Emergency Admission Post Erectile Device :-(

[Felix]

Hi my friends well my worse fears were realised on Tuesday when I came for my post op check at Harley Street. The swelling in my pubic area which I hoped wasnt a haematoma turned out to be exactly that and it had pushed the implant out of pisition and so it was pocking although not through the skin very close to the surface. Not good as this could cause erosion and scaring to my willy :-( So I was admitted as an emergency to St John & Elizabeths in London.

Mr Ralph was extremely thourough and decided to take the implant out fir safety reasons. So I have to wait now for everything to heal and then they will try again. I knew before this was a risky procedure with a high infection rate but I was still dissappointed as the implant made me feel great about my penis lol but safety first.... Felix :-)

[JodieGreen]

how long is the healing process?

[mistunderstood]

I am sorry to hear that Felix. That has to suck and hurt at the same time. Man it seems like you have not had a easy time with your SRS surgeries. Hope next time it heals right for you. Take care.

[Philipa Jane]

Felix
The road is long and arduous with many twists and turns.
Stay positive, things have a way of working out.
My thoughts are with you.
PJ

[Momarie]

I'm so sorry Felix.
I hope you aren't in any pain and heal quickly.

[Eryn]

Sorry to hear about the step backwards. Keep your chin up and we'll shoot for better results next time!

Eryn

[AllieSF]

That is not the news and results that you had wanted. However, time will tell and removing the original insert was probably the best idea so as to give the rest a good chance to heal properly. Patience is now needed, which you have demonstrated that you have so many times before. I wish you the best.

[DonniDarkness]

Im sorry felix. I hope it goes well during the next healing process. Ive been rooting for you on the sidelines ever since reading your posts.

Heal Quickly,
-Donni-

[Frederik]

That sucks Felix :( I really hope it'll heal soon so you can try again!

[Fractured]

Best wishes on a quick and full healing.

[Andy66]

Aw, Felix. Sorry to hear that. Feel better soon. :hugs:

[ReineD]

I'm sorry Felix. I hope you heal quickly so they can try again. :hugs:

[TxKimberly]

Just THINKING about it makes me wince. It sounds like you are gonna be have to be bored for a little while until things heal up a bit. ;)

[GG Kathy]

Hope you get better soon

[danielle40I]

This is simply a temporary setback for you Felix. Chin up Luv and better days will come to you I'm sure.

[Lorileah]

Best wishes and quick healing :hugs:

[7sisters]

Sending good healing vibes your way, Felix.

[Raychel]

Sorry for your troubles Felix, I hope you are feeling better again soon.

[Poltergeist]

I'm sorry Felix, that must be so frustratring!

[Leo Lane]

What a nuisance, eh? Get better soon, Felix.

[noeleena]

Hi, Felix ,

Hopeing your healing is good , some of us do have things go wrong at times & with any surgerys , take heart & dont let it get you down , be thinking about you ,

Hugs ,

...noeleena...

[metalguy639]

Damn Felix, sorry to hear about your issue. Hope all goes well from now on.

[Felix]

Thanx my friends for all your support and encouragement I value it highly:-)
The recovery from this op is supposed to be four weeks if everything goes well no infections and if the device stays in the right place. Im waiting to hear from the consultant to see when he wants me back he did suggest two weeks but we'll see. I'll keep ya updated :-) ....Felix

[mistunderstood]

Hope you are feeling better now it has a been a few days since you posted. I have a question. if you would like to answer it in the Club House you can but in your opinion looking back on what you have been through over the last nine month has it been worth it? I ask because I have been following your posts and read what you have accomplished and well has it been worth it? I am still trying to figure out how far I want to go with my own journey. I do live full time as a man but I have not taken hormones yet or have had surgery. I would like to try hormones but I am so close to the change. I have read a lot that if you do you should have a complete hysto because it can increase your chances of cancer in the female bit's. I want to be smart about my decisions and I do not want to regret any thing I do. When I say regret I mean make a choice that could kill mean in the future,
Any advice you are senior trail blazer here now you know. Well you and Daniel any any ways.

[Felix]

Hya I can understand your concerns fully as its a huge decision to go all the way and have genital reconstruction its not one to be taken lightly IMHO. The only regret I have is that I didnt do this when I was younger but then it just wasnt an option for me at the time for many reasons. As for doing it now no I dont have any regrets about having the surgery :-)

Before T I wouldnt of dreamt Id be where I am now I thought Id get top surgery and if I could maybe metoidaplasty but never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be getting full genital reconstruction to the point of being fully functional. Yes I cant produce sperm but Im as near as I can get to being fully functional as male and at 45 Im happy with that and so is my partner.

The scar on my arm the graft is healing well and if one cant handle the thought of that then radial fore arm phallo really isnt for you. My graft scar will blend in over time and it is doing well after 11 months to be honest. Patience with it is the key. There are options like once healed getting a tattoo over it but Im not fussed I dont think. You can also have the graft from ya stomach or side or leg but the most successful in terms of results full sensation and stuff is what Ive had RFP.

I am tired a lot but thats because Ive had ten surgeries since January 2010 having had my chest surgeries in between my lower surgeries. I chose to do it this way because of work and I just wanted to get it all done as quickly as possible so I could get on with my life as it should always have been :-) Ive had to get fit to do it this way as I would no way have coped if I hadnt.

As for risks with hormones yes there is potentially an increased risk of cancer when taking T in the womb ovaries and cervix but my endo said their really hasnt been enough research done on trans men throughout the transition process and beyond to substanciate claims. She was more concerned about how T if not strictly monitored affects the other organs like the heart and the liver. If correctly monitored it shouldnt be a major problem.

Ive never been happier in my life to be honest coz ive done the right thing for ME and thats the important thing this is a very personal choice and a very personal journey and the decisions ya make around this have to be your choices and no one elses because its your body and mind and at the end of the day theres only one person who knows you and what you need and thats you. A Psych can diagnose us so we can move forward but at the end of the day its only us who know if we are transsexual and ultmately if we need medical intervention hormones and surgeries to make us happy and content and feeling like our body is in line with our brain and therefore a comlete and balanced human being. Hope this has helped. Anything else mate just ask away thats what Im here for :-) .....Felix

[mistunderstood]

Thank you for being honest. Like you I am 40 and if I remembered you were big in top(I think I might be wrong on that). I am trying to lose weight right now. I would like to do more but money is the problem. Here in the US they will not fund you for your hormones or surgery on Medicare. So the only thing I can do is lose weight then when I come close to my goal I have to look for ways to pay then I need to see someone and then look in to having my chest done then some plastic surgery to remove the excess skin from my weight loss.
Sorry if my question sounded off. I just wanted to hear from some one who just did this and I kinda knew.
Last year before I turned 40 I spent a lot of that year looking back and I felt I wasted my first 39 years and I vowed to not waste the next. I do not want to reach 80 and be pissed that I did not do this.

[Felix]

Hi I feel for ya mate and yeah I totally understand that you dont want to have any regrets if you dont do things now. I realize how hard it is for you guys out there and even though we have the nhs its cost a fortune in travel and accommodation to do my surgeries. I know its no concellation really. Its not a problem you ask what ever you want mate thats what Im here for :-) As for my chest yeah I was large 38 well really large by the time my surgeries started so where hes got me too now is amazing and I have to be realistic about looks coz Im 45 so Im never gonna have a 20 somethings chest although I can work on it to keep it firm when hes finished. ....Felix :-)