply being among other closet dwellers, successful CD “ladies,” 24/7 transgendered types, and transsexuals on either side of SRS, plus a GG or two (or three), for a completely different perspective, provides a valuable education that is devoid of the clinical aspect most literature on the subject invests itself with. That last sentence wins the Marcel Proust award for length and comma usage! What I’m trying to say is I’ve learned a lot here, no doubt about it...
So, is there anything left to discuss about MtF crossdressing? Of course there is, but I’m stumped at the moment. I’ve seen the same discussions over and over, but I always enjoy revisiting a topic to try to come up with a new “angle” on things. There are a few things I would like to discuss, but I’m not sure how well they would be received, so I balk – I get the feeling that this is not the place for “heaviness,” after all. Since MtF crossdressing carries certain connotations with it (fair or unfair – you be the judge), I would like to discuss latent homosexual tendencies that may or may not be apparent in some of us. I’m also trying to wrap my head around the idea of being “little,” as opposed to being gregarious (or outgoing), but this is not an easy concept for me to write about or discuss. Add to this a curious idea relating to gender incorporation called syzygy (definition #2) – you can look it up...
Male behavior is something I know a lot about, and I like to “stick in” my ideas on the subject here and there with the appropriate trimmings. Anyone (read: male) who is angered by my opinions can post their own, but you need to realize that, even though I “play” at being a girl, I am very much a male, and I struggle with that unalterable fact. Crossdressing has helped me to reduce my male “footprint,” and turn me towards a more effeminate being, i.e. a “me” I can live with. I need to look back from time to time and see where I came from, or if the male is gaining on me, and I write about that as often as I can, as nicely as I can. In a larger sense, I need reinforcement in my ongoing endeavor to replace “him” with “her,” and it’s not easy, my friends. In many ways, being male is an affliction, and crossdressing is the therapeutic, yet habit-forming drug I treat it with...
Everyone on this board has tales to tell, and I am no exception, but my paltry stories are not, cannot, or never will be as interesting as YOUR stories. I try to make up for this obvious deficiency with my philosophical dissertations, hopefully clear enough to follow and seen as some odd form of entertainment. I’m not qualified to discuss familial issues, nor have I ever had any actual problems crossdressing per se (I’ve never been “caught,” for instance), but I protect my CD’ing very carefully. I very much know my place around here, and that happens to be the lowest rung of the MtF crossdressing “ladder,” hanging on for dear life, staring down into the bottomless pit of normalcy as the wind blows up my skirt...
I told a dear friend the other day that I’ll be here as long as I can find topics to write about, or, failing that, writing for the sake of the “Writer’s Society,” the only society where I’m accepted! I thank you all for putting up with me these past two years. As soon as this record heat wave ends in the Midwest, my brain cells might start working again – lately I’m feeling frazzled, physically and mentally, and this is beginning to creep into my collective sentences. With that in mind, please take everything I say (I mean write) with a grain of salt, or the whole shaker (or bag) if need be, OK? Like everyone else, I’m just trying to fit in around here and find a comfortable place to BE. I enjoy the company immensely, and I mean that most sincerely...
Oh, I almost forgot the "punch" line, for all you fans of brevity...
Can you think of any topics we haven’t discussed in this section, or is there anything else you think we should discuss? :thinking:
I know I’m repeating myself, but thanks for reading! As usual, my train of thought made too many stops... :doh:
“I find it challenging to think of things to add to the posts on this site, but I’ll keep trying.”
Since that unenlightened moment of understatement, I’ve written about nearly everything under the Sun and Moon (as it relates to crossdressing, of course). Almost all of the time, I have no idea what I’m going to write about, or why I’m going to take the time to do so. Needless to say, all of this rambling prose, masquerading as meaningful topics for discussion, has been a highly personal yet beneficial catharsis for me. I write purely to relax, and MtF crossdressing is my favorite subject – the roads of thought branch off in all directions, and the possibilities are seemingly endless...
I’ve set in motion, often on a whim, threads about civility, deviancy, virility, perversions, premature birth, burning bridges, facial hair, shaking hands, hands on hips, transvestophilia, and phallocentrism. I’ve asked you if it hurts much, who do you think you are, where are you coming from, do you identify with your mother, and do you think you’re special (?). I’ve even offered discussion itself as a topic for discussion! Also, certain misunderstood words or terms, like conformity, non-conformity, crossdresser, transvestite, transgendered, masculinity, femininity (as we understand it), tolerance, and GAY have been endlessly debated on these premises. BTW, I AM a transvestite, so there will be no further discussion about that!
