RenneB
07-27-2011, 05:25 PM
This one, I just have to share with y’all.
Last night’s dream was the first time I have ever dreamed that I was actually a GG. But first let me back up a little. I’m currently at the half century mark on this rock and have been a CDer ever since the age of 5. You know the story, dress, hide, purge. On and off for most of my life. The last 15 years were off so that I could find a SO and raise a family.
However, the past year has dealt a downturn in the economy and I ended up in the house all day, alone, without a job. Believe me, searhing for a job is hard than having one. Anyways, being home alone what’s an ol’ CDer to do? So I jumped on line and started getting the wardrobe back. This time, in style, shoes that fit, nails, hair, silicone forms… the works.
Since I’m a closet CD, dressing en fem was limited to Monday to Friday from 9 in the morning to 2 in the after noon as the SO is at work and the bioreplacements are in school. A unique opportunity came last week as the SO was out of town for three weeks. I figured, hey I remember back in my single days when I’d dress en fem go to bed and have some wild dream (nightmare) about getting outed. I’d wake up the next morning and say to myself, don’t get outed, put my girly clothes back in the closet and wait for next weekend.
So I started getting dressed for bed with forms, hip pads, nails and a slip and off to dream land. Well every morning for the past two weeks I’d wake up remembering the same type of dream that I used to have, of being outed (worst fear ever). That is until last night.
I was (in dreamland) running around the house getting my stuff ready to go to high school. I stopped for a moment and turned to look in the mirror hanging on the wall and there she was. A burnette that I had never seen before. She’s about 16 with medium length burnette hair, slightly pulled back and a light blue spring dress on. I thought, is this me? I smiled and the reflection smiled back at me. It, I mean she, was me.
Mom said to me “come on girl, you’re going to be late for school”. I turned away from the mirror and kept running around the house gathering my stuff up. I remember telling her, “Mom, one of my nails isn’t the right color, I need to find my polish.” She replied “oh just fix it in the car dear”.
Wow, was this really happening to me I thought? Have I gone back in time and crossed over? And then, I woke up. What seemed like a new life for me, vanished in an instant. I layed there in bed this morning for a few moments, cupping my forms in my hands and thinking, thank you brain for that experience. It was one of the most vivid dreams I’ve had in a while and this one embodied everything I could wish for. Youth, femininity, and acceptance. I can’t wait for tonight’s sleep show.
How about y’all…. Ever sleep en fem about a life that could have been…?
Last night’s dream was the first time I have ever dreamed that I was actually a GG. But first let me back up a little. I’m currently at the half century mark on this rock and have been a CDer ever since the age of 5. You know the story, dress, hide, purge. On and off for most of my life. The last 15 years were off so that I could find a SO and raise a family.
However, the past year has dealt a downturn in the economy and I ended up in the house all day, alone, without a job. Believe me, searhing for a job is hard than having one. Anyways, being home alone what’s an ol’ CDer to do? So I jumped on line and started getting the wardrobe back. This time, in style, shoes that fit, nails, hair, silicone forms… the works.
Since I’m a closet CD, dressing en fem was limited to Monday to Friday from 9 in the morning to 2 in the after noon as the SO is at work and the bioreplacements are in school. A unique opportunity came last week as the SO was out of town for three weeks. I figured, hey I remember back in my single days when I’d dress en fem go to bed and have some wild dream (nightmare) about getting outed. I’d wake up the next morning and say to myself, don’t get outed, put my girly clothes back in the closet and wait for next weekend.
So I started getting dressed for bed with forms, hip pads, nails and a slip and off to dream land. Well every morning for the past two weeks I’d wake up remembering the same type of dream that I used to have, of being outed (worst fear ever). That is until last night.
I was (in dreamland) running around the house getting my stuff ready to go to high school. I stopped for a moment and turned to look in the mirror hanging on the wall and there she was. A burnette that I had never seen before. She’s about 16 with medium length burnette hair, slightly pulled back and a light blue spring dress on. I thought, is this me? I smiled and the reflection smiled back at me. It, I mean she, was me.
Mom said to me “come on girl, you’re going to be late for school”. I turned away from the mirror and kept running around the house gathering my stuff up. I remember telling her, “Mom, one of my nails isn’t the right color, I need to find my polish.” She replied “oh just fix it in the car dear”.
Wow, was this really happening to me I thought? Have I gone back in time and crossed over? And then, I woke up. What seemed like a new life for me, vanished in an instant. I layed there in bed this morning for a few moments, cupping my forms in my hands and thinking, thank you brain for that experience. It was one of the most vivid dreams I’ve had in a while and this one embodied everything I could wish for. Youth, femininity, and acceptance. I can’t wait for tonight’s sleep show.
How about y’all…. Ever sleep en fem about a life that could have been…?