Sometimes I have something I would like to write about, in a peripheral sense, so I look for a thread where I can “place” it. This must bewilder a few members, since I post in unexpected paragraphs or essay-length dollops of verbosity. I apologize for my wordiness, but please don’t take me too seriously - I often “riff” off of someone’s words and hope for the best. My motto is, “why write and submit three words, when I can write three paragraphs that say exactly the same thing?” Like everyone else, I write to find out who I am, WHY I am, what I wish to be, and what I do not wish to become. Since I am a chronic work-in-progress, these pithy discussions and their attendant "conversations" are reassuringly invaluable to me...
I’ve often told relatively new members that this is the best place to get genuine information about crossdressing, no matter what form it may take. Simply being among other closet dwellers, successful CD “ladies,” 24/7 transgendered types, and transsexuals on either side of SRS, plus a GG or two (or three), for a completely different perspective, provides a valuable education that is devoid of the clinical aspect most literature on the subject invests itself with. That last sentence wins the Marcel Proust award for length and comma usage! What I’m trying to say is I’ve learned a lot here, no doubt about it...
So, is there anything left to discuss about MtF crossdressing? Of course there is, but I’m stumped at the moment. I’ve seen the same discussions over and over, but I always enjoy revisiting a topic to try to come up with a new “angle” on things. There are a few things I would like to discuss, but I’m not sure how well they would be received, so I balk – I get the feeling that this is not the place for “heaviness,” after all. Since MtF crossdressing carries certain connotations with it (fair or unfair – you be the judge), I would like to discuss latent homosexual tendencies that may or may not be apparent in some of us. I’m also trying to wrap my head around the idea of being “little,” as opposed to being gregarious (or outgoing), but this is not an easy concept for me to write about or discuss. Add to this a curious idea relating to gender incorporation called syzygy (definition #2) – you can look it up...
Male behavior is something I know a lot about, and I like to “stick in” my ideas on the subject here and there with the appropriate trimmings. Anyone (read: male) who is angered by my opinions can post their own, but you need to realize that, even though I “play” at being a girl, I am very much a male, and I struggle with that unalterable fact. Crossdressing has helped me to reduce my male “footprint,” and turn me towards a more effeminate being, i.e. a “me” I can live with. I need to look back from time to time and see where I came from, or if the male is gaining on me, and I write about that as often as I can, as nicely as I can. In a larger sense, I need reinforcement in my ongoing endeavor to replace “him” with “her,” and it’s not easy, my friends. In many ways, being male is an affliction, and crossdressing is the therapeutic, yet habit-forming drug I treat it with...
Everyone on this board has tales to tell, and I am no exception, but my paltry stories are not, cannot, or never will be as interesting as YOUR stories. I try to make up for this obvious deficiency with my philosophical dissertations, hopefully clear enough to follow and seen as some odd form of entertainment. I’m not qualified to discuss familial issues, nor have I ever had any actual problems crossdressing per se (I’ve never been “caught,” for instance), but I protect my CD’ing very carefully. I very much know my place around here, and that happens to be the lowest rung of the MtF crossdressing “ladder,” hanging on for dear life, staring down into the bottomless pit of normalcy as the wind blows up my skirt...
I told a dear friend the other day that I’ll be here as long as I can find topics to write about, or, failing that, writing for the sake of the “Writer’s Society,” the only society where I’m accepted! I thank you all for putting up with me these past two years. As soon as this record heat wave ends in the Midwest, my brain cells might start working again – lately I’m feeling frazzled, physically and mentally, and this is beginning to creep into my collective sentences. With that in mind, please take everything I say (I mean write) with a grain of salt, or the whole shaker (or bag) if need be, OK? Like everyone else, I’m just trying to fit in around here and find a comfortable place to BE. I enjoy the company immensely, and I mean that most sincerely...
Oh, I almost forgot the "punch" line, for all you fans of brevity...
Can you think of any topics we haven’t discussed in this section, or is there anything else you think we should discuss? :thinking:
I know I’m repeating myself, but thanks for reading! As usual, my train of thought made too many stops... :doh: